Does anyone get like this? (Yearning, missing someone)

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  1. Shiriya

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    I was listening to some songs that reminded me of a few lives of mine, and while getting caught up in my emotions as memories flashed through my mind, I couldn't help but suddenly cry. I usually don't ever cry and have healed from past traumas and a few years of chronic pain as a result of finding out about them 2 years ago.

    It's so strange how abruptly this happened with these emotions rising up and a river of tears flowing while bawling my eyes out. Thinking about an intimate memory of a man and possibly him in spirit, then thinking about how I couldn't keep my promises in another life where I was a samurai to be with my daughter and having wished to live with my deceased wife, it feels like a part of myself wants what I once had back.

    Regarding the memory of the man, even though I've only seen one memory of a few glimpses, it was filled with such passion I never felt in this life, then the memory grew very explicit. Then again, I am young and inexperienced when it comes to relationships as I rarely dated guys around my age group.

    Sometimes, I sense the presence of a man I know I've a close connection with knowing he's watching over me in spirit. I know he doesn't want to interfere with my current life knowing that this life is a "chance to feel innocence" and to live to the fullest, since I've lived many lives fighting, experiencing betrayals, and losing loved ones. Every time I sense him knowing he's there, I can't help but get embarrassed and flustered. Then I usually go about acting like he isn't there since I feel too shy. A part of me gets the feeling he could be that man and we may possibly have a "twin flame" connection stumbling sometimes with feeling very lonely missing that sense of intimacy and touch, yet another part of me isn't so sure and just pushes the thought right in the bin.

    Also, I thought I'd mention that the man in spirit appeared in a dream a few years back with my present self that grew very intimately explicit during a dark time in my life missing him. In the dream, everything felt so real. I felt his touch and his warmth, saw the sad look in his eyes while he brought me close and we kissed.

    It's just strange. I don't usually get this emotional because I know I used to think back on the past knowing that I must live this life focusing on the present doing what I can to work on myself instead of getting caught on what's done. Every now and then, I wonder how he's doing on the other side, though usually snap myself out of it to focus on now.

    I'm just wondering if I'm not alone and if anyone else has experienced something very similar, a strange yearning you can't help feel yet you know it isn't good lingering on it because you have to live life.
     
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  2. SeekerOfKnowledge

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    I would bet that most people here can relate to the yearning.

    I can.

    Before I really remembered (still only fragments of many lives, though), when I was between 9 and 12 years old, after watching the movie "The Time Machine", I began daydreaming of owning one. To go back in time. To see buildings and people. To listen to music. To try the food. But even back then I had realized, that I didn't really want to live in the past. The plague here, wars there, poverty, books costing a fortune...

    I know that longing. Sometimes it is people I miss, sometimes other stuff. Sometimes I miss this, sometimes I miss that. Weird enough, the people I miss the most or most often are not the ones I had a romantic or even intimate relationship with.
    As for things I miss, it often (but not always) is something I wouldn't really want to do (again?), as it would be something that would clash with my current personal morals.

    You are not alone with this, definitely not.
     
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    Thank you for sharing your experience and for the reassurance. :) It's the same for me and I'm sure everyone else can relate when you mentioned "missing this or that". Often I find myself yearning to go to Japan, missing home in the forests. Especially the sacred energy the nature and woods there bring.
     
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    I believe everyone here feels a longing for something or someone left behind at one point or another. You are most certainly not alone.

    There is a woman I miss. I dream of her often, just sitting together, or having unimportant conversations. Or sometimes when I close my eyes, I see the forests of middle England, lush and beautiful, dense and vast as they no longer are.

    Lingering on what you wish to see again only ends in pain and causes you to miss the present, which you will likely someday look back fondly upon as well. Yet, looking back is something we all cannot help but do.
     
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    That is certainly very true, no doubt. Just when you slip up, you have to keep discpline and let it go. Thanks for the reassurance and for sharing your experience, Spirit Sword. :)
     
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    Yes, I always feel as if I am yearning for and waiting for someone. But since I have very few memories of my past - a dream or two at most, and just strong intuitive feelings and visions - I am not sure who or what I am exactly looking, waiting, or yearning for.
     
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    You are definitely not alone on that one. It's the same for me as well, seeing two dreams of memories in different lives and only little glimpses of interaction. I don't know why I've been shown these memories, but perhaps it's a way of our souls letting us know what we're looking for or what we want. I still don't know for myself though, lol.
     
