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It has been a while since I've posted my last thread on here (a couple of months.)And Lately I haven't been feeling any better.I got the suggestion to get a past life regression,but unfortunately I'm 15 and I still live with my parents,and I don't feel comfortable telling anyone about my past lives and if I told my parents I wanted a regression they would've thought I was crazy.I figured the best thing I can do is keeping everything to myself.(except on this site ofc)bc this seems like the only place where people would not think I'm crazy when I talk about this.However I still don't feel comfortable sharing my full name or details about my past lives.Anyhow,I'm writing this new thread because I've been feeling very badly lately.I've never seen my current "family" as my real family.It just feels as if i'm living with strangers in my house.I just don't feel any type of bonding with any of them.Except maybe my current sister,but sometimes I just wish she wasn't my sister and I just end up feeling adopted.I just refuse to believe that I biologically am I child of these horrid people.I had 6 other siblings(in my past life) ,and I miss each of them terribly.But I just end up feeling guilty for it or something because it just feels as if I don't have the right to call them family anymore.I just know if I would tell them I'm their deceased sister who died 71 years ago they would probably be very upset and slightly offended.But I can't tell them either because they are all dead.There's nowhere to go with my horrid missing.Nobody I once knew or loved is here.I feel so alone and I can feel tears comming up while writing this.I sometimes ask myself if this is all real or if this is just a phase,but then again I start crying and being really upset like never before when thinking about my sisters and everyone I've lost one by one and then I realize it can't be just a phase because if it where I would'nt feel this way nor cry and have depressive episodes like that.Also when I look in the mirror I just don't see myself sometimes.I just feel like I'm trapped in this unknown body sometimes and wonder if god is punishing me for making me look so different.I lost all traits I had back then I was once proud of.I'ts just awfull to still feel this way even if I have a bunch of friends etc.(but ofc I don't tell them either bc I don't know what they would think about me afterwards)I just feel so empty.Hope anyone can relate to this so I feel less alone in this whole situation.
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