Am I Losing Myself

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  1. briski

    briski Senior Registered

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    Main thing is dont let autism define your life
     
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    How do I do that. How can I be successful.
     
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    Autism shouldnt stop you being happy or successful. If I was you I'd draw up a list of what you want in life and target them.
     
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    Well there are a lot of things I would like to do. Write a story, make my own comic book, maybe make a video game and even get into fashion design. However I doubt I could be sucessful especially since I cant stay focused on anything. I'm so worried what if I'm never successful what if I even have no purpose.
     
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    You are over worrying imo, you'll be fine
     
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    GalaxyDreamer90 Senior Member

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    But my mom even says I cant make it as an artist because I cant focus enough on my art.
     
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    Prove your mom wrong, parents say a lot of things
     
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    True but how do I prove her wrong. She's right and I do lack focus.
     
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    Do your best to focus, think about what your mom has said to motivate yourself.
     
  10. Angie Brown

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    Most of us who start off blond or fair go darker haired, but red heads tend to keep their colour.

    The trouble with alternative medicine is that it is expensive, as practitioners aren't funded. The pharmaceuticals don't want the competition and they have a lot - too much - power, sadly.

    Aspergers, good or bad? Well, it isn't a helpful condition but it isn't the worst by a long stretch. People can learn enough about it, and how it affects them personally and find out for themselves how they can handle the limitations, where and how they can stretch their limitations, learn coping techniques (all what your Counceller can explore with you to find what best suits you as an individual).
    So, whilst it isn't 'good' as such it doesn't need to be as bad as it has been. Accepting it's there and it doesn't mean you can't find ways to have a good, enjoyable life is at least half the battle for anyone with any condition, including many physical conditions.

    When it comes to name calling, there's no shame at all in replying "I have Aspergers, not stupidity. I gain 'B' marks for my studies and that's pretty good", and to say it with a smug grin - even if you don't feel like grinning. Or, ignore the name calling and just know those people are being ignorant.

    When it comes to maybe making friends, just to mention Aspergers means sometimes taking things too seriously, like maybe a joke. Or understanding things a little differently so if they (potential friends) think you misunderstood and have taken offence when they didn't mean offence, for them to please understand and explain no offence intended.

    Knowing it isn't the terrible mental illness you had thought it was, at least not for you, will hopefully make you feel more at peace and relaxed with yourself and those around you. It most certainly isn't something to be at all ashamed of, and it doesn't mean you won't have a good worthwhile and happy life.

    Have you ever tried googling 'famous people who have aspergers', or 'famous artists who have aspergers'? I haven't, but I bet quite a few come up. Maybe on youtube, as well.
    It doesn't make anyone good, bad, stupid or intelligent in itself but if someone is inclined to have a certain type of intelligence it can magnify that.

    Best wishes,

    Angie
     
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    Were you able to focus more before you were on meds? or when you maybe had different meds?

    Best wishes,

    Angie
     
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    Come to think of it I was able to focus better before being put on the medications I'm on now. I remember about 10 years ago being able to binge watch gameplay videos on YouTube. I remember binge watching a gameplay of the old video game earthbound back about 10 years ago on YouTube. My mom would even get on me for being on YouTube a lot those days but at least I was focused. Now I cant really binge watch video like I use to. In fact since I've been on the medications I'm on I hardly use the TV in my room or my laptop to watch videos anymore. I cant even play video games for a long time these days. I'll be sure to talk to my doctor about this next time I see him.
     
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    Unfortunately, there are a lot of meds that do affect the ability to concentrate, including the painkillers I have to take. They can also affect motivation and physical energy. My own 'get up and go' has gradually got up and went since being on tramadol and co-dydromol. The alternative is pain that makes me feel suicidal, and I can't do that to my family. It would leave them in far too much mental and emotional anguish and would be very cruel of me.

    It does put people in a quandary though, with far better natural alternatives being expensive for many. My eldest and I have found our local Chinese Doctor very helpful in the past, and he has become very popular in our area. Our finances have changed though and we can no longer afford the almost £40 per session for six to eight weeks. Money is simply too tight now, even though the treatment has good very long term effects.

    I think you are right though to ask for a review of the meds you are on. I wonder if any of them make you uncontrollably hungry, or to bloat?

    Perhaps, if you are diagnosed with Aspergers and can accept and learn more about it instead of being defensive and taking offence, you won't be cross when people mention it, and they might be able to see a less cross you as not needing the meds, or as not needing such a high dose? As some of us have intimated, these days Aspergers doesn't have to mean you can't enjoy a good, happy enough life.
    Our best local computer repair shop is owned by a man who has the condition, and he is happily married with a family (has been for many years now). So own business, own home and own family. He 'only' needed to accept his condition and learn to make allowances for himself where he needed to, and how to work around it where he could. Oh, and how to handle or ignore then to dismiss ignorant bullies as they came along.

    It's important to tell your Doc though of any negative effects the prescription has on you.

    Best wishes,

    Angie
     
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    I plan on trying to get a hold of my doctor today over the phone about changing my medications as I think the current medications I'm on might be causing me to lose focus. I was on a medication that was causing me to gain some weight (plus it didn't help that I've struggled with weight since I was about in middle school due to genetics). Luckily since I got off that medication I've lost almost 30 pounds. Sorry if I don't know how many Kilograms that is. I'm not sure I could ever accept the fact that I might have autism. Even if I was to do research I'm so stubborn that it's hard for me to change my mind on something. Stubborn seems to be another personality trait I inherited from my mothers side. My mom can be pretty stubborn too. I'm still unsure if all the things I've inherited from my family are good or bad or what. Sorry if I seem to be changing the topic to genetics. I'm just curious why I am the way I am and most of it seems to be genetics.
     
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    Aspergers and a lot of other physical and mind conditions can be genetically inherited. Sometimes it takes a trauma to trigger a condition and if that trauma doesn't happen it doesn't develop, or doesn't develop very much. Other times it might develop without a trigger.

    Did you know that strong stubborness can be a symptom of Aspergers? (I say Aspergers because IF the diagnosis is correct, then you don't seem to have the condition as severlely as some). You are very lucid, verbally able and communiate well on here).

    I hope you can reach your Doctor today, but if not then try to not worry. It's only Monday and there is the rest of the week to be able get through to him.

    Best wishes,

    Angie
     
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    Yeah I was technically labeled as having Aspergers and being on the high functioning end of autism. I didn't know stubborness could be a symptom of Aspergers but makes sense since most with autism can be pretty obsessive. Also my mom was also labeled as a kid but we don't know with what as gramps and grams never told her growing up. And I did have a very traumatic childhood especially growing up with 2 older sisters that are 7 and 10 years older. They were always bossing me around as a little kid and then there was the time my older sister traumatized me with a creepy doll, which I'm still trying to get over to this day.
     

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