Life of a ww1 soldier, need help

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  1. Jupiter 11

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    Hi everyone,

    I’m new on this forum. I decided to join you because I would like to share my past life experience with you.

    First of all, I apologize in advance for my mistakes in English because I’m still learning the language.

    I was raised in the South of France in an atheist family; I’m currently 22 years old. Since my early childhood, (around 4-5y) I make terrible nightmares about World War I.

    My research and feelings

    Throughout the years, I’ve noticed that those nightmares always come back in a period of emotional stress. For instance, when I am about to enter a new school, passing my exams or starting a summer job. At the beginning, I thought they were just dreams even if I saw that they felt different. But this year, around June/July, the bad dreams became more frequent and violent. I couldn’t stand it anymore, so I searched on the net how to get rid of those. This is how I found that some nightmares are actually past lives memories. I documented myself on Carol Bowman’s work, Ian Stevenson’s, Jim Tucker’s. I decided to give it a chance and be open minded.

    Fighting my atheist beliefs, I went on ww1 and genealogy websites to check if my visions had any historical accuracy. Sceptically, I tried to enter the name I had in mind. The name of the person I was, and…shock! It corresponds to a real person! I managed to download the military ID card of the soldier. The memories I had wrote down on a notebook before searching got validated. At first I thought it was pure hazard. But I know I realize that I wrote too many details for that to happen. My family has no direct past with ww1 and since these nightmares happen since early childhood…I try to find other explanation than reincarnation but I find none, knowing that I’ve never watch TV a lot and didn’t have any internet before the age of 11.

    Summary of my past life

    I took a notebook and wrote down all the details I had in mind: My uniform, numbers of regimental troops, details about weaponry and vehicles, names of people, places, dates…For example I know I died between the end of September and the beginning of October 1915, in a village whose name begins by St, in the Marne. I’m not going to write all the details because it would be way too long but now I find myself with a notebook of pages black with notes.

    Physical description

    Firstly, I have to say that I am a black young woman in this life. So, finding myself in the body of a white young guy (18-25y) was something I wasn’t prepared to. I was about 1m70 or 5’7’’, so pretty tall for a 20th century man. I was blonde haired blue eyed.

    Trenches and battlefield

    A lot of my visions happen in the trenches. I won’t detail them because it’s too violent but each time it’s like if I was brought back there. The mud, the rats, the sound of the artillery, and the unbearable fear of dying at each instant. I see myself killing German soldiers with my rifle while some of my friends fall like flies around me. I remember certain names and I found possible match thanks to the 14-18 historical database of France.

    The military barracks

    For years, I’ve been obsessed with a place that I drew on a paper. I didn’t have any idea of what this place could be before I went on 14-18 websites and watched photos about military barracks. I found the exact area I had in mind: it is the barrack of the of the 117th infantry regiment in Le Mans, France. The soldier who matches my memories belonged to the 117th infantry regiment. I was shook when I discovered it.

    My death

    I am with my regimental troop, with my friends Frédéric and Alphonse. We walk in a ruined and deserted village, whose the name begins by St-; near a church. Suddenly, I hear the sound of a German plane. It’s a monoplane, with a dark cross on it. They found us. Hiding among the ruins, we have to fight the enemy with our rifles. Frédéric got shot before me. I run but it’s too late. I got shot too. I die before my body even touch the ground.

    My family

    I remember my family and I were farmers in the countryside of France, near the mountain.

    The first person I remember is my sister. I still tear up when I think about her. Then, my mother’s name came back naturally to me: “Marie”. My father and brothers came next. Thanks to the military ID cards, I managed to validate the physical descriptions of my brothers.

    Final thoughts and connection with my actual life

    I still cry a lot thinking about all of this. I don’t know what to do now. I didn’t expect my memories to match the life of an actual soldier. It’s like if a part of me was stuck there, in the war, unable to move on. I miss my family, I miss my best friend Frédéric (I managed to find his military ID card too), I miss the village where I used to live. Do you think a visit to this village could help me to let go?

    However, it helped me to understand some things about the person I am today. My resentment towards the military and even France like if they were responsible for the two years of horror I went through.

    Since childhood, I’ve always been a tomboy, preferring weapons (and especially rifles) over dolls.

    And finally, I am going through health problems that manifest as troubles on the digestive system and pain in the upper back, where I got shot in my dreams. I started last year, at 21 years old, the same age of the found soldier when he died. What do you think about it ?


    Plus, the whole thing is even harder when you evolve in a family of atheists. I haven’t tried to talk to them yet. I know they’ll make fun of me because they won’t understand. It is still difficult for me. I’m hanging between moments of belief and scepticism.


    Please, could you tell me how you managed to heal your own past life and let go, because I can’t keep going on like this forever.


    Thank you for having read my story. I hope I didn’t annoy too much. On the opposite, if you’re interested, I am ready to share more specific details about it with you.
     
