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Life of a ww1 soldier, need help

Thank you for your answers. I think I'ill might join the forum when it will reopen.


As I heard about it on TV, I know that I will feel very emotional the Remembrance Day, mostly because it will precisely make one century that the WW1 ended. I'm already thinking about going to commemorations and paying tribute my own way.
 
Remembrance Day is Past Life wise not really special but because I served in this lifetime in the Canadian Army as well makes it difficult
Past life wise mainly april 9th and the week or so before can be a difficult time, that was when I was killed at Vimy, surprisingly all my other dates of death pass without much of a fuss
 
I've been thinking about this year's remembrance day more and more recently. I'm not sure why, but the war being over for 100 years exactly just had a strange feel to it, like something passing that I can't quite explain. I'm pretty sure it'll mean the end to random Great War bits and bobs popping up on the news or the TV or whatnot, and maybe that'll mean the general non-PL public forgetting again, and maybe that's it, the thought that, in some way, the war will be over again and everyone will pretty-much forget again. Writing that out, it does get to me emotionally, oh dear it does. As a survivor of the war I was forgotten last time, maybe I'm afraid of being forgotten again??
 
It could be
Hell, I fought in Afghanistan in this life, how many outside the military still think about that?

WWI and II are still remembered in Canada and Europe though with commemorations on the start date of major battles
Market Garden's coming up in the Netherlands with big events held at major sides (yes I also fought there as an American Airborne)

In Ypres on Armistice day, as nov 11 is called in Belgium, they hold a Remembrance ceremony and thousands line the road to Menin Gate
Also, every evening FIVE buglars of the local Fire Dept sound the Last Post, it's impressive, they actually close down the road for this EVERY day, look it up on youtube

They don't forget nor will they let future generations forget
 
I agree with CanSol. The memory of WW1 is still vivid in France and in the rest of Europe. As long as there will be commemorations, people won't forget.
 
Maybe I should clarify. I live in England, and the war is an ever-presence here, it's part of the culture and national psyche. But, it has been more present the last 4 years, more obvious and 'there'. I'm just not sure how much of that will carry on once the 100 years are over. It won't be as obviously 'there'. My memory of the end of the war last time is that people didn't forget, but they had a selective memory. Monuments were built to the dead whilst the survivors were left to get on with life as best they could, no matter how broken. So, I know people won't necessarily forget, but my experience the first time round makes me more reserved (maybe even cynical) about it this time.
 
It's the same as with all wars, like I asked before, how many remember Afghanistan?
In there lies your answer

People only actively remember what affected them directly, other events, however big and significant are remembered when they're mentioned
 
I was on MPL, too, my username was "Tainted_Soul".

Got a flash of what possibly was WWI only this year. The noise of a thunderstorm triggered it. I was French, hiding in a bunker or something, but still could hear the muffled sounds of the Germans attacking. Could also have been WWII, but somehow, for me, personally, WWI always felt more horrible.
The Verdun memorial site touched me deeply when I visited it first in this life. As did the movie (the old one) "Nothing new to the west".
While imagination always is a possibility, I don't see any reason why I would make up a PL as a young french soldier who is crying for his Mom and probably sh****** his pants.
You definitely are not alone, Jupiter11.
Also, a belated Welcome to this forum.
 
Hello, SeekerOfKnowledge. Thank you for your message.

I can relate to your story because I was 21 years old at the time of war. I was constantly thinking about my family and friends and told me that I had to survive in order to see them again. But it didn't happen.

Strange the fact that you mentioned a thunderstorm because there was one yesterday and it triggered memories too ! The noise of war is horrible. I still hear at night, often before getting asleep.

Unlike you, however, I never watched any movies about ww1, so at least I know that my visions and nightmares don't come from there.

As it has been mentioned elswhere, PL memories are not always visual. I remember the sound of the artillery, the smell of the smoke, the humidity, the taste of what I used to ate in the trenches. I think it will eventually fade away as time goes by.
 
