Little memory, and my name!

So I used my mirrors of time cd, which takes you to childhood and a past life. I like the induction, but the actual regression is too short. so anyways i got a few childhood memoriesbefore it took my further back.

Then it took me to the mirrors to to go to a past life. Immediately I said Laura! The name sent shivers up my spine. That was my name. I know it was. I can feel it was. It was my name. So slowly I see this burger place kind of in the desert, its really sunny and I am inside standing there. I can see the counter and you step up kind of to sit at the counter. There are tables. I see an old man eating, and other people. I see the waitress. I see there are the little table jukeboxes where you can pick the song with a quarter. I can't make it out, I want to say it was the Beatles. But I couldn't hear it. It asks for a year, and I seems like it is 1965. I am with a guy named Bobby. And then I walk outside, and he comes out, then we get in the car. And we are headed somewhere. I assume California. I have on black shoes, and like a dress, with an idk it's hard to explain, refer to figure A. The place was called Burger Time, or Burger Town. I can see it so clearly. It was a very vivid memory. I was just standing there, looking.

Then I move ahead and it is 1984 or 85 I am not sure. I am at the house, and I see my son. He has blond hair and a t-shirt on. He looks 15 or 16. His name is Ben? Then I walk into the bedroom and my husband is there, I said Adam to him. He is in bed with a white tank top on, rolling over and he sees me. I crawl into bed and we kiss. Then it sais it's time to go.

here are some quick sketches i did.



figure a..This is what i looked like in todays regression. circa 1965. I was 17 in 1965.



this is what "Burger Town/Time" looked like.



Here is a quick picture of my parents back in the 1950's.



This is a map i drew of "Moreno Valley" according to how i saw it in the regression. the little squares are houses, there were tons of them. i described it in the other regressions. anyways, i saw the city off in the distance, which i found out is LA.


Now here is a map of socal.Moreno Valley is in Riverside by the way.






and here are some pics i found of Moval.

Hmm looking at the comparisons is just so weird. Because i am not sure i even heard of moreno valley before my regression. it definatly isnt the most well know place in southern california. but after the regression i didn't even question if it was a real place..i knew it was. and seeing how i saw the mountain, and LA off in the distance, and the extreme suburbs it all just has to be real.

Also, i found 1 Burger town, and it is in El Toro California! there is a number, i want to call and ask how long they have been open. if it has been since the 60's then thats them. but it could have been a Burger Town that closed down. ugh. where can you find old phone books?

Very cool Hippy. It's really starting to fill in with detail now. I'll bet it was the Beatles. They were everywhere in 1965.

Ok, so i called Burger Town, and a hispanic guy picked up, i asked how long the business had been opened but he said he didn't know and the boss wasnt there..hmm

so i also found a number to Burger Time that is in Idaho (could have been idaho, the land was kind of desert like and plain idk)

well i talked to the girl, and she said she wasnt sure, but said a long time. She said the owner is 50, and her mom before her actually opened the place. hmm.

I mean really it could have been anywhere, but i find it odd i have only found 2 places by the names i thought it may have been, and they both were not chains. I would like to call back one day to talk to the owner, and ask what the place looks like. Any idea how i could hide the reason i am asking..?

wow... the drawing of your mom and dad is very 50s. awesome. I think that it's really neat that you draw what you see during regressions. I don't know that I've ever thought of that before.

You could tell them you are researching a book or a film script and want to be very historically accurate, something like that would probably work. You don't want to tell too many fibs, I know, but if you said you were looking for a location for a film set in a fast food joint in 1965 I'll bet they would be very helpful.

Or you could get in touch with these guys - they would probably be pretty knowledgeable: http://www.burgertowndvd.com/

Or maybe these guys might know something (who knew there was a forum for fast food geeks?):
http://www.roadfood.com/Forums/forum.asp?FORUM_ID=26

Or, you could do a bit more meditation and find out something more detailed/vital about that episode in that life.

I also looked this up for you. If you were not wealthy it is unlikely you were wearing the very latest fashions straight out of Vogue, so you may look at the year or two immediately preceding 1965. The style in your drawing is like an 'A Line' dress which was very much the sillhouette of the day for both dresses and coats - much favoured by Doris Day in films of the day for instance. My mother used to wear things like that when I was a child.

http://www.fashion-era.com/1960s/1965_fashion_plates_pictures.htm

Thats a good idea. ok so i found a website where i could search for fast food places, and found a list of about 6 "Burger Town's" all but two are in California. One is in Wisconsin, the other is in Lancaster PA. then i found 10 "Burger Time's" most are in the midwest. they all have phone numbers. hmm I will definatly call that other one back. I guess i could just ask to speak to the owner.

littlemoon; those are really sloppy pictures, just so you guys can get an idea of what i saw. I might draw some better ones.

tang thanks for the links, that burgertown site was cool. And those clothes are exactly what i was wearing. The coat i mean. Since i was wearing the coat in the diner, i wonder if that means i can rule out California as the location?

