JustinTime
Probationary
I wanted to get peoples' thoughts about why a soul would plan a life full of social difficulties and racial discrimination.
I'm a mixed race person, I'll just say between race A and B. Since childhood, I've had difficulties belonging in either race A or race B, as either side would immediately look at my physical appearance and know that I am not "one of them". As I grew older, I have learned that my mixed-race heritage has significantly impacted my career, dating, and many social prospects. It's painful to go on day-by-day not being able to fit into any real ethnic group, when the rest of the world (communities, business circles, social networks, etc...) seem to be organized more or less by ethnic group, not to mention politics and interest groups.
This type of experience has forced me to turn to spirituality as a possible way to explain some of my life experiences. I had no control over being born a mixed-race person and had no say in the situation I find myself today, but I have noticed it has affected my career prospects in a rather big way as I do not belong on either race A or B, so it's hard for firms run by people from race A or B to really sympathize with me. I work my *** off more than most people yet because of these racial limits I have barely anything to show for it. I see many peers who are pure race A or race B people have no trouble climbing corporate ladder, making lots of money, and enjoying life.
Why doesn't life allow the same to happen to me?
Lately, I've been unable to get a job despite good education, and really yearn for a group where I can belong. Why are these basic things that come easily for most people so difficult for me? The worst is, I go out of my way to help others when I can, and I sympathize with others, but there are many people who just have it so "easy" in life and do not return these favors.
I'm tired of going everyone and being judged by my physical appearance rather than my actions and what's inside.
I'm curious what type of past karma would I be dealing with here, or for those who believe in pre-birth planning, why would I plan such a life? Why does it always happen that I am dealt the odd set of cards? Is there any spiritual purpose behind this loneliness and suffering?
I'm a mixed race person, I'll just say between race A and B. Since childhood, I've had difficulties belonging in either race A or race B, as either side would immediately look at my physical appearance and know that I am not "one of them". As I grew older, I have learned that my mixed-race heritage has significantly impacted my career, dating, and many social prospects. It's painful to go on day-by-day not being able to fit into any real ethnic group, when the rest of the world (communities, business circles, social networks, etc...) seem to be organized more or less by ethnic group, not to mention politics and interest groups.
This type of experience has forced me to turn to spirituality as a possible way to explain some of my life experiences. I had no control over being born a mixed-race person and had no say in the situation I find myself today, but I have noticed it has affected my career prospects in a rather big way as I do not belong on either race A or B, so it's hard for firms run by people from race A or B to really sympathize with me. I work my *** off more than most people yet because of these racial limits I have barely anything to show for it. I see many peers who are pure race A or race B people have no trouble climbing corporate ladder, making lots of money, and enjoying life.
Why doesn't life allow the same to happen to me?
Lately, I've been unable to get a job despite good education, and really yearn for a group where I can belong. Why are these basic things that come easily for most people so difficult for me? The worst is, I go out of my way to help others when I can, and I sympathize with others, but there are many people who just have it so "easy" in life and do not return these favors.
I'm tired of going everyone and being judged by my physical appearance rather than my actions and what's inside.
I'm curious what type of past karma would I be dealing with here, or for those who believe in pre-birth planning, why would I plan such a life? Why does it always happen that I am dealt the odd set of cards? Is there any spiritual purpose behind this loneliness and suffering?