Hi, I would really appreciate some help here...
Maybe I should start my story from the beginning: In my history I had a ghost that I think was my WW1-husband and later our son, but I thought for sure they had left my house, me and found peace.
Now my young daughter (who I think has psychic abilities, born this way, it seems) has been away for a few days. Recently she said she missed the "first ghost" which was the WW1-husband because even though he frighten her with his serious looks she thought he kept "the other ghosts" away from her.Always when we went to sleep after I thought the WW1-husband and child had gone away in peace on the other side - there would be heavy male marching steps starting at the same place in the house, then getting up the stairs and stopping somewhere around her door. Then a while back these "soldier-steps" stopped. She had not mentioned ghosts since.
I have stayed away from meditating and have not had any flashbacks. Until recently.
Now since my daughter has stayed away I have gotten the same "movie", the same scenes from my life (as Laura) with the WW1-husband back again, but it has a twist to it. I have ignored this. It is not something I deliberately think about.
The scenes are these :
1) We had an ugly fight. One that led me to run away in the night and leave him
2) He visits my relatives where I am at, dressed nicely, and try to convince me to return home to him. He has plans to stop drinking (he was an alcoholic, injured his upper thigh during war, and I think he even killed my boyfriend during war, another story) I refuse. My daughter in this life is my older sister or aunt, related to my mother, and she took me in. (in that life my sister/aunt had psycic abilities and so did her husband who was a priest. She looked at me as if I was good. My mother, however, gave me away to the church and them to raise when I had predicted as a child that there would be a fire in a building and that we should warn the people working there. My mother saw fire as a product from the devil. She feared I had with my mind only set it on fire. She looked upon me as if I was some sort of witch, but I was only a child. As a child growing up I was afraid to be rejected like that again. I lived with this fear so much that I was a hopeless people-pleaser. I would be the same with my WW1-husband.
3) As I and a male friend go with me to our home where I intended to pick up some of my stuff I see my husband hanging in a three outside our home. It was a shock. Even what had been going on between us, I was devastated
4) I am as Laura in my new home that I share with my new husband, but he was not home. It is in the late afternoon. I am in the living room. I hear the front door open and shut. I feel it. It is the WW1-husband, but as a ghost. It is not my second husband, that is. I freeze. It is almost as if I can see through the wall that separate the living room from the hallway. I hear the steps. Then I see him - the WW1-husband almost as if he is real. He has the same clothes on that he had years back when he tried to reunite with me. I can't even describe his serious expression. As I stand there I think I am about to faint. It is like he is half ghost and half man. He is too real. He start to walk towards me. He even leaves footprint of dark mud and blood behind him.
5 ) I am in a future life, as "Anna", an Italian girl in America in the 1950's. I see my husband Vito standing up by our kitchen table. I sit down. As I look up to him I see the WW1-husband but as a ghost behind him. I think it is the pills that I am taking that make me hallucinate so I don't tell my husband anything. I see him several times. He has a bad energy that somehow makes my husband agitated (he does not see him).
Alright, those are the scenes that seem to replay themselves in my head now and then. Why I don't know.
Then I had the new strange experience that is this: I am in my own bed, at night, my husband (in this life, I think he was the boyfriend my WW1-husband killed once) is asleep beside me. Someone is lifting me out of bed, but as I am abruptly awaken I see that my body is still in bed and it looks as if I am sleeping. It is the WW1-husband-ghost that is holding me, pretty much like a bride to carry over the threshold. Then I see some white, light yellow fabric falling down, that is attached to me. I realize I have a bride's dress on me that is from the old days. He then communicates to me without using words that they have finished building our new home now. I feel another presence and see that our bedroom door is half open. Out there in the hallway stands the pl-son-ghost. He died when he was very young. He has the clothes on him that he died in, night-wear. Then it was as if the pl-husband ghost got me half across our bed, on our way to the ghost-child but his body, legs went through our bed as if it was air. I said in panic No! several times. Then I woke up. I don't know if this was just a nightmare or if it was a visit from the spirit world.
My guestions are these:
1 ) Can a spirit cast scenes/flashbacks in one's head and have them replayed? Or does it has to be me doing this?
2) Can a spirit force out my soul, spirit out of my own body without my approval? Or can it only be me doing it?
A thing that frighten me is also this: It happened today at work. Suddenly my handwriting changed. I later "woke up" and saw that I had written things in very old style. I quickly threw it all away before anyone saw it.
It is like the Laura in me is attached to the WW1-ghost-husband, but I am not. Like I am afraid that she will take over and the current me will forget who I really am now. I am afraid that if I forget he will be able to take me to his world, to his new built home. I think also because Laura's love and my love for the child-ghost is the same. I am a mother in this life too. I know it has no logical reason, but it has a grab on my heart. When ever I have seen this ghost-child is like I will do anything for him. I feel such quilt and love for him.
I feel quilt and fear towards the WW1-husband but it is Laura's feelings, not mine.
Anyway, do I have to repeat everything I did last time when they went away? Or could I have just imagined this again? Could this be caused by the "soldier" not watching over us, my daughter in particular, anymore, that we thought it was "safe". Now my daughter has stayed away, and this all has began.
Should I suppress the Laura in me, somehow, could it be that she is me but is like a ghost in me (not that she is another spirit)? I am afraid that if I let myself become Laura - I will go with him and the child and I might die in the real world or I might not know who I really am now. I know Laura, but Laura does not know of me - her future self.
Please, give advice on what to do? Please share any of your own stories that could help?
I am sorry I sound like a crazy person.