Thats Awesome Hippy19!!! Good luck with all your memories... I agree with Tang. wait a bit and let it all soak in before trying to find out the facts. Believe what you know, not what you research... at least for now anyway.

Best wishes,
VanH.

Again, very nice memories, Brant! :thumbsup:

Karoliina

Really cool memories Hippy!

Perhaps you can find out what your son's name was in that life, or what your own first and last name was. Your son from that life might still be alive if he was a teenager in the 80's. He'd probably be around 30-40 years old right now.

I don't really know whats going on, but the pull from California is becoming hard to ignore. I have already priced plane,train, and bus tickets to LA. This past week it has been on my mind constantly. I just feel i MUST go back. I just have this fantasy of leaving everything behind, and starting over there. I realize it would be a huge mistake, but i swear if i had saved up enough money i would probably be on the next plane out. It is a very weird feeling. Also i have been having "flashbacks" constantly throughout the day. I wonder if because this life was right before my current one, and not all that long ago is why it seems so familiar. I am constantly getting these flashes of California, and memories, that seems like i have always had. I don't know.

I feel this is me trying to live out some sort of replay, and i realize that would be a mistake. So i will fight the urge to go to LA, and hope it will fade with some time. But honestly the only thing stopping me is the money. Nothing else matters, and thats scary. anyone have any thoughts on why i am feeling this way. I guess these regressions have triggered something, but i just feel so.. homesick?

Hi Hippy,

I'm sorry i can't answer your question, but i can say i know exactly how you feel, because your post describes, almost to the letter, how i feel.

I also wonder if perhaps it's because the memories are from a recent life, so they are still "fresh" in the subconsciousness. Also i worry about the regression, i get flashbacks constantly and this never happened before i was regressed.

Do you feel that a return to LA will somehow heal....whatever issues you still have from that life, and stop you from having the flashbacks? Also, do you sometimes wish that you could go back to that life as Laura, and continue with her life?

Hope you don't mind these questions Hippy, but i feel as if we're both going through the same thing here.

Chris

Hi Chris, I am glad to see i am not alone. It is so nice to come to this forum and talk to so many people that understand. I mean I mention my feelings to my parents, and friends, but they just don't get it. I sometimes feel so alone that I have no one to truly share my memories and feelings with. Because my PL experiences are such a big part of who I am, that it feels like i have to hide a large part of myself. But I am grateful for this forum.

I also wonder if perhaps it's because the memories are from a recent life, so they are still "fresh" in the subconsciousness. Also i worry about the regression, i get flashbacks constantly and this never happened before i was regressed.

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That’s what I am thinking as well, because the flashbacks, and the regressions themselves are so much more familiar. It is a hard feeling to describe, but its very dejavu like. Much more than my previous one (which yes had familiar moments as well, but i could definatly sense some distance). I also started getting flashbacks after my first regression 2 years ago, but since these past 3 regressions to my most recent PL the flashes happen many times a day. Ranging from a feeling, to a vivid memory.

Do you feel that a return to LA will somehow heal....whatever issues you still have from that life, and stop you from having the flashbacks? Also, do you sometimes wish that you could go back to that life as Laura, and continue with her life?

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See I feel very torn about returning to LA. On one hand, I am on the next plane out. On the other I feel very uneasy. More so I am afraid it has changed (which I know it has). But I want to return to LA of the 60's and early 70's. I also feel if I did return to LA I would most likely slip back into the same type of life, and be a complete waste. It's not so much I want to be her again I want to be me there. Because I am her, idk. I think I still have a lot to discover about this PL, so until then I am just going to try and not think too much about it. And try and live in the present. But the pull is strong, and just leaves me feeling so weak, and not really depressed, but more of a longing/nervous/excited kind of feeling. hmm

It is just so odd that this obsession just appeared with the regressions. I mean true, i have always felt a sort of nostalgia for California, but its almost like something inside of me has been awakened, and all of the nostalgia and memories are coming back.

needless to say i can't get enough of the songs...
Hollywood Nights
It never rains in southern California
California Sun
California Dreamin

Where are you longing to return to? Who were you in the life you lived in that place?

