Life of a ww1 soldier, need help

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  1. CanSol

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    Thunderstorms are powerfull triggers from vets with the first cannons to now
    The thunder can sound like the impact of shells while the flashes can resemble the launching of the shells (the latter triggers mostly arty considering infantry kept low lest a shell fell short and therefore most didn't look to see the guns firing, unless they were stupid and often times combined with very green ofcourse....)
     
  2. Jupiter 11

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    Hi everyone, I hope you are doing well. :)

    I came back to school last week so I think my reincarnation research are going to be a little bit suspended for a while.
    I lived an awful day. This semester, I have to follow a seminar about world war I. It was horrible, because we've been exposed to images and paintings. Each time a photo came out, it reactivated flash backs of war and everything i went through. I am to read poems and books about that period. I don't know how I'm going to stand this, as I wanted to cry and run away during the whole course. Hopefully, the seminar only happens one time per week.

    I tried to push back my memories, analyzing the images in an academical way, but I couldn't. The worst of it is that you can't even show your emotion otherwise people are going to think "what's wrong with her/him ?". o_O
    The urge of talking about my past lives has becoming stronger these days. I'm waiting the right opportunity to talk about it with my family.

    I was thinking about something. The year where the majority of my PL memories emerged is the year of the ww1 centenary. At first, I thought it was merely a coincidence but now I take it more like an opportunity for my soul to remember and to heal for good.
     
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  3. CanSol

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    The Vimy centenial was a hard one for me, harder than the average aprils
    I find myself shifting between being in a kind of fog where one of my past wars is always in my mind one way or the other (WWI, WWII, Nam, Afghanistan) and living in the here and now
    At the moment I'm in WWII

    I had to do a paper on WWII every year, everyone wrote about the ETO, I avoided that whole part and focused on the Pacific, neutral territory for me since I served in Europe
    If WWI came up I wrote about Gallipoli, Verdun, in short anywhere relatively far away from the areas where I fought, it was the only middle ground.....either that or walking out of class (yes that happened because I clashed with the teacher who didn't even know anything about the Pacific theatre)

    Perhaps you can find a middle ground and can get through it without coming to blows with your teacher(s) like I did
     
  4. BenjaminFR

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    Hello everyone, hello Jupiter 11,

    Thank you for sharing your story, I find a lot of peace knowing that others, like you, are also remembering these dark moments of our history.

    I thank you for taking the time to describe your experience, and I hope that you are now in peace!

    For those of you who remember a past during either World Wars, do you happen to have memories of what happened on the battlefield once you passed?

    Because I have found a lot of peace in remembering the journey after dying on the Eastern front in 1943, knowing how close the formerly german and russians souls were and how united we were after passing. I do hope that, from these dark memories, you all kind find some peace from this.
     
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  5. Jim78

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    Hi Benjamin.

    I didn't serve in either World Wars ( I don't remember this but I apparently took a payment for pretending I was going to fight in WW1 though ) but its nice to think that the brotherhood between men is extended to all souls when we die. Its gives me comfort yet at the same time points to the futility of war.
     
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  6. Jupiter 11

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    Hi Benjamin,

    Thank you for your nice comment. Sadly no, I don't remember what happened on the battlefield after I died, but it is comforting to know that souls get reunited.

    I've been very surprised by how you easily managed to detach yourself from your previous identity. For now, I cannot. My war memories are too vivid and I struggle every day and night with violent images of death and horror. I keep having new memories of weapons, vehicles, details ,etc...that I retrieve online, print out and class in a file to make order in my mind.

    I also struggle with the guilt of having killed so many soldiers in the most horrific ways possible. I try to tell myself that I am a different person today, but it hardly works. I think it's because I still identify to him a lot, and keep saying "I", when I talk about this soldier. Because he's still a part of me and always will.

    However, I think that someday, I will manage to detach myself from this identity like you did with the Waffen SS officer. It will take time, As I discovered my PL only two months ago.
     
