Apologies I did not read the rules so had no idea this was out of bounds. My fault entirely.
Hi Norton
Sorry to hear you are having such a rough time.
Life can be very difficult sometimes. But, there is always something good to find somewhere, surely?
Er... Isolation and being away from others is a relief. I like woods , the sea, the rivers. Lonliness has never bothered me it's how I always was.
Hmm I think you might confuse your feeling
What u might feel not belong here on this planet, could be also that your consciouness still attached to your previous life on earth, u had unfinished business, or perhaps u were falsely accussed & detained somewhere e.g. Prison in PL & passed away. During that time u suffered from trauma, depression of not supposed to be there & miss so much your home, your family; thus, u brought this imprint of emotion to your present life.
This is what I have learned from mind transfering during bardo according to Tibetan Buddhist reincarnation. A soul could just get easily anxious, nervous during the intermediate state and thus, he/she picked his/ her next reincarnation abruptly, like just choose whatever they see first, so now it could be that you didn't meet the place & the people u miss from previous life, so u feel like u were born on the wrong place & wrong time.
A PLR might b helpful to u.
I see what you are getting at with the end of life theory. I mean, yeah, it's a possibility. I could have planned to work through those feelings in this life.
I see the rules say this -
'no occult, unconventional or conventional religious topics
(unless the topic somehow connects to a past life/reincarnation issue),'
Well my issue and my lifelong confusion (I'm 46) of the following events kind of make it essential that I just breifly mention this :
All the memories I have before say, 2 years, are of little 'guardian angels' taking me through strange worlds, time and space, and hiding me from demonic type creatures that had 'marked' me from before and would chase me in this life. This was my life until recognition of life on Earth began & I could see the outside world - and continued till I was around five. These other beings have found me on many occasion in out of body experiences. / end weird stuff. It sounds so crazy but the memories of these times are actually still stronger than the memory of , say, my wedding day.
I learned to read by 3-4 . I knew what reading, writing were from a past life but couldn't recognise the language , but I knew it was something I used to do and HAD to do so quickly. so I made people read to me , I'd memories what they said and decode the letters.
I've seen the Akashic records but only once. I didn't find myself. But there's , lets face it, a lot of movies there.
The Bardo thing - that could explain exactly the experiences of my early life. Unfortunately I can't get a PLR, I've been out of work with chronic illness for a long time and rely on others. So it's the 'do it yourself' route for me.
Keeping within the forum rules..let's stay on this planet and perhaps this will help.
I found this quote by
Alberto Villoldo Ph.D thoughtful and beautifully written.
His newest book, titled
Mending the Past and Healing the Future -- Soul Retrieval. It is a very interesting read -he is an anthropologist and psychologist and studied in the Amazon with a very famous healer. I am finding his research and work with the Light body to be fascinating. It is so nice to read another point of view regarding past lives and healing from a culture we do not read much about.
I have never heard of healing past lives as a way to
soul retrieval. It puts an interesting spin on why we remember, what is important to remember and better yet - he addresses creating consciously in the future via this ancient Amazon technique of being
whole.
Many members over the years have asked - why do we remember. If they do remember - some ask now what? What am I supposed to do with it. It is a beautiful premise really - the purpose is to heal and become whole. Has anyone else read his book? It is the
Shamanistic approach and well done. Many people address past life experiences as a way to heal - to forgive and let go. But how many of you have thought of past life work as a way to create consciously in the future? To become whole and find that all elusive word -
TRUTH?
In the context he is using it; it is embracing who we are, where we have been, forgiving the circumstances of the past, letting go and
consciously creating a positive future. He has exercises that include journaling and meditation.
He also gives another point of view - one from the Amazon - which as I stated I find very interesting. Since we are inundated with Western thought and ancient text from the East.
In Villoldo's book, he references the Laika, and it isn't a matter always of going to the past. Instead he says they see evolution as a journeying into the future to "see who we're
becoming" so that we may bring that knowledge back to the present. He then says that the Lakia believe that it is memories stored in our "
luminous energy field (the karma from our former lives)" that determines our current situation. He talks about
the fifth world - which is found within the higher chakras, and it is in these higher chakras that we meet our perfect and original self - in order to heal.
He does talk about journeying into past lives and into a lifetime in which you suffered the most - but he gets specific;
I hope you can find something of value in his work and perhaps pick up his book. I enjoyed it very much and over the years have discovered, I am "management."
'What I find so interesting is that he says you only need these three life times to be set free of the karma within you and that there is a domino effect - backward, that will occur clearing ALL your former lifetimes.'
Thanks for the reply.
But three more lives just to break even with karma? I can barely look one minute into the future on bad days. I can't even concieve of being able to do this.
I am so outraged at this news. I actually hate myself for sending me on this 'growth' mission. I was wiser as a baby than I am now - and I've spent 2/3 of my life on the spiritual path searching for truth. So much work to end up more spiritually dense than I started.
But really, it's not the healing of my past life I am confused about - it's just the confusion about the start of it that I posted ^. No-one else on any path I've talked has ever been able to explain it. It *really* matters to me because I'm going to have to go back there when I die.
Back to karma - I've heard some say that the highest spiritual beings here still have to reincarnate. If that's the truth, that out of 7 billions of us, the 50 or so wisest are *still* not good enough then you can see my point of it being hopeless. This planet hasn't got enough *time* to evolve everyone to a level of that magnitude. I doubt humanity has 100 years left to be honest. Looking at current affairs we may have good odds on not making 2019. So we may to have to incarnate somewhere else anyway.
I've heard that no-one compels you to stay on Earth, and you can opt out to stay somewhere of slow growth or even other realms. I've heard Earth is the boot camp that we don't really have to force ourselves to go through.
But if all I can do is try to heal. I better get on with it. There doesn't seem to be any other option at all to move forward.
And I do resent that puppeteering , even if it's by my own self.
But thank you for your replies all.