Hippy16 said:

So i will fight the urge to go to LA, and hope it will fade with some time. But honestly the only thing stopping me is the money.

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Why fight it? I think you should save up and visit Moreno Valley for a weeks vacation,
You'll probably find the way to your old house just by driving around the streets (and compare similar streets) there.

Then some archive - or the neighbours - can tell you what your last name was in that life. Some more investigations and you know what has happened to your loved ones in that life - then time to return to your present life with a feeling of being healed, I think.

So no need to start a new life in CA - but a good reason for a vacation and research trip.

Hippy16 said:

It is just so odd that this obsession just appeared with the regressions.......but its almost like something inside of me has been awakened, and all of the nostalgia and memories are coming back.

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My feelings exactly Hippy, i know where you're at. Take a look at the last 3 or 4 posts in this thread, does it look familiar to you?

I don't know if you feel the same way, but just talking about that life can help. I'll happily bore the pants off of anyone who will listen to my Lisbet life... it makes me feel better (i don't know about the person on the receiving end though..: angel ) Hippy you're welcome to PM me if you want to just talk about anything to do with that life, you can say it once, or you can tell me ten times if it makes you feel better, i know what you're going through.

Chris

Indian: Maybe your right, but much like in my past lives, i am never one for small steps, always to the extreme. Can't just take a visit, i have to start over. But yeah. I think i will start putting some money away, to take a short trip to Moval, and LA at the end of the summer before i got back to school.

Chris: Wow, that sounds so much like myself. That last post in particular. The who, back and forth, not sure if i like it, or don't like it. I feel the same way. Like i enjoy the feeling california is giving me, and the memories from that life are giving me, but then also it leaves me sad, and uneasy. Its a weird feeling.

Hippy16 (and Chris),

You're definitely not alone about these feelings. I have such an urge for Germany. I want to go there, want to be there, want to live there. At times the urge is so strong that I, as you hippy, check out flight prices and schedules only to remember that I don't know *where* to go or what to do there(that pl is not fully memorized yet ). I don't think I would be satisfied just going there, because I only urge for a certain place, only I don't know it yet. Does that make sense?

I'm happy to hear that it's not just me going crazy lol My boyfriend thinks that my urge to go abroad is a bit desperate at times hehe

Sunniva, It looks like there are many of us who feel this way. Because what we feel goes beyond just an interest, and perhaps even an obsession with a place. It is a feeling of NEEDING to be back there, needing to live there, such a strong urge to return. I just find it so weird, how this has happened so suddenly with me.

Also these regressions have made me remember a memory i have had for a long time, of which my parents say never happened. So we are driving along the ocean and the road is real curvy and there are mountains to the side. then we get to this "board walk" is what i always called it. And i remember the fair and the rides and the food. the walking down the stairs to the beach to find seashells. My parents said we never did that, but i seem to remember myself as myself. Has anyone ever had a pl memory, and you just incorporated your present life self in the memory?

Because i feel this memory was from California, in the late 70's or 80's. hm

Hippy, perhaps your memory of the boardwalk is from the previous life childhood? What were the rides and things like? They have changed somewhat since the 1960-70s. If you remembered a particular one ("The Octopus" or whatever) you could do some googling. I have never mixed up memories from different lives, but I guess it could happen. Then again, perhaps your memory is just better than your parents'? Maybe there is something about that trip they don't want you to remember for whatever reason. It happens.

I tend to agree if something is telling you that you must go to LA, I would go, as long as it would not disrupt your present life too much. You are still young, without strings, mortgages, kids, career issues and so on, so you can do these things. Now is the time. You might regret it later if you don't go. I don't recommend you start dressing up as your past life character and go all Psycho (Hithcock style) but obviously you have some unfinished business. Maybe someone is waiting to meet you there? Maybe Richard? Maybe your kid? Maybe the former husband? Could be the beginning of a beautiful friendship.

It is so nice to come to this forum and talk to so many people that understand. I mean I mention my feelings to my parents, and friends, but they just don't get it. I sometimes feel so alone that I have no one to truly share my memories and feelings with. Because my PL experiences are such a big part of who I am, that it feels like i have to hide a large part of myself. But I am grateful for this forum.

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I know exactly what you mean by this! Even if you find people who are OK with the concept of reincarnation, you still get a bit of incredulity/fear/awe/envy etc getting in the way of just kicking the ideas and emotions around 'as if they were real' - which of course they are! It is a wonderful feeling to simply be understood by others who know how you feel. I kept it secret my whole life, mostly.

