Does anyone get like this? (Yearning, missing someone)

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  1. Shiriya

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    I was listening to some songs that reminded me of a few lives of mine, and while getting caught up in my emotions as memories flashed through my mind, I couldn't help but suddenly cry. I usually don't ever cry and have healed from past traumas and a few years of chronic pain as a result of finding out about them 2 years ago.

    It's so strange how abruptly this happened with these emotions rising up and a river of tears flowing while bawling my eyes out. Thinking about an intimate memory of a man and possibly him in spirit, then thinking about how I couldn't keep my promises in another life where I was a samurai to be with my daughter and having wished to live with my deceased wife, it feels like a part of myself wants what I once had back.

    Regarding the memory of the man, even though I've only seen one memory of a few glimpses, it was filled with such passion I never felt in this life, then the memory grew very explicit. Then again, I am young and inexperienced when it comes to relationships as I rarely dated guys around my age group.

    Sometimes, I sense the presence of a man I know I've a close connection with knowing he's watching over me in spirit. I know he doesn't want to interfere with my current life knowing that this life is a "chance to feel innocence" and to live to the fullest, since I've lived many lives fighting, experiencing betrayals, and losing loved ones. Every time I sense him knowing he's there, I can't help but get embarrassed and flustered. Then I usually go about acting like he isn't there since I feel too shy. A part of me gets the feeling he could be that man and we may possibly have a "twin flame" connection stumbling sometimes with feeling very lonely missing that sense of intimacy and touch, yet another part of me isn't so sure and just pushes the thought right in the bin.

    Also, I thought I'd mention that the man in spirit appeared in a dream a few years back with my present self that grew very intimately explicit during a dark time in my life missing him. In the dream, everything felt so real. I felt his touch and his warmth, saw the sad look in his eyes while he brought me close and we kissed.

    It's just strange. I don't usually get this emotional because I know I used to think back on the past knowing that I must live this life focusing on the present doing what I can to work on myself instead of getting caught on what's done. Every now and then, I wonder how he's doing on the other side, though usually snap myself out of it to focus on now.

    I'm just wondering if I'm not alone and if anyone else has experienced something very similar, a strange yearning you can't help feel yet you know it isn't good lingering on it because you have to live life.
     
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  2. SeekerOfKnowledge

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    I would bet that most people here can relate to the yearning.

    I can.

    Before I really remembered (still only fragments of many lives, though), when I was between 9 and 12 years old, after watching the movie "The Time Machine", I began daydreaming of owning one. To go back in time. To see buildings and people. To listen to music. To try the food. But even back then I had realized, that I didn't really want to live in the past. The plague here, wars there, poverty, books costing a fortune...

    I know that longing. Sometimes it is people I miss, sometimes other stuff. Sometimes I miss this, sometimes I miss that. Weird enough, the people I miss the most or most often are not the ones I had a romantic or even intimate relationship with.
    As for things I miss, it often (but not always) is something I wouldn't really want to do (again?), as it would be something that would clash with my current personal morals.

    You are not alone with this, definitely not.
     
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  3. Shiriya

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    Thank you for sharing your experience and for the reassurance. :) It's the same for me and I'm sure everyone else can relate when you mentioned "missing this or that". Often I find myself yearning to go to Japan, missing home in the forests. Especially the sacred energy the nature and woods there bring.
     
  4. Spirit Sword

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    I believe everyone here feels a longing for something or someone left behind at one point or another. You are most certainly not alone.

    There is a woman I miss. I dream of her often, just sitting together, or having unimportant conversations. Or sometimes when I close my eyes, I see the forests of middle England, lush and beautiful, dense and vast as they no longer are.

    Lingering on what you wish to see again only ends in pain and causes you to miss the present, which you will likely someday look back fondly upon as well. Yet, looking back is something we all cannot help but do.
     
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    That is certainly very true, no doubt. Just when you slip up, you have to keep discpline and let it go. Thanks for the reassurance and for sharing your experience, Spirit Sword. :)
     
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    Yes, I always feel as if I am yearning for and waiting for someone. But since I have very few memories of my past - a dream or two at most, and just strong intuitive feelings and visions - I am not sure who or what I am exactly looking, waiting, or yearning for.
     
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    You are definitely not alone on that one. It's the same for me as well, seeing two dreams of memories in different lives and only little glimpses of interaction. I don't know why I've been shown these memories, but perhaps it's a way of our souls letting us know what we're looking for or what we want. I still don't know for myself though, lol.
     