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  7. CanSol

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    Jupiter,
    My first memories were of both World Wars, I too can't detach fully and at this point I no longer seek it, those memories have been with me for as long as I can remember and my WWII knowledge, having been an US Airborne medic, proved literally life saving in Afghanistan

    I don't have the voilent memories day in and day out, no more than my memories from this time round anyway, I can get triggered to a memory but they're not always visual, sometimes it's just a thought like this or that happened at that time, place or whatever (PL memories are the same as your memories of your current life so it's visual, thought, sound)

    I do have times when a certain PL intrudes more in daily life than average but by now I can pretty much tell you like clockwork which life pops up when and just try to deal with it like the rest of my life, the best I can

    I'm aware of traces of various lives but who I am today is a vet of WWI, WWII, Vietnam and Afghanistan
    And like a lot of vets say: "if it weren't for flashbacks, I wouldn't have memories at all"
     
  8. KenJ

    KenJ Moderator Staff Member Super Moderator

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    Jupiter 11, two month's time is not a very long period to complete what you started in my opinion. To reach the point that it was indeed part of another aspect of your soul experiencing physical action/reaction learnings that were important to it's incarnation cycle and that there maybe something still there that is unresolved - and being satisfied in moving on. Take your time, I hope the time comes soon where you find it more fitting to write "The war memories..."rather than "My war memories..."
     
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  9. BenjaminFR

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    Hello!

    I will try to answer all the points you raised, and overall give you a message of hope!

    To give you more perspective, on my side, I have been going through these memories for quite some time, and found his name about a year ago.

    As to how easily I managed to detach myself from this previous identity, I think that:
    1. I have meditated a lot on it, and got to a pretty good understanding of who he was, who I am now, and the relation we have. I understand that these war memories are extremely violent, and to be honest for me too they haven't disappeared, far from it. However, it is now part of a larger experience in my life, because it is not all about the war and the suffering. Whenever I see or feel anything from this past, which still occurs quite regularly, I always put it in perspective, along with the very positive things I have gained from it
    2. I strongly believe that I remembered because of unresolved issues. I don't claim that everyone's case is the same, far from it, but I have a feeling that, on my path, I had to talk to his relatives and just tell them some things. When we were together for the first time (me and his grandson, who's a truely great guy), I told them many things that I didn't know before. It was like I had, inside me, things I wasn't aware of but who were there and were waiting to be said. Once I did "resolve" this, it's like a HUGE load was taken of my back, and it's been lifechanging for me!
    3. Time has passed. Surfing on a positive wave after undergoing this fantastic research, I actually made things in my current life that make me super happy. I am surrounded by people I love, I live an interesting life that is at the opposite of what I remembered from the previous experience, and I don't feel like I have "bad karma" or any punishment associated. Now these sad memories don't drag me down anymore, and it will be the same for you in a not-so-far future.

    Time is your ally, and don't forget to live your life! Every step you take, in the right direction, will lead you further away from this sad past.

    I think it's a blessing, to be honest. We, for reason we do not yet remember, seem to remember a sad end (and imagine how many millions souls went through the same violent end), and we were allowed to do so - I don't think it's random or here to make you suffer more.

    So remember that you received this gift, however hard it is to handle, to make you grow. I am sure it will make your life more rich in teachings, it will make you see a lot of beauty in this world, and in a few months or years, here you will come to tell you story and how it brought you peace.

    You were given this peace, it's right there inside you, buried in memories of blood and death, but it's here. I pray that you will walk the path to finding it!

    And a small note regarding your health: if, like me, in the darkest moments, you forgot to take good care of your body balance, I would suggest to learn more about diet and balance as it has greatly helped me rebuild a very strong morale. Don't forget that, aside from your mind, you have a body that you need to take good care of, it's your vessel in this life, and the more healthy you are in your body, the less you will suffer from anxiety or (like I experienced) depression related to the horror you remember.

    Hope it helped!

    PS: if you live around Paris, I know a very good clinical psychologist who remembers dying in the trenches of WW2. He's a great person, a great therapist and has plenty of experience to lead you towards Peace (he was instrumental in my recovery).