Hi tang, I am not sure, i just have always had that memory but my parents don't. But yes they do tend to have bad memories so it could very well be from this life. It's just i have a fairly good memory of events as a child, and there just isn't anyone there i can pinpoint other than general family. and myself.

I want to go, very badly. I am still just afraid. I wonder if i could even survive there, my parents say i would be eaten alive in the city. But I feel like I would fit there, I just don't know about the driving. I am a terrible driver, well not terrible just a nervous driver. I hate driving on the highway, or in alot of traffic. I think im going to start putting some money away for a trip out there. Like some of you have said, perhaps a trip will free me from this connection to LA/California and it can continue to remain in the past and i can start to just feel content where i am now. Or perhaps i will love it, and move out there one day. But I just need to check things out a bit. I would also be afraid to travel alone, my freinds don't have the money to make a trip there, and i doubt my mom or dad would go with me. idk. Maybe it is something i should do alone though. hmm

Hi Hippy,


Just thought I'd check in and see how you're doing...Any new developments in your memories or travelplans?

Well I just got back from a trip to Pittsburgh pa, to visit family. I did get to explore the area where i think i may have lived in the life before my most recent one. It was all very familiar there, and i saw alot of houses that looked like the one in my memory. But i knew if i saw it, i would know which house was mine. I only went up a few streets though. hmm.


But as for my california obsession, its still strong. Before i left for pittsburgh i was actually seeing palm trees in different places. Like I was driving home one night, and in my rear mirror saw the light post behind me, and for a second i saw them as palm trees lined up. hmm. I plan to regress tommorow, since i havnt in while. so i will update if anything comes up.

Hello Hippy


I haven't been here for quite some time. But every time I read your past life memories, I think: wow! They're so detailed, so real.


When you're there, surrounded by memories from the past, and if you're confronted by old issues, there's not really a way back.


Memories want to be seen, pain wants to be heard, emotions and frustrations want to be released and longings and obsessions want to be lived out.


I didn't have any professional help or guidance when I was in the midst this past life turmoil. I was seeing a psycho-therapist, but he didn't understand me. He wanted to put me on medication because of my "hallucinations". And I was quite a troubled teenager, so perhaps his concern was reasonable.


Because I didn't get any serious help, I had to find ways to deal with my past life obsession myself. I'm not sure if any professional past life therapist would have agreed with my methods, because it took ages before I was able to heal my past life wounds. But at least I know now what do-it-yourself methods are more or less beneficial.


1) Express yourself


Talk about it, write about it, paint it, draw it, express the emotions, including the anger, the frustration, the longing, the sadness. But be picky if you want to share your memories with anyone else. Because not everyone is understanding.


2) Live out your fantasies


I found it very helpful to be a"copy" of my past life for a while, the be the guy I was before. To visit the places I've lived before, to absorb past life atmospheres, to be one with the past. It was a playful way to express supressed past and present life emotions.


You have the urge to go back to California. I think you should do so, as soon as you have the money and the chance. Past life urges can be very intense and irrational. You don't even have to have a good reason. You're more like an artist hoping to find the right kind of inspiration.

But anyway, who am I to preach


I've also been young and wild and crazy.


I was also totally past life obsessed.


I always wanted to go to Germany.


I just needed to be there.


There were times that I didn't go home after school, but I'd directly go to the station,


just to sit on the platform to see the trains coming and going.


I always waited for the train from/to Cologne (Köln) and I always imagined to get on that train just to get "home".


But most of all I just sat there, and I was quite sad because I had no home in Germany anymore.


The gap between here and there was too wide.


First of all because I didn't have any relatives there and I didn't have any money to just go there.


And second, Germany in the 1980s wasn't like Germany in the 1880s.


Everyone agreed, me included, that German cars, modern German cities,


and dull German companies, where not something one could feel easily attracted to.


But still I had to go there, there was my "home".


And I still can feel my total frustration when I was in Frankfurt a few years ago.


Okay, I was there, but what did I see, modern ugliness, nothing to be nostalgic about.


And even the small streets down town (rebuilt after WWII) weren't like I remembered.


It was a bit like the old, but still it wasn't.


The good old smell was gone, the old people were gone.


In the past those streets were crowded with common folks


and not with fancy business men in expensive Armani suits.


But in spite of that I still feel -sort of- at home, especially if I walk down the river and smell the river.


The bridge across the river might be new, but the river isn't.


