briski
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I'm still unsure I can make friends because I'm so stupid.
You are putting yourself down to much. You shouldn't be that hard on yourself
I'm still unsure I can make friends because I'm so stupid.
But what if I really am autistic
I'm not saying it's a good thing, either. I tend to consider it a neutral thing. Like red hair is (surprisingly) an abnormality. Some make fun and call red heads 'ginger'. If the red head takes it to heart and withdraws into themselves it becomes more of a problen. If they don't take it to heart and think of themselves as a red head or a sherry blond and look after their hair well, and see about making friends who aren't rude, then they will still have the problem of having to avoid wearing quite a lot of colours near the face, but that problem won't be made worse by feeling persecuted, disliked, wanting to be invisible etc., because s/he will accept her/himself as s/he is and will mix only with others who also accept them how they are.I still am not convinced autism is a good thing. How can not being able to make friends be a good thing. By the way I usually draw anime/manga style though I dont like anime/manga as much these days. I'm more into drawing it. I would like to make a manga but I doubt I'd ever be successful.
I'm still unsure I can make friends because I'm so stupid.
I absolutely adore sherry blond hair, on men or women, and despite that it causes problems with a lot of colours near the face I would love to have had that colour. It looks gorgeous whether long or short, or mid-length. You are so lucky with your hair. Is it from both your parents? Are your sisters also sherry blond?Funny you should mention red hair as I have natural reddish blonde hair, which I like because I think it makes me look smart even if I'm not. Even if people say blondes aren't smart.
Yeah both of my parents were blonde at some point but their hair got darker as they got older. The redness in my hair seems to comes more from my moms side. I tried alternative medicine once for my anxiety but it was just too expensive that I quit before it could have any effect. I'm still unsure about autism and rather it's a good or bad thing or what.
How do I do that. How can I be successful.
Well there are a lot of things I would like to do. Write a story, make my own comic book, maybe make a video game and even get into fashion design. However I doubt I could be sucessful especially since I cant stay focused on anything. I'm so worried what if I'm never successful what if I even have no purpose.
But my mom even says I cant make it as an artist because I cant focus enough on my art.
True but how do I prove her wrong. She's right and I do lack focus.
Most of us who start off blond or fair go darker haired, but red heads tend to keep their colour.Yeah both of my parents were blonde at some point but their hair got darker as they got older. The redness in my hair seems to comes more from my moms side. I tried alternative medicine once for my anxiety but it was just too expensive that I quit before it could have any effect. I'm still unsure about autism and rather it's a good or bad thing or what.
Were you able to focus more before you were on meds? or when you maybe had different meds?But my mom even says I cant make it as an artist because I cant focus enough on my art.
Unfortunately, there are a lot of meds that do affect the ability to concentrate, including the painkillers I have to take. They can also affect motivation and physical energy. My own 'get up and go' has gradually got up and went since being on tramadol and co-dydromol. The alternative is pain that makes me feel suicidal, and I can't do that to my family. It would leave them in far too much mental and emotional anguish and would be very cruel of me.Come to think of it I was able to focus better before being put on the medications I'm on now. I remember about 10 years ago being able to binge watch gameplay videos on YouTube. I remember binge watching a gameplay of the old video game earthbound back about 10 years ago on YouTube. My mom would even get on me for being on YouTube a lot those days but at least I was focused. Now I cant really binge watch video like I use to. In fact since I've been on the medications I'm on I hardly use the TV in my room or my laptop to watch videos anymore. I cant even play video games for a long time these days. I'll be sure to talk to my doctor about this next time I see him.
Aspergers and a lot of other physical and mind conditions can be genetically inherited. Sometimes it takes a trauma to trigger a condition and if that trauma doesn't happen it doesn't develop, or doesn't develop very much. Other times it might develop without a trigger.I plan on trying to get a hold of my doctor today over the phone about changing my medications as I think the current medications I'm on might be causing me to lose focus. I was on a medication that was causing me to gain some weight (plus it didn't help that I've struggled with weight since I was about in middle school due to genetics). Luckily since I got off that medication I've lost almost 30 pounds. Sorry if I don't know how many Kilograms that is. I'm not sure I could ever accept the fact that I might have autism. Even if I was to do research I'm so stubborn that it's hard for me to change my mind on something. Stubborn seems to be another personality trait I inherited from my mothers side. My mom can be pretty stubborn too. I'm still unsure if all the things I've inherited from my family are good or bad or what. Sorry if I seem to be changing the topic to genetics. I'm just curious why I am the way I am and most of it seems to be genetics.