Hi, I am new here and I would like to tell my story. I am originally from India and I was abroad in UK for some years. During this period, during a daydream, I saw a child, a handsome young boy of maybe 4-5 years. I kept looking at him and suddenly I was so overwhelmed and I began to choke and cry. I had the deepest realization that it was my son. I got up from my bed and started to cry uncontrollably. I was single at that time. I had no idea how to understand this. But that experience transformed my life. Much later I was married but I was not so attached to my wife and later also to my daughter as I really should be. I kept having this withdrawals of missing someone so much every once in a while. I read about past lives in some websites and book... and the book Many Masters, Many Lives by Dr. Brian Weiss was an eye opener. It was only recently though I had a chance to try it on my own. Mainly because the feelings of me missing someone was growing bigger and bigger and I was sobbing every once in a while without anyone seeing me. I met an experienced regression practitioner and went through a couple of sessions. To make the story short, I realized that I was a wealthy artist or a painter. I was a strongly build man... who was tall and handsome and I understood I lived in a snow filled western country. Though I could not see them and I knew had a beautiful wife and son. I could hear their voices but I could not see them initially. After roaming in fog kind visuals that looked like paintings and art, I kept fumbling around unclear memories in my first session. In the second session, the same place became more clear. A beautiful cottage and there was lot of bright flowers in a garden nearby. It looked like a holiday cottage. Snow was falling. I kept eagerly looking for the woman who was hiding from me.... My heart began to beat so loudly. Then she appeared like the moon from out of the clouds. The most beautiful woman I have ever seen in my life.... Her lush hair was black like a raven, her eyes green like jade and never have I ever seen anyone more beautiful anywhere else in this world or any other.... And I knew instantly she was my love and we knew each other so well. That moment was something like an explosion. I began to weep and choke and tears flowed down to my both cheeks like water out of a tap. It was my wife... my true soulmate and I realized instantly that I loved her more than anything in this life. I was blown away. I realized we were so happy and so much deep in love. But then my regressionist began to pull me out of the trance. She later said she was worried about my reactions. But I remember as this happened, my wife held my hands and asked me not to go. I was literally dumbfounded and felt the deep warmth of love... Something I have not felt for a long time... I tried to promise that I will be back. But then I began to descend down a stairs and she kept looking down at me from up with sad eyes. I was speechless... heart broken and numb... In the third session, I could have been in the same life or a different one. I found out that I was in a big fight with an alpha male wolf. It was a vicious fight. I was not sure if I was a human or a wolf myself when I died. One thing I remember was that I was not afraid. When I died, my eyes rolled up and I began remembering my wife and son... And tears began to flow out... It was so real... I was floating out of the body... I could see the wolf - the alpha male that killed me... looking up to me. I was not bothered by it... I knew there was blood around my neck. I was led by the regressionist away from the scene because I was becoming emotional again. She asked me what happened next... As I looked up... a tunnel of light opened above my floating body and I began to flow up. It was tunnel of light (bluish yellow - kind of like light that comes out of a gas oven). I looked at the tunnel and I knew it was light and not fire... and I could see the stars outside... As I flew up... I began to go up and I remember that I entered a room of bright white light. I saw a few beings in wearing bright white shiny clothes ( like sunlight) approaching me. Now, I wish I could have investigated more... But at that moment, what I was feeling was a terrible loss... I was crying and deeply sad about my wife and my child. Nothing else mattered. The practitioner offered me to erase these memories as it was affecting me in this life as well. But I refused. She was and is my true soulmate. I could not do that no matter what. I think I miss her so much beyond anything... And I am detached with my current family to a great level. Since my wife is not much bothered, I am managing somehow. I am seriously confused now. This life has not much meaning to me. And my real life... who I was before... I am not that now. I really wish to be with my soul mate again.