The smell of the smoke I remember from a much earlier time... gunpowder. When cannons or shotguns have been fired. The smell still lingers in the air for awhile... a bit like incense, yet very different at the same time.
Well, I never can be sure. If it is true, my name was Guilliaume and I ran from home at age 16, because I had these typical boyish dreams of becoming a hero. In my memory, I am horribly afraid and desperately crying for my Mom, just like a very little boy would do. So not heroic at all. Definitely nothing to be proud of, lol... there also is a faint image of trenches.
It is possible, of course. "Guilliaume" aka William is a very common name, and it was particularly common around 1900, so around the time of my possible birth.
What I get besides visuals from self-regressions is body feelings (like a faint echo of a pain or of a loving touch) and strong emotions. And sometimes smell. Sound not so much, the reason probably is that the files I was using for self-regressions were audio. For that, a song sometimes can push me back... like it once happened with a song from the 1960's, and with two tunes of the 1400's.
 
Thunderstorms are powerfull triggers from vets with the first cannons to now
The thunder can sound like the impact of shells while the flashes can resemble the launching of the shells (the latter triggers mostly arty considering infantry kept low lest a shell fell short and therefore most didn't look to see the guns firing, unless they were stupid and often times combined with very green ofcourse....)
 
Hi everyone, I hope you are doing well. :)

I came back to school last week so I think my reincarnation research are going to be a little bit suspended for a while.
I lived an awful day. This semester, I have to follow a seminar about world war I. It was horrible, because we've been exposed to images and paintings. Each time a photo came out, it reactivated flash backs of war and everything i went through. I am to read poems and books about that period. I don't know how I'm going to stand this, as I wanted to cry and run away during the whole course. Hopefully, the seminar only happens one time per week.

I tried to push back my memories, analyzing the images in an academical way, but I couldn't. The worst of it is that you can't even show your emotion otherwise people are going to think "what's wrong with her/him ?". o_O
The urge of talking about my past lives has becoming stronger these days. I'm waiting the right opportunity to talk about it with my family.

I was thinking about something. The year where the majority of my PL memories emerged is the year of the ww1 centenary. At first, I thought it was merely a coincidence but now I take it more like an opportunity for my soul to remember and to heal for good.
 
The Vimy centenial was a hard one for me, harder than the average aprils
I find myself shifting between being in a kind of fog where one of my past wars is always in my mind one way or the other (WWI, WWII, Nam, Afghanistan) and living in the here and now
At the moment I'm in WWII

I had to do a paper on WWII every year, everyone wrote about the ETO, I avoided that whole part and focused on the Pacific, neutral territory for me since I served in Europe
If WWI came up I wrote about Gallipoli, Verdun, in short anywhere relatively far away from the areas where I fought, it was the only middle ground.....either that or walking out of class (yes that happened because I clashed with the teacher who didn't even know anything about the Pacific theatre)

Perhaps you can find a middle ground and can get through it without coming to blows with your teacher(s) like I did
 
Hello everyone, hello Jupiter 11,

Thank you for sharing your story, I find a lot of peace knowing that others, like you, are also remembering these dark moments of our history.

I thank you for taking the time to describe your experience, and I hope that you are now in peace!

For those of you who remember a past during either World Wars, do you happen to have memories of what happened on the battlefield once you passed?

Because I have found a lot of peace in remembering the journey after dying on the Eastern front in 1943, knowing how close the formerly german and russians souls were and how united we were after passing. I do hope that, from these dark memories, you all kind find some peace from this.
 
Hi Benjamin.

I didn't serve in either World Wars ( I don't remember this but I apparently took a payment for pretending I was going to fight in WW1 though ) but its nice to think that the brotherhood between men is extended to all souls when we die. Its gives me comfort yet at the same time points to the futility of war.
 
Hi Benjamin,

Thank you for your nice comment. Sadly no, I don't remember what happened on the battlefield after I died, but it is comforting to know that souls get reunited.

I've been very surprised by how you easily managed to detach yourself from your previous identity. For now, I cannot. My war memories are too vivid and I struggle every day and night with violent images of death and horror. I keep having new memories of weapons, vehicles, details ,etc...that I retrieve online, print out and class in a file to make order in my mind.

I also struggle with the guilt of having killed so many soldiers in the most horrific ways possible. I try to tell myself that I am a different person today, but it hardly works. I think it's because I still identify to him a lot, and keep saying "I", when I talk about this soldier. Because he's still a part of me and always will.

