Am sorry for your loss to everyone who have lost a loved one. My son passed away now going to 3 years since then I have had a baby boy he's now 1yr old. The day I saw my son dead in the hospital I was broken and all I could think about was that "is this how people just die, why did this happen to me, why is his body still warm and other things"? We went home from the hospital thoughts were just rolling in my head. I finally fell asleep for just five minutes and I had a dream where there is a woman who carried a baby the child's eyes was so bright and his skin was shinning black and I was in a train and they were waiting at the platform and the child was just gazing at me while my train was going and I woke up. At the funeral day people I was not allowed to go to the ceremony as it is in our tradition and a phone call came in saying that they are about to put him in the grave and that we should say a prayer for him. As we where praying I felt an heavy wind went passed me and I almost drop down. Not long (like maybe 2 mnths) my husband said we should get parent that he thinks our son will come back. Soon we started, we hard the first miscarriage that was almost 8weeks old. The next miscarriage went as soon as the test was positive and the pregnancy with my son now was conceived while I was still spotting from the second miscarriage. All these while before the miscarriages and during the miscarriages I was dreaming that myself and my son climbing stairs to a top storey building, another one is that my son that passed and the rest of my children were waiting a lift and when the lift came I told them to wait that I just want to pick up something upstairs and when I got in the lift I was lifted up from my feet as in the lift was so fast and I was scared. As soon as I have the pregnancy with my son now all the dreams about my son that passed have stopped. My thought is that my son now looks so much like my son that passed and I am still very sad about my son that passed. I am looking for signs if that is him that come back to me because I don't see any signs concerning this.