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I think I had another recall

I think ultimately, we have free will, but we are also ushered along by the powers that be. We still have the choice to go with or resist their influence. I always liked the analogy that we're steering the boat, but we don't control the wind. We can try to steer against the wind and no doubt, piloting the boat becomes harder. Or we can allow the wind to push us and the journey because easier.

But the wind in this case isn't authority, in the sense that were used to in, incarnate. It's merely help & support. Sometimes we have to do it the hard way, before we learn our lessons and learn to trust the "wind". It's like with my son, he wanted this video card for his computer and it cost 500$. It had a plastic bezel on it he wanted to take off and paint and I told him not do it, but he did it anyway and in the process, he broke off a part and now the card is useless. So now he is going to take the money he earns from his summer job to buy a new one.

I don't think free will is more complicated than that. I gave him the benefit of my experience and support and he chose to do it anyway. He ultimately has now chosen a harder path when that money could have been used for something else, rather than replacing the card.
 
I’m about to burst from what I’ve gathered recently, things that have helped me in facing my next step, and a little different view of reincarnation with no other appropriate place to post it than this thread. My problem is that I tend to abuse this forum by using it as a blog at times.

Some of my relatives have responded to the starting the-ball-rolling thing that I did. A cousin wrote to me about the visitation of a spirit/ghost of a family member that she had issues with and she wasn’t in the mood for forgiveness – she told it to go away and it did. The wife of a deceased cousin told me that she heard him faintly ask “Can you hear me?”, and yesterday I was at a gathering (nephew’s pre-marriage get-together) where a niece (his mother) told me that she had gotten a message from her husband telling her that “It wasn’t as scary as he thought it would be (to die)”, and for bonus points I saw her mother (my sister) there, but only in a mental review of the day.

My eldest daughter did not write to me, but I know that she had an Out of Body Experience when she ‘flat-lined’ during surgery, and I was surprised to hear from my youngest daughter who told me of her dreams of being an Indian (presumably American). My middle daughter posted her many experiences. She also told me about something her younger sister experienced; she was driving past our small-town cemetery when an apparition of a deceased classmate appeared directly in front of her causing her to slam on the brakes.

I’ve been blessed with some strong women in this life, and a psychic told me that she saw women all around me a few years ago, could it have something to do with my need for help to live as a man this time around? This psychic did drawings of the spirits that she saw and the one she drew (the one giving me messages) was male – resembling my father in his twenties (that sketch and recording were lost in a computer crash).

As a father myself, it has been difficult to unbiasedly raise three daughters when one of them is a remembered soul-mate (I failed miserably). We all hope to find soul mates as partners in marriage, but they can serve as any character in the “theatrical performance” we are living. I’m convinced that we have more than one such relationship.

I’ll be glad if and when this competitive mind-frame gets extinguished and one of more cooperation is established, but I see how conflict can be a useful tool in the growth process. Unfortunately, it becomes the focus rather than just a simple tool (and too much energy is put into it) much like my remembering’s at about five years of age not being ‘enough’ even though they set my path early on. The choreography of entwining the sub-plots with the ‘big picture’ is truly impressive.
 
Some weird stuff of the past few weeks: I felt the presence of my German Shepherd and my wife told me later that she and our two dogs heard something running across our roof. And, a few minutes ago I seem to remember insisting with my life-planning committee that I wanted to keep my mental facilities until my body was finished - like sliding into home-plate.
 
Hi Ken,

Darn tootin'. :mad: I'm with you. Dying is dying and suffering is suffering, but let me do it with my mind intact. I don't mind taking whatever I decide to take to ease the pain/transition--whether it fuzzes me out or not. I'm no hero. But that is a voluntary choice made by a person who is still cognizant of his situation.

Cordially,
S&S

PS--Interesting about your German Shepherd. You've probably talked about him/her before, but I'd like to hear some more.

PPS--Who knows, perhaps he will be waiting to greet you when the time comes. It certainly sounds like he is hanging around. I scoffed when I once read something about the "Rainbow Bridge" with our beloved pets waiting to cross over with us when the time comes. (I think this is a modern concoction). But as time goes by it doesn't seem impossible that something like this might be true in a particular case. One part of me thinks this is all mighty strange, but another part doesn't mind at all. ;)
 
Thanks Ken. Maybe my own past life memories don't seem so out there to you now that you have a knowing.
 