However, I think that someday, I will manage to detach myself from this identity like you did with the Waffen SS officer. It will take time, As I discovered my PL only two months ago.
 
Jupiter,
My first memories were of both World Wars, I too can't detach fully and at this point I no longer seek it, those memories have been with me for as long as I can remember and my WWII knowledge, having been an US Airborne medic, proved literally life saving in Afghanistan

I don't have the voilent memories day in and day out, no more than my memories from this time round anyway, I can get triggered to a memory but they're not always visual, sometimes it's just a thought like this or that happened at that time, place or whatever (PL memories are the same as your memories of your current life so it's visual, thought, sound)

I do have times when a certain PL intrudes more in daily life than average but by now I can pretty much tell you like clockwork which life pops up when and just try to deal with it like the rest of my life, the best I can

I'm aware of traces of various lives but who I am today is a vet of WWI, WWII, Vietnam and Afghanistan
And like a lot of vets say: "if it weren't for flashbacks, I wouldn't have memories at all"
 
Jupiter 11, two month's time is not a very long period to complete what you started in my opinion. To reach the point that it was indeed part of another aspect of your soul experiencing physical action/reaction learnings that were important to it's incarnation cycle and that there maybe something still there that is unresolved - and being satisfied in moving on. Take your time, I hope the time comes soon where you find it more fitting to write "The war memories..."rather than "My war memories..."
 
Hi Benjamin,

Thank you for your nice comment. Sadly no, I don't remember what happened on the battlefield after I died, but it is comforting to know that souls get reunited.

I've been very surprised by how you easily managed to detach yourself from your previous identity. For now, I cannot. My war memories are too vivid and I struggle every day and night with violent images of death and horror. I keep having new memories of weapons, vehicles, details ,etc...that I retrieve online, print out and class in a file to make order in my mind.

I also struggle with the guilt of having killed so many soldiers in the most horrific ways possible. I try to tell myself that I am a different person today, but it hardly works. I think it's because I still identify to him a lot, and keep saying "I", when I talk about this soldier. Because he's still a part of me and always will.

However, I think that someday, I will manage to detach myself from this identity like you did with the Waffen SS officer. It will take time, As I discovered my PL only two months ago.

Hello!

I will try to answer all the points you raised, and overall give you a message of hope!

To give you more perspective, on my side, I have been going through these memories for quite some time, and found his name about a year ago.

As to how easily I managed to detach myself from this previous identity, I think that:
1. I have meditated a lot on it, and got to a pretty good understanding of who he was, who I am now, and the relation we have. I understand that these war memories are extremely violent, and to be honest for me too they haven't disappeared, far from it. However, it is now part of a larger experience in my life, because it is not all about the war and the suffering. Whenever I see or feel anything from this past, which still occurs quite regularly, I always put it in perspective, along with the very positive things I have gained from it
2. I strongly believe that I remembered because of unresolved issues. I don't claim that everyone's case is the same, far from it, but I have a feeling that, on my path, I had to talk to his relatives and just tell them some things. When we were together for the first time (me and his grandson, who's a truely great guy), I told them many things that I didn't know before. It was like I had, inside me, things I wasn't aware of but who were there and were waiting to be said. Once I did "resolve" this, it's like a HUGE load was taken of my back, and it's been lifechanging for me!
3. Time has passed. Surfing on a positive wave after undergoing this fantastic research, I actually made things in my current life that make me super happy. I am surrounded by people I love, I live an interesting life that is at the opposite of what I remembered from the previous experience, and I don't feel like I have "bad karma" or any punishment associated. Now these sad memories don't drag me down anymore, and it will be the same for you in a not-so-far future.

Time is your ally, and don't forget to live your life! Every step you take, in the right direction, will lead you further away from this sad past.

I think it's a blessing, to be honest. We, for reason we do not yet remember, seem to remember a sad end (and imagine how many millions souls went through the same violent end), and we were allowed to do so - I don't think it's random or here to make you suffer more.

So remember that you received this gift, however hard it is to handle, to make you grow. I am sure it will make your life more rich in teachings, it will make you see a lot of beauty in this world, and in a few months or years, here you will come to tell you story and how it brought you peace.

You were given this peace, it's right there inside you, buried in memories of blood and death, but it's here. I pray that you will walk the path to finding it!