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    I’m a 55 year old female American. I became attracted to a pop singer when I was 8 and he was on a TV show when he was 17. I spent my whole life wondering why I couldn’t get him off my mind. . . Then this past Nov he died. It was after that I learned a whole lot! This was David Cassidy, yes, I won’t lie. However everything I post will be the honest truth and not some fan stuff. I was very sick just before he was (July -January actually with a digestive disorder) and was too sick to even think of him, however I had several dreams of him and don’t know why today. I was even ok when he died. Just like I was with other famous people who died.

    About a week after his death I started dreaming of him again. These were very positive and lasted a couple of weeks. It is now July and I decided to do a past life regression to deal with it, thinking we may have had experiences in the past. I had done one before where I saw an image of what was a southern plantation and a handsome, proud man outside it dressed really wealthy, but got no more than that in 2006. This time that same image came up and I remembered reading that you can say “show me so and so” and you can see another person’s past life if they interacted with yours in a past life.

    I said “show me David Cassidy”, I was shocked when I saw a hurt, beaten slave at my feet. Still living or dead I still don’t really know, but the injuries were severe and I know I put them there because I was the man.

    In this life I have turned my life around, I became a Christian, was a missionary and pastor’s wife at one point (left because of spouse abuse). I’m poor, educated, and a healer. The poor black slave became a very popular singer, but was still used and abused. Still a slave to the public, he never had a moment to himself. He has some karma to work out I guess.

    My suggestion to you is do some regression therapy. It is great. You can find it on YouTube.
     
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    Welcome to the forum, Mary!
    Thank you for sharing your story.
     
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    Good thread and certainly one I relate to, and indeed was the reason I came to the forum so many years ago. We carry these people with us like shadows. I believe those of us with specific memories are blessed to have found rationale for the longing. For me, despite the pain, it is a beautiful thing... it gives me a soulful perspective on life and people. The beauty of those past loves, family or lovers, is indeed the reward for having been there, the cream has risen to the top and peeked into our current consciousness. Such beauty is eternal.

    Welcome Mary!

    ~Tman
     
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  12. VenusUnchained

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    I think you and I have so very similar experiences. If you ever need to talk to someone my eyes and mind are open.

    Music has played a huge part in my experiences and continues to do so. I'm not an emotional person but lately the want and yearning has had me in mini breakdowns of the not so cute variety...gotta love ugly crying over a man I've never met and don't know how to find...

    I agree that these are beautiful and haunting things that are uniquely ours. But it's hard. It's extremely hard some days to cope with the want and longing that comes with it.
     
  13. MaryLangenback

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    Yes it is hard. I was abused in this life as well, and just went to a counselr to find a way to get over this obsession with him as well as the grief and some other things to get my life on track. I think if even if I’m wrong or it has very little to do with reincarnation, it does have something to do with the abuse I suffered as a child. Or it might be both. I did go through the past life regression, albeit by myself on YouTube, but I did it still. I always wanted him to replace my brother (who molested me) . I always found DC very comforting. His eyes and voice are amazing and so helpful when I’m stressed. Thank you for your offer of support. I appreciate it.
     
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  14. Shiriya

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    Jesus, you've worded it so perfectly! The only clues to go by are two memories I've received through dream of very different lives. And thank you for your offer :) I've actually seem. a few of your posts around and have grown interested getting to know you and your experiences about these things. So hit me up with a conversation if you'd like.
     
  15. Shiriya

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    Thank you for sharing your beautiful experience, Mary. Also, welcome to the forum! I send you much love and light in your healing in this life.
     
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    Thank you for your post my body has healed, I now have much to heal from in my mind and spirit. I’m looking for people who understand the reincarnation connection part of it (my counselor sure doesn’t) but who also see I have other issues as well in this life that I got into (as punishment regrets?), not sure, but dealing now with things people did to me as a child and my family, friends and well nobody seems to understand me. I really do not want to take over your questions, I just wanted you to know that you definitely are not alone, as is the case in most situations in life. I’m here to help you as well.
     
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    Definitely! I'm interested to maybe hear some of the music that brings it out. Even if it's not something i normally would listen to I feel like music captures the words and events like we never could.

    I have had so many things happen the past few months and feel more deeply than i ever have with little to go on. I was actually having a particularly bad night last night when i posted...hence the ugly crying comment... I'll shoot you a message.
     
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    I'm so so sorry you ever had to go through that. I think often the trauma of our current lives bring out aspects of a potential past life connection and that's how a lot of us become aware. I've never been through that, I'm glad you sought help That's a huge step! And yes please message me anytime you need to talk to someone... I get it. I have to take a step back often to not let want and yearning consume me, and to cope I write. I've written 70 plus chapters of a story I'll probably never share but its therapeutic for me
     
  19. Shiriya

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    Haha, indeed. If you're curious about the songs I've mentioned before, most aren't in English. Here are some links to a few them:


     
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    Thank you, I really enjoyed Lee Sun Hee’s music. It was beautiful.
     
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