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  2. Jim78

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    Hi Jupiter 11. Welcome to the forum. I can't offer you advice because I'm still trying to figure things out myself. I incarnated into the same country myself and fought in a war in the same period as you past life ( not WW1 though ). I also get tremendous pain in the area I was most likely shot in my past life. I just wanted to say I can relate to your journey and your families skeptical nature ( mine are Catholic though not Atheist ). There are others on the site who have past lives during that period too. Good luck in your journey.
     
  3. Jupiter 11

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    Thank you for your friendly welcoming, Jim78.
     
  4. KenJ

    KenJ Moderator Staff Member Super Moderator

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    Welcome to the forum Jupiter 11, the memories and research that you've done is impressive, and it is understandable that you would like some help with where you are with all of it. There are several members here, Jim for one, who share some of those traumatic memories.

    I have no idea how to resolve the conflict with your family if it comes to that, just use what you know to be true to help you through any conflict that may arise. Keeping notes in a journal is a very good idea, and perhaps putting them into a word processing program in order to print them out would bring out more detail if you were interested - that works about as well as meditation for me.
     
  5. Kalos

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    Welcome Jupiter11,

    Your story is fascinating. I can relate to how you feel, although I was "lucky" enough to actually "remember" at a much older age than you did. I can't offer much advise as I also struggle with it, but I can tell you that a) you're not crazy :) and b) it can only get better as time goes by. There's quite a few people in here - Jim, who posted above and myself included, who remember violent deaths during wars and worse - dying ain't the worst part of a war. Some of us are also suffering from PL physical wounds as you describe, it's quite a common theme. You're not alone on that if it makes you feel better - and it should.

    As for talking about it, I don't know, you know your family better. Being an atheist is not an obstacle I guess, as reincarnation doesn't demand a "God" as a prerequisite, but like I said you know better. Just be very selective as to who you share it with, although the urge to shout it out will be there. Sometimes it's better to "talk" about it with strangers on the net in a place like this, where at least there's people more willing to listen and accept and offer advice, than with a real life close friend or relative who will just show you the way to the nearest mental institution.
     
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    Welcome to the forum Jupiter 11, thanks for sharing your story. It's quite interesting and regarding your problems, I think you can consult a regression therapist.
     
  7. helz_belz

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    Hello and welcome to the forum @Jupiter 11 thank you for sharing your story. I went through something similar a few years back, starting when I was in my late 20s, remembering the life of a British Great War soldier who I later found on the 1911 census. It was a strange time, filled with every emotion you can think of, but six years later it doesn't effect me too much anymore. I still remember, I still have questions and I still look for answers, I also have some physical old 'war wounds' that bother me from time to time, but it no longer consumes my life, I no longer think about it every minute of every day. For me, healing from that life was a process that I'm still working through, but a big step was accepting that he was me, that I lived that life and a part of him will always be with me. I remember writing down 'I was an artillery officer in the Great War', and it was like something shifted. Getting to that point took a while though, like my brain needed enough evidence that what I remembered was real and not imagination.

    I never told my family any of this, it didn't feel right to tell them, which was hard. However I found online communities like this forum where I could talk with like minded people about my experiences, which was a big help. I've made a few very good friends online, who have experiences of their own, that have been so supportive and understanding. Whenever and whatever you feel happy to share, there'll always be someone here willing to listen.
     
  8. Jupiter 11

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    Thank you all for your answers. They make me feel better. I think I will eventually talk to my mother about all of this. She's the most open minded person of my family.
    As for consulting a regression therapist, I already thought about that too. The thing is, I live in France, where there are not many, and I'm afraid to fall on a charlatan. So, maybe as a last resort.
     
  9. CanSol

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    Hey,
    I too served in WWI, I was a Canadian killed at Vimy Ridge

    My memories started out when I was young too and it still effects me from time to time
    Certain health issues in your current life can stem from a past life, for example I can't handle the smell of even a drop of chlorine without getting sick and have damage on my longs ever since I was a kid and docs don't have an idea how that happened
    Well, I arrived at the front in late 1915 and was killed in 1917, plenty of gas was thrown in that time
     
  10. Jupiter 11

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    Thank you for sharing a comment, CanSol. I remember the glasses and the anti gas compress we had to put on our faces to protect ourselves.
    That was in 1915. Like you, there are certain things which act as a trigger on me, such as loud and sudden noises. In the same way, I've been terrified by planes for years, because I always see a monoplane with a black cross on it in my nightmares. I managed to find it on the net. It is a Fokker eindecker, a German plane launched in the year 1915. The black cross was the symbol of the German army during ww1. When I was a soldier, seeing that cross was like seeing death.

    Do you ever feel angy about the fact that your life have been cut off so quickly and violently ? Because I do.
     