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    I’m a 55 year old female American. I became attracted to a pop singer when I was 8 and he was on a TV show when he was 17. I spent my whole life wondering why I couldn’t get him off my mind. . . Then this past Nov he died. It was after that I learned a whole lot! This was David Cassidy, yes, I won’t lie. However everything I post will be the honest truth and not some fan stuff. I was very sick just before he was (July -January actually with a digestive disorder) and was too sick to even think of him, however I had several dreams of him and don’t know why today. I was even ok when he died. Just like I was with other famous people who died.

    About a week after his death I started dreaming of him again. These were very positive and lasted a couple of weeks. It is now July and I decided to do a past life regression to deal with it, thinking we may have had experiences in the past. I had done one before where I saw an image of what was a southern plantation and a handsome, proud man outside it dressed really wealthy, but got no more than that in 2006. This time that same image came up and I remembered reading that you can say “show me so and so” and you can see another person’s past life if they interacted with yours in a past life.

    I said “show me David Cassidy”, I was shocked when I saw a hurt, beaten slave at my feet. Still living or dead I still don’t really know, but the injuries were severe and I know I put them there because I was the man.

    In this life I have turned my life around, I became a Christian, was a missionary and pastor’s wife at one point (left because of spouse abuse). I’m poor, educated, and a healer. The poor black slave became a very popular singer, but was still used and abused. Still a slave to the public, he never had a moment to himself. He has some karma to work out I guess.

    My suggestion to you is do some regression therapy. It is great. You can find it on YouTube.
     
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    Welcome to the forum, Mary!
    Thank you for sharing your story.
     
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    Good thread and certainly one I relate to, and indeed was the reason I came to the forum so many years ago. We carry these people with us like shadows. I believe those of us with specific memories are blessed to have found rationale for the longing. For me, despite the pain, it is a beautiful thing... it gives me a soulful perspective on life and people. The beauty of those past loves, family or lovers, is indeed the reward for having been there, the cream has risen to the top and peeked into our current consciousness. Such beauty is eternal.

    Welcome Mary!

    ~Tman
     
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    I think you and I have so very similar experiences. If you ever need to talk to someone my eyes and mind are open.

    Music has played a huge part in my experiences and continues to do so. I'm not an emotional person but lately the want and yearning has had me in mini breakdowns of the not so cute variety...gotta love ugly crying over a man I've never met and don't know how to find...

    I agree that these are beautiful and haunting things that are uniquely ours. But it's hard. It's extremely hard some days to cope with the want and longing that comes with it.
     
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    Yes it is hard. I was abused in this life as well, and just went to a counselr to find a way to get over this obsession with him as well as the grief and some other things to get my life on track. I think if even if I’m wrong or it has very little to do with reincarnation, it does have something to do with the abuse I suffered as a child. Or it might be both. I did go through the past life regression, albeit by myself on YouTube, but I did it still. I always wanted him to replace my brother (who molested me) . I always found DC very comforting. His eyes and voice are amazing and so helpful when I’m stressed. Thank you for your offer of support. I appreciate it.
     
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    Jesus, you've worded it so perfectly! The only clues to go by are two memories I've received through dream of very different lives. And thank you for your offer :) I've actually seem. a few of your posts around and have grown interested getting to know you and your experiences about these things. So hit me up with a conversation if you'd like.
     
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    Thank you for sharing your beautiful experience, Mary. Also, welcome to the forum! I send you much love and light in your healing in this life.
     
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    Thank you for your post my body has healed, I now have much to heal from in my mind and spirit. I’m looking for people who understand the reincarnation connection part of it (my counselor sure doesn’t) but who also see I have other issues as well in this life that I got into (as punishment regrets?), not sure, but dealing now with things people did to me as a child and my family, friends and well nobody seems to understand me. I really do not want to take over your questions, I just wanted you to know that you definitely are not alone, as is the case in most situations in life. I’m here to help you as well.
     
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    Definitely! I'm interested to maybe hear some of the music that brings it out. Even if it's not something i normally would listen to I feel like music captures the words and events like we never could.

    I have had so many things happen the past few months and feel more deeply than i ever have with little to go on. I was actually having a particularly bad night last night when i posted...hence the ugly crying comment... I'll shoot you a message.
     
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    I'm so so sorry you ever had to go through that. I think often the trauma of our current lives bring out aspects of a potential past life connection and that's how a lot of us become aware. I've never been through that, I'm glad you sought help That's a huge step! And yes please message me anytime you need to talk to someone... I get it. I have to take a step back often to not let want and yearning consume me, and to cope I write. I've written 70 plus chapters of a story I'll probably never share but its therapeutic for me
     
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    Haha, indeed. If you're curious about the songs I've mentioned before, most aren't in English. Here are some links to a few them:


     
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    Thank you, I really enjoyed Lee Sun Hee’s music. It was beautiful.
     