And a small note regarding your health: if, like me, in the darkest moments, you forgot to take good care of your body balance, I would suggest to learn more about diet and balance as it has greatly helped me rebuild a very strong morale. Don't forget that, aside from your mind, you have a body that you need to take good care of, it's your vessel in this life, and the more healthy you are in your body, the less you will suffer from anxiety or (like I experienced) depression related to the horror you remember.

Hope it helped!

PS: if you live around Paris, I know a very good clinical psychologist who remembers dying in the trenches of WW2. He's a great person, a great therapist and has plenty of experience to lead you towards Peace (he was instrumental in my recovery).

Benjamin
 
Hi Benjamin.

I've been really enjoying your sharing of your experiences. You've been very lucky to find a therapist with past life memories. I gave up going to my old therapist because every time I tried to talk about my guilt and suffering around my pl memories he would look bored and talk about how admirable my past life self was. What I was sharing with him was outside of his realm of experience. It was a waste of time.
 
Benjamin, thank you for that up-lifting post, I hope that members and guests now and in the future take benefit of your experience and wise words!
 
Benjamin,

Thanks a million for having taken the time to write a such long message ! Your words really warmed my heart and you write wonderfully well.

Indeed, as KenJ mentioned it too, I think I have unresolved issues with this past life. The thing is that I clearly remember having written letters to my family. I promised them that I will come back home but I never did because I died. I already planned to travel to the village where this soldier used to live, and check around if I recognize some places.

I am on a genealogy website and I think that the tree of the soldier has been made by his brother's descendants. It really touched me to discover that one member of the family survived. There were five children. three brothers out of four died in the war. I was one of them.
I would lie if I said that I woudn 't like to meet the descendants. But I woudn't know what to say to them anyway. The simple knowledge of knowing that they're outside, living their life, is enough for me. I'm happy with that. Benjamin, I think you've been very brave to contact the family of the soldier and share your story.

" A healthy mind in a healthy body". I couldn't agree more. I encounter digestive problems which are I think more or less PL related, and indeed, it is very important to watch your diet.

As for the therapist, No, I don't live near Paris, but in the South of France. I found a list of PL therapists near my home but I still don't know if I will see one. I fear charlatans. Morever, apparently, the revival of the scenes are even more powerful under hypnosis and I don't want to go through that.

Jim78, your bad experience is what I fear too. Meeting a therapist who will not be able to understand me.

Cansol, having memories of ww1 is already awful, so I can't imagine having memories of several wars. You have my support.
 
Salut!

It's a pleasure to share with you. I know we're both young, we're both from France where, well... I mean it's the country of René Descartes. We are taught how to sharpen our intellect and fit into a rational perspective at all times. So yeah, when all of a sudden you realize what is happening to you is very serious, it's easy to lose balance.

As for the therapist, well yes, you need to find someone that is serious. Because from my experience you can meet two kinds of bad therapists:
-those who are trained therapists but don't give a **** about what you're saying, don't want to acknowledge that you are telling them serious thoughts and images, and just either mislabel you or stop caring.
-those who take you seriously and/or are believers in reincarnation, but lack training. These guys are the worst. They might not be able to help you handle the experience. I know I had one chaotic regression and it was a nightmare.

For your research of a therapist, don't give up because:
- you need to be helped by someone who is trained to do so. It's no easy thing you're seeing, and I understand that you are legitimately scared of diving into it. A relationship with a good therapist will start with an assesment, you will explore what needs to be said before going into hypnosis. And once it's time he/she will walk you through it and make it a learning experience, not a seance of torture (unless your goal is to catalog every round you shot, every body you saw, which I doubt )
-there are good networks in France, not so hard to find therapists. I would suggest, like I did, to contact the institute founded by Stéphane Allix, a former war reporter who remembered his former identity as a Waffen-SS officer aswell. Search for INREES. They are serious people, for deontology reasons they won't give you a list of names but will help you find a trained therapist (remember that some of them can also use Skype).

Petit mot en français pour toi: cherche un thérapeute ouvert au transpersonnel. De préférence avec un background de psychologue!

Benjamin
 
One more thing, about what you said:

You said that you are basically still experiencing the pain of not keeping the promise you made in your letters. Have you wondered about what the people you sent the letters to think of this ?

