First of all, before I begin, just so everyone reading this knows, I had not the slightest clue where to put this. I didn't want to put this in "Reincarnation Questions" since i'm not actually asking a question here (not one that i want the forum members to answer anyway), and the "Members' Lounge" is too chill for a topic like this. I just wanted to get my feelings out. I've put much of my life on hold until after my transition. Aside from the whole "wrong gender" thing, there's much I don't like about my body. In any case, I feel like i've missed out on a whole lot, and that my youth has been savagely wasted... on basically nothing... and now i'm stuck feeling bitter about the whole thing. I'm stuck now with these feelings of eagerly waiting for my next life to have a shot at everything i've missed out on in this life, to get further in that life at a younger age and do, experience, and see more things than i did in this one. The thing is, I'm used to being young and so the older i get (i turn 27 on Sunday btw) the more angry and bitter i am about life... this life. With the passage of time, i see smaller value of life. At the very least i see no value to this life and have adapted this cavalier attitude about living this one. I just now take things day by day [im]patiently waiting for it to be over and done with, dreading the prospect of being old and gray. I've recently learned that our negativities tend to carry over from one life to another and some people here might concur. Knowing that now (if it's true) just adds to the frustration. Even in trying to do things that make me happy now, there is still the knowing that some of the things i really want in life are unattainable until my next life. But then again i find myself torn in such a way that there are things i want to do, be, have, and experience in this life... sooner than later actually. But even in achieving them i'm still going to live the rest of my life bitter and angry that my life has been wasted.