/ Li-La
Maybe I should start my story from the beginning: In my history I had a ghost that I think was my WW1-husband and later our son, but I thought for sure they had left my house, me and found peace.
Now my young daughter (who I think has psychic abilities, born this way, it seems) has been away for a few days. Recently she said she missed the "first ghost" which was the WW1-husband because even though he frighten her with his serious looks she thought he kept "the other ghosts" away from her.Always when we went to sleep after I thought the WW1-husband and child had gone away in peace on the other side - there would be heavy male marching steps starting at the same place in the house, then getting up the stairs and stopping somewhere around her door. Then a while back these "soldier-steps" stopped. She had not mentioned ghosts since.
I have stayed away from meditating and have not had any flashbacks. Until recently.
Now since my daughter has stayed away I have gotten the same "movie", the same scenes from my life (as Laura) with the WW1-husband back again, but it has a twist to it. I have ignored this. It is not something I deliberately think about.
The scenes are these :
1) We had an ugly fight. One that led me to run away in the night and leave him
2) He visits my relatives where I am at, dressed nicely, and try to convince me to return home to him. He has plans to stop drinking (he was an alcoholic, injured his upper thigh during war, and I think he even killed my boyfriend during war, another story) I refuse. My daughter in this life is my older sister or aunt, related to my mother, and she took me in. (in that life my sister/aunt had psycic abilities and so did her husband who was a priest. She looked at me as if I was good. My mother, however, gave me away to the church and them to raise when I had predicted as a child that there would be a fire in a building and that we should warn the people working there. My mother saw fire as a product from the devil. She feared I had with my mind only set it on fire. She looked upon me as if I was some sort of witch, but I was only a child. As a child growing up I was afraid to be rejected like that again. I lived with this fear so much that I was a hopeless people-pleaser. I would be the same with my WW1-husband.
3) As I and a male friend go with me to our home where I intended to pick up some of my stuff I see my husband hanging in a three outside our home. It was a shock. Even what had been going on between us, I was devastated
4) I am as Laura in my new home that I share with my new husband, but he was not home. It is in the late afternoon. I am in the living room. I hear the front door open and shut. I feel it. It is the WW1-husband, but as a ghost. It is not my second husband, that is. I freeze. It is almost as if I can see through the wall that separate the living room from the hallway. I hear the steps. Then I see him - the WW1-husband almost as if he is real. He has the same clothes on that he had years back when he tried to reunite with me. I can't even describe his serious expression. As I stand there I think I am about to faint. It is like he is half ghost and half man. He is too real. He start to walk towards me. He even leaves footprint of dark mud and blood behind him.
5 ) I am in a future life, as "Anna", an Italian girl in America in the 1950's. I see my husband Vito standing up by our kitchen table. I sit down. As I look up to him I see the WW1-husband but as a ghost behind him. I think it is the pills that I am taking that make me hallucinate so I don't tell my husband anything. I see him several times. He has a bad energy that somehow makes my husband agitated (he does not see him).
Alright, those are the scenes that seem to replay themselves in my head now and then. Why I don't know.
Then I had the new strange experience that is this: I am in my own bed, at night, my husband (in this life, I think he was the boyfriend my WW1-husband killed once) is asleep beside me. Someone is lifting me out of bed, but as I am abruptly awaken I see that my body is still in bed and it looks as if I am sleeping. It is the WW1-husband-ghost that is holding me, pretty much like a bride to carry over the threshold. Then I see some white, light yellow fabric falling down, that is attached to me. I realize I have a bride's dress on me that is from the old days. He then communicates to me without using words that they have finished building our new home now. I feel another presence and see that our bedroom door is half open. Out there in the hallway stands the pl-son-ghost. He died when he was very young. He has the clothes on him that he died in, night-wear. Then it was as if the pl-husband ghost got me half across our bed, on our way to the ghost-child but his body, legs went through our bed as if it was air. I said in panic No! several times. Then I woke up. I don't know if this was just a nightmare or if it was a visit from the spirit world.
My guestions are these:
1 ) Can a spirit cast scenes/flashbacks in one's head and have them replayed? Or does it has to be me doing this?
2) Can a spirit force out my soul, spirit out of my own body without my approval? Or can it only be me doing it?
A thing that frighten me is also this: It happened today at work. Suddenly my handwriting changed. I later "woke up" and saw that I had written things in very old style. I quickly threw it all away before anyone saw it.
It is like the Laura in me is attached to the WW1-ghost-husband, but I am not. Like I am afraid that she will take over and the current me will forget who I really am now. I am afraid that if I forget he will be able to take me to his world, to his new built home. I think also because Laura's love and my love for the child-ghost is the same. I am a mother in this life too. I know it has no logical reason, but it has a grab on my heart. When ever I have seen this ghost-child is like I will do anything for him. I feel such quilt and love for him.
I feel quilt and fear towards the WW1-husband but it is Laura's feelings, not mine.
Anyway, do I have to repeat everything I did last time when they went away? Or could I have just imagined this again? Could this be caused by the "soldier" not watching over us, my daughter in particular, anymore, that we thought it was "safe". Now my daughter has stayed away, and this all has began.
Should I suppress the Laura in me, somehow, could it be that she is me but is like a ghost in me (not that she is another spirit)? I am afraid that if I let myself become Laura - I will go with him and the child and I might die in the real world or I might not know who I really am now. I know Laura, but Laura does not know of me - her future self.
Please, give advice on what to do? Please share any of your own stories that could help?
I am sorry I sound like a crazy person.
/ Li-La
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