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    I thought I would show you a picture of me and David Cassidy, I was able to put together a collage of 2 pictures of s at the same age (55), it would have been 2005 for him though. View attachment 535
     
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    I'm glad you enjoyed the song. It's very deep. I hope you've been well enjoying your stay here in the forums, Mary. :D
     
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    This is a picture of David Cassidy and I at the same age. I only photoshopped my face to look like I have makeup on because I’m allergic to it and don’t usually wear it. In this one we are both 55 years old.
    E58FCD3B-0B55-417E-8E91-3A8FFDD698A0.jpeg This is the one I saw as a child and his eyes still affect me even now. He has the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen in my life. If I could sing, I’d sing about those eyes forever!
     
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    Hi Mary,
    Welcome to the forum.
    You do realise yourself that DC might be a PL connection or a different kind of soul connection. I do understand you. It really doesn’t matter what kind of connection. He has been so important in your life. That’s the beauty of musicians and singers. They can reach so many people with their art. Maybe he is from your soulgroup. Than you know him on a soul level.
    I just looked at his picture and I agree with you: special eyes. I had never looked at him that way.
     
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    That’s one f the main things I really, really liked about him is the connection that I always felt with him. His voice was another, it was so calming and peaceful like a breeze. I never had the chance to meet him and I wonder how he would have reacted if we did meet. I later learned energy healing , which I know he tried after a yong girl died at a concert of his in 1974 (he really must also have been a HSP,highly sensitive person, which had to have been painful at times) I really think I could have helped hm a lot. We both loved horses and dogs. My only problem was my trauma in this life. Oh well if our connection is strong enough maybe we can meet again in another life.
     
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    @fireflydancing thank you so much for your perspective on the situation, you gave me a new way to look at it. He may be gone, but I still have pictures and videos of his concerts still available, so in a way he is still here. I need to be as positive with this as possible. If I had a connection in in this life it won’t just disappear to nothingness! I’m sad I didn’t have a chance to meet him, but maybe that was all planned between us, maybe, maybe not I don’t know. I’ll have to wait until I can find him again. I have a tiny hope if that. I have to hang on to that!
     
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    I found it, I looked up types of twin flames and this is what I found!
    Spiritual Connection first
    There are also twins that experience intense connections in the etheric only, without a physical encounter. The energetic experiences are a lot more intense than for those pairs that have met in the physical. This is often the case for celebrity twins, where the non-celebrity recognizes the partner first. They do all the cleansing and clearing on the energetic level, until they are ready for a first physical encounter to activate the partner to go into their own balancing and cleansing process. These connections are most challenging in terms of trusting the own intution, because the non-celebrity twin is often declared to be completely insane and just hopelessly in love with a famous person.thewakeupexperience.eu/different-types-twin-flame-connections/.

    I only need to clear my energy and prepare myself to meet him in the next life! Which means doing what I’m already doing getting help and healing my past. In some ways this makes me so happy! and others I wish it would have happened earlier, but he still would not be ready. He went through so very much in this life. At least he will have time to heal before I pass on, by then maybe both of us will ready.
     
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    Hi Mary,
    It’s a good thing to clear up your past. But please, do it for yourself. Invest in yourself just because you love yourself. Only when you really love yourself, you’ll be able to really love another.
     
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    Yes, I do agree with you, I actually have been working on parts of it now (physical health) for over a year long before he died. I got real sick and have been working on my digestive issues, then in January had a historectomy and later I needed an appendectomy. Earlier this month I started the bone broth diet to increase the nutrition lost last year when I was so sick. So yes, I’m doing this on my own because I need it now. Just before he died I actually thought I was going to die because I was so sick. The just helped me recover from the grief. I have a counselor to get me through the childhood stuff, so I’m well on my way and very happy now.
     
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    You are not alone. I remember being very small when I told my mother in this life she is not my mother. I further told her I had a twin to which she replied with a laugh. All my life I have missed this twin very deeply. It's as if that twin and I were the same soul. As I Grew a little older I knew I had lived many times before. Of course I tried to talk to my mother about this but she was critical and angry so I just let it go. Of course she sent me to many counselors. None of them apparently knew about past lives. By the counselors I was labeled as highly imaginative; by my mother a liar. I learned to keep my memories a secret. I moved far away from my biological family in this life at the age of 18. Every few years I would go visit my siblings but I've never moved back home in central New York because I don't feel comfortable there with the surroundings nor with the people who thought I was psychotic. It's really wonderful to find there are other people like me who remember. In the few short hours I've been on this board I feel at peace and finally accepted. Thank you all.
     

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