Don't get me wrong, but I draw a parallel with my own story: I had those unresolved issues and I did tell you that I told his family some informations, emotions and regrets. And you know, oddly enough, it's not so much the fact of telling them that brought me peace, but more the realization that the last person that kept on carrying that weight was me. They had made peace with it long time ago. I hope it helped them understanding more about him but overall they were already living happy lives, they had carried on. And those who passed, from his family, I am sure they forgave him for not being with with them when they grew old.

So all I'm saying is: meditate on this. Those unkept promises are a heavy burden to you, but try to ask those people if they've forgiven you. I am sure they already have and are just waiting for you to ackownledge it in your heart and mind. It's called forgiveness and that's what all our journeys in past lives are all about.

As for contacting his family, well, at first I didn't want to do it. I didn't want to sound like a lunatic and frankly I was just at the beginning of my'historical research.

But one evening, as I was searching for the structure of the Totenkopf Division during March 1943, I stumbled upon a forum post from his grandson, I think he was asking, on a forum in a super old post (like 8 years old), about details of his relative's death, and gave his email adress.

And so without thinking I sent him a long email, describing in details what I remembered, how I got to make the connection, among other things. And you know the feeling of doing something at the exact right moment? He responded in 5 minutes. And when he did read it, he was actually with his father, the first son of the identity I remember. It was such an eerie feeling.

Anyway it seems that the message was well received because they were kind enough to supply me with pictures, and personal memories, and it remains one of the best memories of my life.

So yeah... I didn't mean to do it but it happened I'm glad it did
 
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Salut Benjamin !

Thank you again for your advise. I already knew INREES and indeed, they seem rather serious in their way of approaching those kind of experiences. I'll check if I can find a good therapist.

You're right, letting go and forgive is very difficult. It's going to be very intense to go to that village, but I need it. To see that no one is waiting for me anymore will help me to move on.
Yesterday has been a great day because I finally managed to find and download the Military ID card of my best fighting companion. I cried and now I feel so much lightened.

I still have doubts about contacting the brother's descendant. Anyway, I have all the time to think about it and decide. At least I'm glad it happened well between you and the family.


Also, it has nothing to do with what I've written above, but even if I know my PL I can't help but being surprised to discover that I have military knowledge, which is ironical since I've criticized everything related to the military my entire life. So, discovering that I've been a soldier was like karma backfired at my face :). At first, I was very embarrased but fortunately it gets better by day.
I guess it's the old trope "you hate what you are"...
 
In my case I know that atleast 3 of my PL families hadn't/hasn't fully let go after getting killed in WWI, II and Nam
I'm related by marriage somewhere to my WWI self and have a relative of my WWII self in a military related FB group and my parents and siblings still have a hard time with me being killed in the Jungle, I discovered that when I was working on IDing my PL and read the messages on a Nam KIA tribute site

Many families never got over losing someone during WWI, atleast not in Canada
They moved on but many wrote about how there was a void or something and that the loss is always there, having lost family in Afghanistan it's not much different, some familymembers are still trying to cope with the loss of their son while the other's accepted that their son's gone and move on the best they can

I was there when one of my cousins was killed and brought him home, for me it's hard but I and they knew that the chance was always there that one or all 3 of us might not come home alive

In short, some families find ways to deal with it and others can't get passed it, it even differs person to person within a family

And there's a whole nother matter where we lost a firefighter and none of us really moved on, not even over a decade later, losing him was just to hard for us to handle
 
I am currently making a list of all the PL regression therapist near my home. Maybe I could give it a try, because I'm coming to a point where I make nightmares almost every night. However, I need to talk about that with my mother first. I can't see myself going through this journey alone, I mean without someone to support me in the everyday life. Morever, my mother and I are pretty close, so she sees that I'm not as happy as usual. The thing is I think about my old family and friends all the time.

As I said above, my best friend was Frédéric. I remember how we battled together. I have a vision of him helping me to get back on my feet as I fell on the muddy ground in the assault . I remember how we chatted and tried to distracted ourselves in the shelters of the trenches during the moments of calm. I think I met him at the military barracks of the 117th regiment . I didn't know him for a very long time, but he marked my life forever.

