I'd rather be famous for a novel or a song or something than what I've been famous for but I asked for this crap. My nature manifested in all of my lives and now in my current life, because I rejected my brand of fame for a higher purpose, I've been left grappling with the consequences of my lives.
While this is understandable, you still would have issues. Being a creative mind doesn't make you a saint. You would realize, as an example, that you did not create what was in your heart, but made what your audience wanted. Or what the highest bidder wanted (as you had to make a living after all). Maybe you would see that you had problems with your personal relationships, with alcohol, with what ever. You would see your work misinterpreted, over-interpreted, abused as a means for propaganda and all such things. Furthermore, from the viewpoint of an "old warrior soul", you would judge yourself as having been a coward for having seen all the injustice of your society and having done nothing against it. Or you would blame and judge yourself for having been so caught-up in your process of creating beautiful things that you didn't notice the injustice of your society.
The only life that wouldn't cause carry-overs would be the one of a brave man (or woman) who “fought” against injustice by peaceful means, yet still was not afraid to sacrifice their own life for “the greater good”. Someone who lived to make this world a better place without using violence.
Now, the problem is, that such individuals most likely would not need to reincarnate again, they only would decide to reincarnate to help others.
Well, we cannot choose who we once were. You got what you got and you are who you are. Personally, while having issues myself, I still think that blame is not a solution. We rather should try to learn from past mistakes and do it better next time.
I think we already had such discussions. You already realized a pattern and were able to break out of it even before you remembered past lives. No need to further blame yourself. (Easier said than done, I know all too well...) Continue your current path and you shall be fine.
I'm just another claimant. I am not the type of man who likes being just another anything so I see my becoming just another famous past life claimant as being a challenge to me to question my own ego.
You are not just any other “claimant”. You did not ask for it, these lives are not what you would have chosen from your current viewpoint (while in the flesh), and admitting who you were probably feels more like a confession. You might be perceived, in your current life, as just any other individual. Which, of course, will be hard to chew for someone who was used to be a leader for so many lives.
Being a “nobody” has its advantages, though. No one will care what brand of toilet paper you are buying. If you go to the pub and have a pint, it won't be in the newspapers the next day. Not being observed, not having all these expectations upon your shoulders, not being responsible for so many other lives... isn't that freedom? You can have a walk in the park, read a book of your choice, do what ever you wish in your spare time. Maybe this freedom still feels overwhelming for you. You are free, though. Maybe for the first time after many incarnations. Use your freedom. Enjoy it. Make the best out of it.
My famous past live were a manifestation of my ego. That iron rod in me that refuses to yield.
You are strong and brave. Which, on itself, is not a bad thing at all. Maybe you should do something about your ego, though. Which you already are working at. Not to be confused with self-bashing, of course. As self-bashing is the same as bathing in your own glory. It is the polar opposite, therefore, it is the same.
Fame may be irrelevant spiritually but the reasons for fame are very relevant. It's a learning tool just like anything else.
That is very interesting, but I still don't entirely get what you mean by that.
Of course, certain acts you can only perform when you are famous already (which is why I believe that every soul will have the experience of being “famous” once, at least, during the learning process). And some deeds will inevitably make you famous, more or less.
I just wonder... if you remembered having been the leader of a tribe in the Stone Age who successfully fought against a rivaling tribe, wouldn't the lesson be the same? Wouldn't the only difference be that, due to the lack of writing, your name was forgotten after so and so many generations?