Holocaust PL--effects?

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  1. Tourmaline

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    Hi, I'm Tourmaline. I've been reading this forum for a while, but have avoided posting until now for fear it would open up a can of worms that I try to keep at least half-way shut. But I want to share with others with similar possible PLs, so here goes.


    From infancy/toddlerhood, I had a severe phobia of dogs and trains despite never having a bad experience with either. When I was two I had never seen a train, but my parents tell me I screamed if one came on TV and when they bought me a toy train. (Soon hidden safely away, after many tears.) It would be interesting to know what my thoughts were, but of course I don't remember.


    Neighbors knew to lock up their dogs when I came over to play. They thought a dog had bitten me, but it wasn't true. I was just scared of them. I was scared of a lot of things. I had terrible separation anxiety. My earliest memories are stomachaches, panic attacks, thinking I couldn't breathe. (18 months-3yrs.)


    I had what I believe to be a past-life flashback when I was nine. I lost touch with reality and entered a "deportation scene." Train station, people in 1940s clothes, fear, chaos. I did not per say know about the Holocaust, so I did not connect it with that or the train phobia.


    When i was 11 we studied the Holocaust in school. I was so terrified of learning about "it" that I had nightmares every night and went to school trembling. My feeling was a lot of fear but also shame, like I couldn't bear for my classmates to find out the "shameful" things that had happened to me/us.


    From that time on I was obsessed. 24/7, awake, asleep, that time in history seemed more real than my current life. If it makes sense to any of you I kind of --age 30--feel like I am seeing my current life through the gray lens of the past.


    For a few years I have entertained the idea of this being a past life. I have an open mind but also some skepticism. Not too interested in doing a regression or in-depth research right now. I am getting in contact, on my own, with my past life holocaust self (I'm sure you know what I mean) and just trying to tell her she is safe and good and loved. I believe she/I internalized the anti-semitic messages of the time. I am hoping this will help with severe depression, anxiety, numbness.


    I don't know if I had a holocaust PL or am just an anxious person. I am wondering how Holocaust past lives have affected people's current lives, and what it feels like to heal that.
     
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  2. Isha

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    Hi Tourmaline.


    I am also new here, and have recently started a thread about my Holocaust PL memories and the healing from it here .


    I was told there are several members on this forum with PL memories of the Holocaust too. Have you done a search on the topic here on the forum?


    I'm glad you posted, that in itself is a start to possible healing!
     
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    Hi Tourmaline,


    Welcome to the forum.


    Sounds like a past life memory to me. It's far more common than most people think. From what you say I would tend to agree that these feelings relate to a past life.

     
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    You hit the nail on the head! That's exactly how it feels!
     
  5. Tourmaline

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    A belated thank you for your replies, Isha and Tanguerra. Isha, I read your powerful story. Triggers--yes Tanguerra. That is exactly what it is, and there are a million. I am connecting seemingly meaningless fears and quirks to things that happened then--and I realize I am afraid of something in the past, not now, and am not crazy. So helpful.
     
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    Not crazy at all. Perfectly understandable.

    The more you do some work on it, the more sense it will start to make. You don't have to relive it all or anything like that. You're fine. You're safe. But just being aware of what is happening is the first step to putting it in some kind of perspective.


    Start keeping a journal if you have not already. Keep us posted on anything else that comes up or anything at all you want to share.
     
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    There are things you describe that are very familiar and are similar to what others describe in relation to having past life memories. Mainly your reaction to the subject as well as the interest in learning more about what happened. I can relate a lot to saying you view your current life through the lens of the past. I hope you find peace.
     
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    Thank you Tanguerra, Isha, ZeonChar. So it's been about a month since I made the decision to treat myself as someone suffering past life trauma rather than someone who was crazy/bad. To accept my memories as real. I decided to stop beating myself up for my emotions and fears related to that life. The results have been sudden and astounding. Accepting this has been a relief. I am actually feeling things like relaxation, happiness and peace for the first time in my adult life. I am starting to feel like I am in THIS lifetime. Most people I know have commented on the change in me. Of course the work is ongoing--but I see I am on the right path.
     
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    That's wonderful to hear! It's a huge step to be able to realise that' date=' accept it, and treat yourself as someone who [i']has been[/i] traumatized in a PL, which you were! I also can completely relate to the previous feeling of being bad/crazy/something "wrong" with you. That's a horrible feeling and so difficult when it impacts your current life. And such a relief(!) to be able to shed that negative self talk for something that wasn't your fault, and to now be able to treat yourself with understanding and kindness.
    And this says A LOT! You are definitely on the right path. The fact that you feel relief, relaxation, happiness and peace for the first time just confirms that you're correct about the trauma/negativity stemming from a PL. And the fact that other people are noticing the change in you further proves that you are indeed on the right path. Much peace to you as you continue on in THIS life, without the baggage from the the PL! hug2.gif
     
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    hug2.gifIsha. So wonderful to hear the kind words of someones who understands.
     
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    You've made a big positive change, and I just want to tell you how great it is!!! :)
     
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    The word Holocaust is " a sacrifice completely consumed by fire, a burnt offering." The Hebrew is "Shoah". Do you recall what year in the 1940's it was? It didn't really start to get very bad until late 1942 until early 1945, but from 1940 to middle 1942 it was controllable but not in the fashion they had hoped. This maybe confronting but a lot of those images you recall happened at the larger camps such as Auschwitz-Birkenau, Dachau, Sashenhausen and another I cannot recall the name. Could it be possible that this relates to one of the these? Also when researching this please don't use modern media as it dramatises and exaggerates the Holocaust. Instead search for Yad Vashem Museum's website and also the United States Holocaust Memorial Museum's video collection. Some will be confronting but it may/will give you the true answers you need.