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    No I don't because I'm aware of many of my past lives and getting killed in war is a recurring theme throughout my lives
     
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    Hi, CanSol. I discovered it was a recurring theme throughout my past lives to die young, often at war. I think it can explain why I have a feeling of emergency in my everyday life. A urge to do things as quickly as possible. I have many projects and dreams, but I am afraid to die before I get the chance to fulfill them.

    Have you got this feeling sometimes ?
     
  13. CanSol

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    I do get the wanting to do everything before you die part but not that I'm afraid to die before I've done this or that
    I've done most things I wanted to do anyway and working on the final thing now (moving to the Nijmegen area, also had a live there centuries ago)
     
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    Hi Jupiter,

    Welcome to the forum! As someone pointed out, belief in a deity is not a prerequisite to belief in reincarnation. However, it is the type of thing that materialists will oppose, and I doubt you will find a strict materialist on the board.

    In terms of your issues, some type of post traumatic stress disorder from a past life death is often one of the things that drives people to this board and/or to consider past lives. As you know, having the symptoms of PTSD with no reason in your present life for such symptoms is both hard to explain to others and hard to cope with yourself--until the possibility of a past life death or other trauma is allowed into the picture.

    Also, a therapist does not need to specialize in regression therapy to be helpful to you. But I would certainly look for someone who was open to the possibility of past lives.

    Best of luck,
    Sea and Sky
     
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    I am currently making a list of all the PL regression therapist near my home. Maybe I could give it a try, because I'm coming to a point where I make nightmares almost every night. However, I need to talk about that with my mother first. I can't see myself going through this journey alone, I mean without someone to support me in the everyday life. Morever, my mother and I are pretty close, so she sees that I'm not as happy as usual. The thing is I think about my old family and friends all the time.

    As I said above, my best friend was Frédéric. I remember how we battled together. I have a vision of him helping me to get back on my feet as I fell on the muddy ground in the assault . I remember how we chatted and tried to distracted ourselves in the shelters of the trenches during the moments of calm. I think I met him at the military barracks of the 117th regiment . I didn't know him for a very long time, but he marked my life forever.

    Fort those who have PL memories of war, do you still miss your fighting companions ?
     
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    Cheap and childish as it may sound, I miss my horse the most. Being in the cavalry at that time, it was so much more than a steed. It was a selfless companion at war, the one that would dive head on into action and take you rapidly to the fight without fear, taking 8 out of 10 bullets meant for you as it was such an easy target and the one rescuing you from death when things went bad. We were all pretty sure back then that our horses knew they might die in the fight and still did their best to keep us safe, silly as it may sound now even to me! It was very, very rare for a horse to disobey a command during battle - be it charge straight into incoming cannon fire or jump over a very high fence or across a deep and wide trench. I remember his name and his looks and how we cared for each other, literally. Stupid as it may be, I miss him the most.
     
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    That's not stupid, not to me or probably anyone else that gets it

    I do miss my buddies, one of my non violent memories from WWI is of a few of us playing cardsin the trenches, we kept losing cards in the duckboards so we just drew the lost ones on paper
    I miss my buddies from WWII and Nam just as much but actually met some of my old unit members several times during remembrance events (Normandy, Market Garden) and a few were aware of who I was back then without me saying anything the first few times, sadly those from my WWII company have all past on now as well

    I think we all find something that we miss from past lives that we remember (atleast I got a tanker jacket back......don't ask)
     
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    Kalos, your comment is not childish at all. I really get what you mean. It's even pretty touching.:)
    CanSol, me too, I played cards with my friends in the trenches or I read the newspaper "le Journal des Tranchées" a lot. I find extraordinary that you had the chance to meet some of your old unit members and that they recognized you.
    It may sound ridiculous, but I almost feel like a "veteran" sometimes, when I think about everything I/we went through.
     
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    One common feature of true reincarnation memories is the emotion that goes with them. I too have broken down in tears when a memory touches me, waves of nostalgia sweep over you and suddenly you're back in time as if there is no time. It's spooky to be sure, but wonderful to experience when they break through.
     
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    Thank you very much for this very detail story :)
    Even if I haven't had the same story as yours, I can feel your pain and surprise to realize that the name you had in mind belonged to a real person from the past. I went through that and it took me years to find balance between those memories and my current life. The link between the two lives is still really tight because I do now historical research about it but I can step back and control the emotions for the purpose of the historical facts.

    The question to pay a visit to your ancient place is important. I would say that if you feel you need to go it's probably because you need to go. I had the chance to spent 3 weeks last year to the country I lived previously and visited many places where I lived as a child and adult. I did a lot of symbolic acts to pay a tribute to some person who were important in that previous life and it made a drastic change in my emotional state. There's definitely a big change from before to after I did that trip.
    If you can go, it's a good idea to go and feel the places and how you react to them. There's always a lot of surprising emotions but at the end, when you'll left you will let some burden where they belong and probably won't take them with you when come back home :)

    ps : are you French? I'm French and was born in the North of France :)
     
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