Shiriya
Senior Member
As I type this, I'm not exactly in my right frame of mind, but I thought I'd just get all of this off my chest to share a memory I saw through a dream possibly..correlating to a twin flame connection? At first I wasn't too sure about this as I'm a skeptic when it comes to stuff like this, but have had few close kindred souls point out it seemed like it and read some helpful articles helping me verify sensations I've felt sensing a certain, particular spirit of a man I knew since before incarnating in this life. Anyway, here's a written entry of what I remember since seeing it a few years ago. Pardon if it sounds a bit explicit at parts.
Basically it took place in a dimly lit, japanese styled room which was small in size. The only light came from a single paper lamp in the furthest part of the room by the entrance. I'm pretty sure it was some room that I and the man I was with rented. I got the feeling we both were on the move or traveling,...I don't know. I saw through a woman's eyes in first person though saw how she looked through his eyes I believe. Strangely, she had light blue eyes even though she looked japanese, long silky black hair, pale skin, and wore a pink kimono with flower prints (forgot what flower it was though). Sitting across from me was the man I was with. He had much tanner skin compared to my pale complexion, had long back hair with front sides of his hair tied back with the rest down, sharp eyes, thick dark brows, and a beard. The man was clad in what appeared to be dark blue korean "warrior" attire but with a mix of japanese armor plating and wore a navy blue headband most korean guards did at the time. I don't know if I could describe his armor well aside from that. He was sitting against the wall from the opposite side across from where she sat, staring at her intently. I can recall how embarrassed and flustered she felt, even how hot and warm her face was trying to avoid staring back at him. Haha, she felt so shy she turned her head to the mat floor. Just before she could however, he quickly leaned in, lifting her chin up and kissed her. In that instant it felt like time stopped. Feeling their lips make contact, I felt her eyes widen and the initial shock she felt, shivers coursing throughout her body. I could even feel how the strands of his beard tickled her face. The dream shifted showing what happened a while after, where she lost her virginity to him but only saw a few glimpses of...well, for the lack of a better term the position the two situated themselves in.
Strangely, I was only shown how his nose and waist down looked. Even in first person when he leaned in for the kiss, his face was a blurred out a tad but I could still make out some of his features...I wonder why. During times regressing, sometimes I'd hear something someone was saying then get muffled out so I assume I'm not supposed to see how he looked at the time in the memory. Sometimes thinking about this dream, I hear these in my head: "aitakute" or "aitai". ("I want to see you.", "I miss you." in japanese)
I'm tearing up just thinking about how much and how long I've missed his touch. I don't know why I'm even getting like this, I feel ridiculous and crazy feeling this yearning even though I know I'm not alone with others going through the same thing...It just feels like my soul is searching for something that isn't here..at least in this world. It just makes me sad, even though I'm still young with many opportunities out there regarding love. I've been told by someone who claims they're a psychic empath that I'm lonely, and I think the strong feelings of this memory could be one of the main reasons why. I have a feeling that man's spirit has been watching over and visiting me sometimes letting me know he's there (which has been going on for a good 5 years since first finding out about past lives). I've been skeptical, but have felt his presence and warmth reassuring me with affection. During a dark time in my life trying to cope with feelings missing him, he even visited in a dream where I saw him staring at me with a very sad, worried look in his eyes before pulling me close for a deep kiss.
God...I guess a part of me just couldn't handle or wanted to accept knowing I've reincarnated with him staying on the other side. I just feel so lonely here, even though life has been going well for me lately with some accomplishments made. Even while typing this, I received a glimpse of seeing that woman and the man gazing at each other upon stone steps leading up to some shrine or temple. At moments like this, I yearn for that time and to visit Japan. Whenever I feel the emotions the memory brings, I just feel helpless. I don't know how to cope with these feelings...
Basically it took place in a dimly lit, japanese styled room which was small in size. The only light came from a single paper lamp in the furthest part of the room by the entrance. I'm pretty sure it was some room that I and the man I was with rented. I got the feeling we both were on the move or traveling,...I don't know. I saw through a woman's eyes in first person though saw how she looked through his eyes I believe. Strangely, she had light blue eyes even though she looked japanese, long silky black hair, pale skin, and wore a pink kimono with flower prints (forgot what flower it was though). Sitting across from me was the man I was with. He had much tanner skin compared to my pale complexion, had long back hair with front sides of his hair tied back with the rest down, sharp eyes, thick dark brows, and a beard. The man was clad in what appeared to be dark blue korean "warrior" attire but with a mix of japanese armor plating and wore a navy blue headband most korean guards did at the time. I don't know if I could describe his armor well aside from that. He was sitting against the wall from the opposite side across from where she sat, staring at her intently. I can recall how embarrassed and flustered she felt, even how hot and warm her face was trying to avoid staring back at him. Haha, she felt so shy she turned her head to the mat floor. Just before she could however, he quickly leaned in, lifting her chin up and kissed her. In that instant it felt like time stopped. Feeling their lips make contact, I felt her eyes widen and the initial shock she felt, shivers coursing throughout her body. I could even feel how the strands of his beard tickled her face. The dream shifted showing what happened a while after, where she lost her virginity to him but only saw a few glimpses of...well, for the lack of a better term the position the two situated themselves in.
Strangely, I was only shown how his nose and waist down looked. Even in first person when he leaned in for the kiss, his face was a blurred out a tad but I could still make out some of his features...I wonder why. During times regressing, sometimes I'd hear something someone was saying then get muffled out so I assume I'm not supposed to see how he looked at the time in the memory. Sometimes thinking about this dream, I hear these in my head: "aitakute" or "aitai". ("I want to see you.", "I miss you." in japanese)
I'm tearing up just thinking about how much and how long I've missed his touch. I don't know why I'm even getting like this, I feel ridiculous and crazy feeling this yearning even though I know I'm not alone with others going through the same thing...It just feels like my soul is searching for something that isn't here..at least in this world. It just makes me sad, even though I'm still young with many opportunities out there regarding love. I've been told by someone who claims they're a psychic empath that I'm lonely, and I think the strong feelings of this memory could be one of the main reasons why. I have a feeling that man's spirit has been watching over and visiting me sometimes letting me know he's there (which has been going on for a good 5 years since first finding out about past lives). I've been skeptical, but have felt his presence and warmth reassuring me with affection. During a dark time in my life trying to cope with feelings missing him, he even visited in a dream where I saw him staring at me with a very sad, worried look in his eyes before pulling me close for a deep kiss.
God...I guess a part of me just couldn't handle or wanted to accept knowing I've reincarnated with him staying on the other side. I just feel so lonely here, even though life has been going well for me lately with some accomplishments made. Even while typing this, I received a glimpse of seeing that woman and the man gazing at each other upon stone steps leading up to some shrine or temple. At moments like this, I yearn for that time and to visit Japan. Whenever I feel the emotions the memory brings, I just feel helpless. I don't know how to cope with these feelings...