Jim, They never really did seem too outlandish, my only concern was that you seemed to still think that way rather than learning from it and using that energy in a constructive way to somehow help others.
 
I still think in military terms Ken but I see no harm in channeling my energy into reincarnation debate.

Also I have used my energy in a constructive way in the past. I'll pm you with an example of how because I can't post it on a public forum.
 
Here is a website that I frequent, and an interview that goes along with my 12,000+ year old memory of levitating an obelisk from a query. That amount of time for a memory gets me a "stink-eye" from my wife, but how else could I have had it since I was a child? It is hard to disprove that it didn't come from a book at this point in my life, the doubting continues it seems.
https://hiddenincatours.com/latest-interview-about-megaliths-and-elongated-skulls-july-2-2019/
 
I was told by Spirit that I would have a life-ending experience, or probable death event several months ago. To add into the mix was a doctor's meddling with my vitamin D2 levels creating brain-fog and making some bad decisions that took a bit of working on to correct.

For those with open-mind (yes until you have such experiences you will not understand completely) my spirit-guide told me that I would have a ruptured artery in my left leg and after my writing that into my on-going journal I was told "Something like that" which of course didn't get written - kinda sneaky way of getting the message to me without showing "Scientific-proof". What happened was that I got a blood-clot in my right leg and found that I had simply worked myself through the maze that was presented to me - no true solutions to my problems, but I hope that you now have a glimpse of how things work in our lifetime experiences. The probability of becoming a "vegetable" is still a too close of an experience for comfort. My guide(s) have been very open and helpful to me through this lifetime, helping me handle the "performance" I've selected/given.

What I learned was that despite my thinking and wishes to take the next exit-point in this lifetime, my ego and body had a bigger say in the matter and my loving wife is now facing increased needs from me as I continue to come apart. I have no understanding of my wife's life-script that she is working through - we are like caricatures in a theatrical performance with the freedom to add-lib/Free-choice in my understanding.
 
Hey folks, Immmm Baaccckk!, my heart is what they call "not real good". It stopped for a little while Friday and we went to a branch-hospital where it stopped again while being monitored. Then off to the main hospital where I was taken forty-eight years ago with my brain injury. Out for about two minutes the first time and less than a minute the second time, each with my heart re-starting on its own. I only recall seeing the spinning ball of yarn that was multi-colored that seemed to be in motion but had a spaghetti-like qualities that I had seen before and was "told" that they were spirits vying for position to get to me (to talk I think). Ended up with two operations for a "temporary pace-maker and yesterday they inserted a permanent one that is entirely inside my old heart acting as a cattle-prod if my heart rate falls, kinda cool technology that should keep me around long enough to do two things that I was seemingly told to do.

A few other things happened that kept me going around thinking and talking about. I, of course, talked to my captive-audience care-givers including a theologian that spoke with me about having had patients seeing dead relatives. He shared a statement made by another theologian "THE LONGEST JOURNEY YOU WILL TAKE IS THE SHORT DISTANCE FROM YOUR HEAD TO YOUR HEART", I like that. it is similar to Dag Hammarskjöld's saying "“The longest journey is the journey inward.”

While talking with my wife at one point I was telling her what a wonderful guide I had when he/it showed me an image of him bowing at the waist with one arm under his chest and the other in the air, I burst out laughing while I got "looks" from my sweet wife. My guide, the one that I hear, and sometimes see internally, has a delightful sense of humor and I'm sure that we are good friends in the spirit-world.
 
I have removed this bit of "Pitty-Party" that I wrote since it has no value to the forum and is an example of the worst of me rather than an example of the standards I expect of myself. Truly a disgusting thing for me to have done. I'd much rather be remembered as being positive and directing my "attitude" toward positive outcomes that have allowed me to have such rewarding experiences.
 
So sorry to hear about your difficulties, Ken. I can understand your anxieties. It's hard to read your focus on end of life and makes me very sad. Is there anything we can do here to help? Please feel free to PM me if you want to say more. Thinking of you, friend.
 
