Mere Dreamer
Senior Registered
Moving sounds healthy for you. As you say, you can see your possible direction by the paths available to you. I think you will find your way forward.
It looks like you can't really do anything but develop patience. Some problems resolve themselves, and if there is something to do I think you will find your way open to do it.
I wonder if you can disconnect from him for now/this lifetime? You may very well have determined in your past lives that you would never let him go, no matter what. You could both be affected by ingrained decisions that no longer have a foundation in your current life, especially if they contradict each other so directly. "I will go my own way this time." vs. "I will never let you go."
My ex strongly affected me both emotionally and in dreams for many years, and I was able to sever that connection during a "vision quest" of sorts. I rarely think of him now, and dreams now portray him as an minor element in my life rather than the primary character. It's a nice change.
Sometimes the subconscious needs an equally strong symbol to counter the ingrained mentality we bring from the last life.
For myself, I visualized the connection between my ex and I as a cord (It showed up as this rotting, blackened, arm-thick, earthworm-type material that stretched between my heart and his.) and severed it with a glowing sword. (It fell to dust.) I then cauterized the wound with light. It simply wasn't healthy for either of us for me to be so attached to him.
Now, if I begin to habitually respond as though he has some control over my decisions, I refresh the mental image of cutting our connection and instantly feel my freedom. This process might help you as well.
It looks like you can't really do anything but develop patience. Some problems resolve themselves, and if there is something to do I think you will find your way open to do it.
I wonder if you can disconnect from him for now/this lifetime? You may very well have determined in your past lives that you would never let him go, no matter what. You could both be affected by ingrained decisions that no longer have a foundation in your current life, especially if they contradict each other so directly. "I will go my own way this time." vs. "I will never let you go."
My ex strongly affected me both emotionally and in dreams for many years, and I was able to sever that connection during a "vision quest" of sorts. I rarely think of him now, and dreams now portray him as an minor element in my life rather than the primary character. It's a nice change.
Sometimes the subconscious needs an equally strong symbol to counter the ingrained mentality we bring from the last life.
For myself, I visualized the connection between my ex and I as a cord (It showed up as this rotting, blackened, arm-thick, earthworm-type material that stretched between my heart and his.) and severed it with a glowing sword. (It fell to dust.) I then cauterized the wound with light. It simply wasn't healthy for either of us for me to be so attached to him.
Now, if I begin to habitually respond as though he has some control over my decisions, I refresh the mental image of cutting our connection and instantly feel my freedom. This process might help you as well.