Fort those who have PL memories of war, do you still miss your fighting companions ?
Hello Jupiter 11 ,I am in France at the moment ,and yes it does sound interesting the facts of your story .In many ways good astrology ,
Vedic ,can get an impression of past lives from the 12th house .I Believe that we are only one sex truly and if we are reborn in another sex it is to
learn a Lesson which we needed to in the last lives .In other word it is temporary . You say you are 22 yrs .It would be interesting to see if there is anything clear in your chart .
 
Hi, just to say that i read all your posts and it is very interesting. More importantly, they all seem guenine and sincere memories. Exactly what i would expect from a past life memory : unpleasant, especially traumatic considering the specific situation of ww1, troublesome, with a myriad of details that emotionally affect us.
Jupiter 11 you say that you have trouble distanciating yourself from your previous self, and i don't see why you should. This used to be you if i am correct, so it's like when you were a child, you were different but it was still you.
As to what you should do, well i suppose you shouldn't do anything more than you would do if you lived a difficult time in that life, rebalancing and healing yourself. I don't think any of the people involved with you have any memories of you nowadays, or even remember anything about it so you should let go.

I am also a frenchie, and my great grand father fought all the ww1 on the french side, survived but lost an arm. Maybe you knew him
 
@Jupiter11. Hey Salut!

I can only give you one advice: take your time. The memory you carry won't fade away, it won't disappear, and you are now on a process of research that (if it goes like me!) will take some time. You seem like a very sensitive person, engaged in what I'm sure is a life full of curiosity, so enjoy this gift of being young and keep on focusing on what you do now!

Also I share you surprise at remembering so many military details! I found it fascinating (but very useless) to be able to describe the interior of a PanzerIV precisely, to know its strengths and weaknesses, and also identify the weapons in my visions with ease.

Funny story: I was sharing with a historian (specialized in the Waffen-SS, he's french, that's useful) and asked him about a detail I thought got wrong (I was still trying to check all details): I was holding in many visions a soviet PPSh-41. I mean I was sure of it, I saw all itz details (the buttplate, the carbine handle, the lack of handguard, the odd straight magazine) and I remembered how we called it Pepesha or Papasha. It was a sturdy, sturdy gun. Well we had lots. Anywhy this kind historian told me that the Waffen-SS actually captured sooo many on the eastern front that they became standard and even had a nomenclature code!

@CanSol
Your words and your story greatly inspire me. I am sorry that you had to experience war many times, and I am glad to know that you survived afghanistan. I have a french friend who was deployed there a few times and it shook him. I certainly know that the chaos I remember from a past existence has not ceased, and our generation now also experiences it. I hope you are in peace with yourself now! If I may ask, were you aware of your past memories when you first joined? Thank you and have a nice day!

Anyway thank you, again. I haven't shared my story with many people before I came here, but I have found a lot of peace in sharing and receiving our experiences. I am sure our exchanges will inspire those who are jut beginning the process!
 
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Hey Benjamin,
I've always had Past Life memories, those were my earliest ones, it started with mostly WWII but later on my other lives followed, I've wrote many of my memories on here, the thread is somewhere

My PLs are as much a part of who I am in this life as my memories from my other lives are, I also know who I was from WWI to Vietnam, where and when I was killed and where I'm buried
Don't be sorry that I've seen many wars, I'm a Warrior Soul, it's what I do, same as Patton and many other Warrior Souls, it's what we know and do best

I actually gotten some WWII things that I just had to have and some members here know the should I, shouldn't I debates I had with myself (full Class A uniform, tanker jacket, M42 and M43 jump pants), it might extend to some WWI and Vietnam stuff but only with things that are either usefull or must haves, I don't fight my memories any more than that of Afghanistan or other events, they're a part of me

I'm going to do a few Battlefield tours on my own in areas where I've fought, visited many of the sites before but always with a group and then you can't really take the time you want or need or you might end up staying to long where you really don't want to be so by going alone I can decide everything and am in charge
On one of the routes that I made is a museum that has an original Dakota that you can get into, I've jumped from them on quite a few commemoration jumps on original DZs but again, not having the time or able to allow the mind to wander back to 1944, so that should be interesting
That I might look rediculous in my WWII outfit, modern wheelchair and music player while touring the old sites...so be it
 
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