Shaina Murphy
New Member
Hello guys, I am relatively new to this site. I normally discuss this on an Amino group, but individuals on this site seem more knowledgable and I would like to share my experiences here. On Amino, we're all kind of confused/learning, people on here genuinely seemed experienced (unlike me!)
Please forgive me for this long post, and if you read the whole thing, THANK YOU IN ADVANCE!! The main reason I am posting this is because I am having trouble determining what is real and what my mind is making up. I will try to keep this post as organized and easy to read as possible.
A year ago, I posted on here ( I since deleted it, haven't posted since) about how I could have been a holocaust victim in a PL, this was my FIRST gut feeling about anything and i had nothing else to back it up really.But that moment it got me wondering about weird childhood quirks that I had. What made me think of these is when I was trying to fully put the pieces together, if that makes sense. Anyway, when I was a kid like 2-4 years old, i had really bad anxiety and everything scared me, but I felt trapped inside like I couldn't speak. I remember I would sit on my living steps and watch the door scared someone would break in, and lay in bed during naps scared bugs were crawling on me. Physically, I was in poor health too. My skin was so horrible, it would crack and bleed and I had bad epilepsy. I still have all these issues, just not so severely.
I have done PL regressions, I admit I am not good at them. When I do these, I always see grassy, hilly terrain and a cattle car/train tracks in the distance. I sense I am under a tree. After this, things went on a stand still, I just researched a bit more, but recently things have been progressing again.
4/28/19- Before I went to bed I asked my Spirit guides to show me a PL death (if they wanted)..The dream I had is about a dead, dirty, exhausted woman. She had very short hair, patchy and bald in some spots, but matted despite the shortness in others. She was laying on the ground on a pile of wood. It almost looked as though her bunk collapsed under her, she was dead and naked. In this dream it felt as though I was a soul hovering over my own body, but it wasn't just me there. There was another soul/bundle of energy ( I don't know what else to call it). I heard a voice say "this part of (my potential pl name) does this & the other does this.." it was really fast and we were spinning in a circle. We looked like 2 spirals. There was a rushing sensation.
4/29/19- I asked for clarity about the 2 souls, if the WAS me in a PL, what it further symbolized.....The dream was dark, and not vivid. instead of seeing in my dreams in just had a constant feeling of dread/anxiety. This felt like all night but I woke up an hour later. Another point in the night, I had flashback of the dream from 4/28. I heard an internal voice in my head yelling over and over again "wood! wood! they were wooden bunks!"
4/31 - i had a dream about my potential PL self and person she was with standing naked and being separated from a family member, put on a train. The person my potential PL self was standing with didn't open her mouth to speak, but I sensed her internal thoughts to her family member was to not worry about me and her, but to worry about herself.
I have had other dreams that I never wrote or dated because I never thought twice that this could be my PL self. I also just intuitively knew stuff about this person, just had gut feelings then found out they were true through research.
I feel like it is important to note that each time I have these dreams, I am seeing from a birds eye view. Almost like I was a spirit guide or something. Especially when we started spinning in the 4/28 dream. It made me wonder what if this was like a twin flame dream, but were just not incarnated at the same time?
To confirm my suspicions, I asked my guides to have me dream of some names, I dream of my PL selfs name, which is also the one i heard in the 4/28 dream. I dream I am reading about it in books, i see her photo with her name captioned etc. Now what if were not incarnated at the same time again and she is my guide this whole time. Meaning my spirit guides PL is my PL (since we're essentially the same soul) also and this is why my guide has been showing me this ...can you guys tell how confused I am?
Part of me feels like all the signs are there, this was me in a PL, my guides are slapping me in the face with dreams, but then I think about it more and more and start to wonder again. It just becomes a messy, tangled sticky web of connecting the dots. I don't know if this is real or if I am doubting myself. I know no one can answer this except me, but I guess I'll ask this:
Is this enough evidence? At what point in trying to learn your soul do you consider to be enough?
