I'm just going to lay it on you all... I think that I was a gay samurai in ancient Japan who was executed for either being gay or treason. There you go. I'm a writer and sometimes it's difficult to discern between past lives and story ideas as both come to me in a rush and without much detail. I also read a lot and sometimes I wonder if the ideas just come from books that I've read. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I don't yet have much confidence in my ability to accurately remember past lives and would just like some validation. A few months ago, I read a book that was set in Feudal Japan. I've been interested in Asian culture for a while (specifically Korea) but I never really knew much about Japanese culture. However, after reading that book, it was as if something clicked. I was immediately obsessed with learning about the culture and some Japanese words used in the story felt familiar to me. I was inspired to start writing a short story that was also set in that time period which is were the story really starts. Now I know that this sounds absolutely insane and, trust me, I have questioned my sanity after this one but... while doing research I heard a female voice speaking what I'm fairly certain was Japanese. It wasn't out loud or in the room but rather in my head. I had an idea of what this woman looked like but didn't know anything beyond that. I kind of forgot about it as life got in the way and such, but me and my friends recently did a session with my pendulum and I asked whether the lady was protecting me to which it said yes. I also asked if I was Japanese in a past life to which it also said yes. Lastly, I asked if she would show/tell me her name and, again, it said yes. The next night, the name Ayuki came to me. Now, I don't speak Japanese nor do I know any Japanese names. I checked the book that I read for that name just in case that's where I got it from but didn't find it. I Googled it and besides confirming that it was a Japanese name, I couldn't find out anything else. I know this is really long already but a few mornings ago I woke up to a sharp pain in my abdomen that wouldn't stop. I thought: "Ok, that's enough of that." and it stopped. Weird, but I'm a young adult and sleep is very important to me so I started to go back to bed. Then, with my eyes half-closed, I thought I saw someone cross my vision. I got the impression that they were a male and wearing a black kimono(?). I opened my eyes, no one was there, and I got up because I was pretty freaked out. Now, the strange part is that I heard the floor creak when they passed which my floor doesn't do. This makes me question whether I was dreaming or not. I don't know if all these experiences and thoughts are a product of my reading that book (which heavily involved samurais) and my overactive imagination or if it was a legitimate past life recall. What do you guys think?