    There is a thread I posted today about my journey with the Jewish Final Solution and the Holocaust just search for 'I loved a Nazi' ( I can't work out how to post links yet) I myself am still struggling to comprehend my past life around this time too. Not as a victim as but as a spouse/girlfriend. Let me know how you get on :)


    Eva x
     
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    It is important to remember that Holocaust victims were not the only one who were sent by train to camps. But it was also happening in Soviet Union for example and for much longer. Just saying it, maybe it will turn out helpful to someone :)


    But I must say Tourmaline, that I am very very happy for you! I am glad that you finally feel relaxation and happiness! I hope that when time is right, you will find all the answers you seek and most importantly, peace. And that this past you will finally get deserved rest :)
     
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  16. Tourmaline

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    It's been a little over two months...still feeling better at times, but one interesting thing is that along with the new positive emotions, I have started to have severe anxiety. Sometimes it seems to be triggered by PL things, sometimes I am not sure. Now anxiety is nothing new for me, as I have said, but I wonder if once I accepted that past life trauma was affecting me, now more explicit memories are wanting to come through and that is causing anxiety.


    I'm thinking about writing my whole story, but of course it is very personal and I am kind of shy on public forums. I may write it up just for myself, at least.


    It is funny though...paradoxical...the more I take all this past life stuff seriously the more I feel "in the present."
     
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    HI Tourmaline.. rather coincidental as I have not been on this group for a while and have returned as I am having problems with my holocaust experiences..and this was the first thread I saw ..


    I was like you .. had a flashback to a holocaust life { I saw my body being put into an oven } and from then on was obssessed with reading . all the biographys of survivors I could get my hands on , movies and documentaries.. I belonged to a yahoo group that has not gone quiet specific for people with holocaust past life memories . called Unlocking the Door .


    I am finding a need to get help physically along with doing some regression therapy.. .. I have suffered from chronic fatigue, seizures, crohns , food sensitiivities etc for 40 years and just now getting help through energy work using Heilkunst homeopathy.. It is helping me to get more in touch with my strengths to be able to face my memories and stop triggering .. seeing that those were indeed in my past and i no longer need to worry about those traumas..


    Heilkunst is good in that my practitioner recognises the affects of stress from past lives. If interested I can share more ..


    I am having difficulties with the worst.. I had three lives in the holocaust .. yep three.. dying young I packed in three.. I have had to go and do regression work to my time spent between lives .. called the bardo .. This regression work has given me alot more insight into how my feelings have evolved and helped me to release some of the triggering. I had one regression done by a professional , then due to financial limits have done self regression since..


    It can be difficult to take it all seriously but glad you have chosen to as it does make our life easier and yes feel more in the present..
     
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    Sometimes when people begin to acknowledge their past lives, understand what has happened in the past and bring up all those old feelings it can be unsettling at first. That's normal, and that's OK. I strongly recommend you start your own journal and write it all down for your eyes only. You can share just the bits you want to share here, or talk about things that are bothering you and get some reassurance and advice from some of the lovely people here.


    Sometimes, especially when you first start you will get a 'flood' of memories coming through. Don't be afraid, it doesn't mean this is your life now. It usually stops after a while. Again, writing it down is very helpful and can stop you going over and over it in your mind.


    You will most likely find that it will settle down after a while and you will just not worry about it so much. Like with most emotional things, bottling it up usually makes it worse.
     
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    Hi Tourmaline and everybody.


    I’m new in this site and English is not my first language, sorry for the mistakes.


    Tourmaline, I can relate to most things you told on this thread.


    I also want to share with others with similar possible PLs, as you said above.


    I've had quite a few problems with anxiety and depression during my current life. Three years ago I started having memories of a life in WWII and an extermination camp where” I” died.


    This agrees with other signs throughout my life, for example since I was small I was very concerned about issues such as war, death, torture, prisons, although fortunately I had no contact with any of those things in my childhood. And when I was a teenager, I was obsessed with the Holocaust. I can’t remember exactly when it started but for several years I've been reading books and watching movies and documentaries about Jews, about WWII and the Holocaust. They actually made me feel terrible sometimes, but it was like I couldn’t help it. The issue of concentration camps always gave me an emotional storm, but at the same time I needed know more, it was like I was looking for something very important for me.


    For the last three years I have been researching about reincarnation and trying to get more memories and more data about my former self. I’m a woman in her fifties now but in these memories I am a young man about 22.


    I know that talking about these things is not easy at all, share what you are ready and want to share… but I think talking is often very good to integrate those emotions gradually and understand yourself better. If you can express yourself, you are already getting rid of a burden, in some measure, and also it serves to organize your thoughts and gather feedback from others. All this has been a great help to me.


    I think that remembering such a past-lives experiences gives us the chance to process and overcome traumatic events we lived. We could not do it then and as a consequence, now we have both the problem and the opportunity to finally transcend it.


    I think this is a long distance race, but step by step we get closer to be more complete persons, stronger and freer.
     
  20. Tourmaline

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    Well, it has been a hellish year. My levels of depression and anxiety have caused me a lot of impairment and suffering. No therapy or medication works. I have trouble sleeping. I am not blaming this all on past life issues, who knows where mental illness comes from, but it does seem to be a factor. I am scared to do a past life regression, although I guess, how could I feel worse?

    I think of that time constantly.

    Two things triggered the past life survivor inside me--holocaust art that I was making, and the current political situation.
    I don't know if it works that way for other people, but I connect to my past life personality, her memories, fears, opinions, likes. My life goes okay when I love her, comfort her, believe her. It falls apart when I don't. But I am afraid to believe myself, to take this as reality, despite evidence.

    I have started writing, as many suggested. I hope that helps.
     

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