I would also like to restate that I know this was a long post and thank you for your patience to those who read it!!
Please forgive me for this long post, and if you read the whole thing, THANK YOU IN ADVANCE!! The main reason I am posting this is because I am having trouble determining what is real and what my mind is making up. I will try to keep this post as organized and easy to read as possible.
A year ago, I posted on here ( I since deleted it, haven't posted since) about how I could have been a holocaust victim in a PL, this was my FIRST gut feeling about anything and i had nothing else to back it up really.But that moment it got me wondering about weird childhood quirks that I had. What made me think of these is when I was trying to fully put the pieces together, if that makes sense. Anyway, when I was a kid like 2-4 years old, i had really bad anxiety and everything scared me, but I felt trapped inside like I couldn't speak. I remember I would sit on my living steps and watch the door scared someone would break in, and lay in bed during naps scared bugs were crawling on me. Physically, I was in poor health too. My skin was so horrible, it would crack and bleed and I had bad epilepsy. I still have all these issues, just not so severely.
I have done PL regressions, I admit I am not good at them. When I do these, I always see grassy, hilly terrain and a cattle car/train tracks in the distance. I sense I am under a tree. After this, things went on a stand still, I just researched a bit more, but recently things have been progressing again.
4/28/19- Before I went to bed I asked my Spirit guides to show me a PL death (if they wanted)..The dream I had is about a dead, dirty, exhausted woman. She had very short hair, patchy and bald in some spots, but matted despite the shortness in others. She was laying on the ground on a pile of wood. It almost looked as though her bunk collapsed under her, she was dead and naked. In this dream it felt as though I was a soul hovering over my own body, but it wasn't just me there. There was another soul/bundle of energy ( I don't know what else to call it). I heard a voice say "this part of (my potential pl name) does this & the other does this.." it was really fast and we were spinning in a circle. We looked like 2 spirals. There was a rushing sensation.
4/29/19- I asked for clarity about the 2 souls, if the WAS me in a PL, what it further symbolized.....The dream was dark, and not vivid. instead of seeing in my dreams in just had a constant feeling of dread/anxiety. This felt like all night but I woke up an hour later. Another point in the night, I had flashback of the dream from 4/28. I heard an internal voice in my head yelling over and over again "wood! wood! they were wooden bunks!"
4/31 - i had a dream about my potential PL self and person she was with standing naked and being separated from a family member, put on a train. The person my potential PL self was standing with didn't open her mouth to speak, but I sensed her internal thoughts to her family member was to not worry about me and her, but to worry about herself.
I have had other dreams that I never wrote or dated because I never thought twice that this could be my PL self. I also just intuitively knew stuff about this person, just had gut feelings then found out they were true through research.
I feel like it is important to note that each time I have these dreams, I am seeing from a birds eye view. Almost like I was a spirit guide or something. Especially when we started spinning in the 4/28 dream. It made me wonder what if this was like a twin flame dream, but were just not incarnated at the same time?
To confirm my suspicions, I asked my guides to have me dream of some names, I dream of my PL selfs name, which is also the one i heard in the 4/28 dream. I dream I am reading about it in books, i see her photo with her name captioned etc. Now what if were not incarnated at the same time again and she is my guide this whole time. Meaning my spirit guides PL is my PL (since we're essentially the same soul) also and this is why my guide has been showing me this ...can you guys tell how confused I am?
Part of me feels like all the signs are there, this was me in a PL, my guides are slapping me in the face with dreams, but then I think about it more and more and start to wonder again. It just becomes a messy, tangled sticky web of connecting the dots. I don't know if this is real or if I am doubting myself. I know no one can answer this except me, but I guess I'll ask this:
Is this enough evidence? At what point in trying to learn your soul do you consider to be enough?
I would also like to restate that I know this was a long post and thank you for your patience to those who read it!!