Hello, Hoping you can all help and shed some light on this for me. When I was 21 I had an abortion. My boyfriend at the time was a real idiot, he had begun to use drugs, the relationship was unhealthy and the pregnancy unplanned. I broke down on finding out and walked straight into a family planning centre - within 1 hour of getting a positive pregnancy test, I had booked my abortion Please understand it was a terrible shock and a dark time. I had a medical termination a few weeks later (drugs not surgery) and the night I took the first drug to end the pregnancy was spent in tears, rubbing my belly and begging this baby to come back to me when I was in a better place and time. Prior to this I never wanted children, I was far too selfish. I wonder if this baby had to come when he did, knowing he wouldn't live, just to teach me some love and compassion?? I knew what I looked like - he was a boy, I knew what his features were like and I knew he had a beautiful, specific hairstyle and colour. I just knew without ever seeing him. Very predictably my awful relationship collapsed and 6 months later I met my now husband. Eight years later I fell pregnant with our first son. While he was in the womb I would tell my husband it was the same baby because I just knew it was (my husband knows about my abortion). My husband doesn't believe in the afterlife and thinks it's crazy talk but I repeated the description of our son over and over and sure enough he was born looking exactly like I said. Our son's hairstyle is VERY specific and not common at all - he has a double crown for a start. My son has never mentioned anything at all about past lives but he is a very old and sensitive soul and extremely clingy with me. He talked in full sentences at 12 months old and wanted proper conversations with me from an early age. I am constantly wondering if I am putting 2 and 2 together and making 5 just to placate my guilt over my abortion. What do you think? Also the old soul thing could just be personality? When our second son was born, our neighbour came to see him and the first thing she said was "Whoa! You've been here before young man..." and I'm sure he has too. I am also frequently told that I am a very old soul and was once stopped by a stranger and told to join his group to discuss this... I am clutching at straws here? I know some people believe souls don't enter a baby that isn't going to be born.