Same here, my best wishes too
(I have a relative who had a heart attack out on the street and had urgent surgery. Later she faced a depression, but is now cured. I think it was the shock of what happened. Hope you will feel better soon.)
/Jaimie
 
Ken I didn’t read what you wrote, but want to let you know it’s ok to feel angry and upset considering where you’re at right now. Can imagine it’s an emotional rollercoaster to say the least. Go easy on yourself and can assure you I won’t judge you for sharing your journey — the good, bad and ugly. Each has its place.
 
Hi Ken,

Bummer on the latest development, but thumb's up on being able to put it behind you. However, a thought went through my head (believe it or not that happens sometimes :cool:). Maybe, just maybe, this has happened because that kind of access is just not as necessary for you anymore. It has been part of your "life" (in the big sense) support system for a long time. However, you are finishing off the last few pages and are about to close the book on this one. Plus, you have come a long way in terms of spirit since you were the young man you speak of from time-to-time. (I have too, frankly. So much so that I can hardly recognize myself sometimes as I look back). And, you've finally received some of the confirmations you have always sought. You'll be seeing in real time the things you've been wondering about soon enough. (This may well include the individual who has served as your guide all of these years ;)). To paraphrase, now we see in a glass darkly, but then you'll be seeing face-to-face.

At the end of every journey one stops "gazing out the windows" and starts tidying up the compartment and making sure they haven't left something behind undone. A lot of friends you haven't seen for a long time will be there waiting at the station to greet you when you get there. You're leaving some others here, but only for a little while. You can be there for them as well when the time comes. :)

Cordially,
S&S

PS--Back from a long week-end taking youngest back up to college. She remains healthy. I remain happy about that, but it is always sad to have her go away, even if it is for the best.
 
You are spot-on as usual! I still wish I had the ability to communicate as I did while in the hospital where the communication was so free and welcome. I'm left now with only memories and their ability only to see the bow (gesture, not the weapon, crazy English language) he gave me after my telling my wife about "him". I think I saw a similar bow in the Robin hood movie or perhaps an old canned goods label. Glad to hear that your daughter is back "at it" in college!
 
Hi Ken,

Just for a change of pace, here are some interesting examples of bowing in the old style. Maybe you can find the one your guide used:

First, from 1930, a nice example from olden days (1700s?), then it shows you "modern" anything goes type 1930 dancing from stage and screen, then it goes on to put the 1700s dancers doing 1930s dancing (a bit of a hoot there!). :D


Second, several different types from possibly 1600s:


Anyhow, good hunting!;)

Cordially,
S&S
 
That pomp depicted in the video seems so strange now-days - quite before "my time" (this time around).

What a day I've had! I took the opportunity today to speak to some old classmates about reincarnation as I promised my guide that I would do. My closest friend and his wife (a preacher's daughter) left early, possibly for that reason, which saddens me. But, I was heard and accepted as well as possible by the others.

That was just the start, after getting back home I saw a neighbor outside and went to talk with her while enjoying being out in the sunshine. It was her mother that plotted the development where I built my home, a small "Victorian" development of about 35 homes. It seems that her mother was doing the same as me in reading and "remembering" reincarnation things. Her mother had a small chapel that was recently disassembled and re-assembled in Michigan called the "Lilly-Chapel" after her Spirit Guide Lilly. My neighbor and I talked for about an hour and some things were amazing. I mentioned that I remember about Saul/Paul, who authored half of the New Testament, was not to be trusted and she blurted out that her mother told her the same thing! Wow, that hit me hard, no idea how I knew that and don't know what to do with it other than put it "out there" for others to see. There was something else that both her mother and I told her that I can't now recall, but will add when it comes back to me (hopefully). I think that Saul's problem is touched upon in the "Book of Andrew" by Charles Lehman.

The only thing reincarnation-related that my neighbor experienced was her feeling that she was deprived of water in another lifetime and thanks God each time she showers herself. I ended up telling her more about my life than I intended, I really miss social contacts, especially since I'm about to lose my ability to stay coherent.

Note - I forgot to add that her grandfather (or was it her father?) had a reading done by Edgar Cayce that she now doesn't know where it is.
 
I had a strange thing happen today while traveling to yet another doctor visit and while looking at a fence through my window, the brief visions ere of them as they might have been at a previous point. The most striking of the two was seeing a white painted wood fence starting out being bare wood in my right eye.
 
Thank you tanker, I am also. It must have been his father who was 96 or more. I didn't ask because I was to concerned.
Yesterday was cold and I was uncomfortable.
 
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