The river is older than I am and that is a comforting thought.


Now my past life isn't bothering me anymore, I have a fresh look at the cities I lived before.


In this life I'm not very fond of city life, so I don't have the urge anymore


to move to any of the cities I've lived in the past.


I once had nostalgic feelings about London, but I really really really wouldn't like to live there.


And to be honest, London was quite depressing in Victorian times.


Yes, it was a lively city, but there was so much poverty


and everything seemed to be covered with a layer of sticky dust.


But I can't deny that there are still areas that make me feel nostalgic.


That feel like "home", even if I don't have any distinct memories of that place.


Perhaps it hasn't always to do with past life memories, it could also be an area where I feel comfortable,


and where I would like to live right now.


Because it feels good.


Sometimes my own emotional reactions shock me.


The past is the past, but...


I was watching a German movie lately, and then this landscape came into view,


my trees, my hills, my home, my everything.


It still tears me apart when I see that.


It also would tear me apart if I would be there, because I can't stay, although I would like to.


And yes, I've been thinking about moving there, I even made serious plans.


But the intensity of my emotions make me wary, I don't want to be lived by my past.


I want to live in the now.


Still I have no idea where elso to go on vacation, I don't really want to go anywhere else.


I had an invitation to travel to Norway this Summer, but...Norway isn't like home.


So I guess, I'm still a bit stuck.


I'm still working on that and secretly planning my next vacation : angel


And good luck with your Californian dreams


Curious Girl.

What a wonderful couple of posts, curious girl, and so much of it that i can relate to myself, thanks for sharing...

Hi Curious girl.


Awesome post, beautiful reflections -- and so nice to see you here again!


Hippy16 - here is an excerpt about the history of the Burger from a website that offers a VHS about it:

We might all think of Hollywood as the “Entertainment Capital of the World,” but Southern California is also the home to the greatest hamburger places in America. It was here, in the post-war boom of the 50s and 60s that the hamburger became famous!

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And a VHS that tells about that history which uses as the visual on the cover. The inserted image on the cover looks like your drawing but I cannot make out exactly what the sign says. Good Luck with your research!

I also read your posts, Chris, so I understand your attachment to the past.


All I can say is: don't try to push it away, don't try to ignore it.


Just accept it's there, the pain and the longing, but also the joy.


Better express these emotions and live them out (without ruining your current life )


because it's only past life energy that wants to be released.


It's been locked inside for too long.


Healing is a process, it takes time.


A past life memory is most of all the start of the process.


It starts with a memory, with the awareness of a past life, with more memories,


with seeing patterns, with understanding how past and present are related,


and with a whole bunch of emotions that need to be taken care of.


The real acceptance and the letting go occurs when it's time, when you're ready.


But I think the healing process can be easier with the help of a good therapist.


With the stress on g-o-o-d, there aren't many of those out there is my experience.


So I also do most of my soul work myself, and beside that it's a lot cheaper


I only go to a healer one or two times a year, which helps me a lot, but still I do most of it myself.


That's what it's all about, we need to experience and learn and find out things ourselves.


But a bit of guidance every now and then won't harm.


Curious Girl.

curious_girl said:

And I still can feel my total frustration when I was in Frankfurt a few years ago.
Okay, I was there, but what did I see, modern ugliness, nothing to be nostalgic about.


And even the small streets down town (rebuilt after WWII) weren't like I remembered.


It was a bit like the old, but still it wasn't.

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..oh, and I still love your posts, Curious Girl :thumbsup:

I've been a wild rover for many a year,


I've spent all my money on whisky and beer


That was a Dutch commercial, not German,


but that's okay, since I live in Holland these days.


Cheers!


Curious Girl.

Lovely Curious Girl and good advice.


I have always just had this past life stuff going on in the background. Sometimes it can be upsetting as you say - so much past upset! So many tears! So many regrettable things! Talk about being a troubled teenager! I would never dream of discussing this stuff with a straight therapist though. As you say, they would just think it was some kind of weird fantasy life I have/hallucinations and these days probably offer medication to make it go away.


I have learned to deal with it by just trying to see the lessons. I don't have a time machine so there is no going back and doing things over. I have never really felt a compulsion to act anything out or revisit places. I have already been upset the once about various tragedies, so I try not to be all upset over again about them! Once was enough in my view.


It is very useful to see where I have come from, what has helped to form my character, understand why I react to certain situations/people in certain ways. I also try to always focus forwards on being the best I can be from now on and to build upon what I have learned so far, so as not to repeat mistakes.