    Benjamin
     
  10. Jim78

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    Hi Benjamin.

    I've been really enjoying your sharing of your experiences. You've been very lucky to find a therapist with past life memories. I gave up going to my old therapist because every time I tried to talk about my guilt and suffering around my pl memories he would look bored and talk about how admirable my past life self was. What I was sharing with him was outside of his realm of experience. It was a waste of time.
     
  11. KenJ

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    Benjamin, thank you for that up-lifting post, I hope that members and guests now and in the future take benefit of your experience and wise words!
     
  12. Jupiter 11

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    Benjamin,

    Thanks a million for having taken the time to write a such long message ! Your words really warmed my heart and you write wonderfully well.

    Indeed, as KenJ mentioned it too, I think I have unresolved issues with this past life. The thing is that I clearly remember having written letters to my family. I promised them that I will come back home but I never did because I died. I already planned to travel to the village where this soldier used to live, and check around if I recognize some places.

    I am on a genealogy website and I think that the tree of the soldier has been made by his brother's descendants. It really touched me to discover that one member of the family survived. There were five children. three brothers out of four died in the war. I was one of them.
    I would lie if I said that I woudn 't like to meet the descendants. But I woudn't know what to say to them anyway. The simple knowledge of knowing that they're outside, living their life, is enough for me. I'm happy with that. Benjamin, I think you've been very brave to contact the family of the soldier and share your story.

    " A healthy mind in a healthy body". I couldn't agree more. I encounter digestive problems which are I think more or less PL related, and indeed, it is very important to watch your diet.

    As for the therapist, No, I don't live near Paris, but in the South of France. I found a list of PL therapists near my home but I still don't know if I will see one. I fear charlatans. Morever, apparently, the revival of the scenes are even more powerful under hypnosis and I don't want to go through that.

    Jim78, your bad experience is what I fear too. Meeting a therapist who will not be able to understand me.

    Cansol, having memories of ww1 is already awful, so I can't imagine having memories of several wars. You have my support.
     
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    Salut!

    It's a pleasure to share with you. I know we're both young, we're both from France where, well... I mean it's the country of René Descartes. We are taught how to sharpen our intellect and fit into a rational perspective at all times. So yeah, when all of a sudden you realize what is happening to you is very serious, it's easy to lose balance.

    As for the therapist, well yes, you need to find someone that is serious. Because from my experience you can meet two kinds of bad therapists:
    -those who are trained therapists but don't give a **** about what you're saying, don't want to acknowledge that you are telling them serious thoughts and images, and just either mislabel you or stop caring.
    -those who take you seriously and/or are believers in reincarnation, but lack training. These guys are the worst. They might not be able to help you handle the experience. I know I had one chaotic regression and it was a nightmare.

    For your research of a therapist, don't give up because:
    - you need to be helped by someone who is trained to do so. It's no easy thing you're seeing, and I understand that you are legitimately scared of diving into it. A relationship with a good therapist will start with an assesment, you will explore what needs to be said before going into hypnosis. And once it's time he/she will walk you through it and make it a learning experience, not a seance of torture (unless your goal is to catalog every round you shot, every body you saw, which I doubt )
    -there are good networks in France, not so hard to find therapists. I would suggest, like I did, to contact the institute founded by Stéphane Allix, a former war reporter who remembered his former identity as a Waffen-SS officer aswell. Search for INREES. They are serious people, for deontology reasons they won't give you a list of names but will help you find a trained therapist (remember that some of them can also use Skype).

    Petit mot en français pour toi: cherche un thérapeute ouvert au transpersonnel. De préférence avec un background de psychologue!

    Benjamin
     
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    One more thing, about what you said:

    You said that you are basically still experiencing the pain of not keeping the promise you made in your letters. Have you wondered about what the people you sent the letters to think of this ?

    Don't get me wrong, but I draw a parallel with my own story: I had those unresolved issues and I did tell you that I told his family some informations, emotions and regrets. And you know, oddly enough, it's not so much the fact of telling them that brought me peace, but more the realization that the last person that kept on carrying that weight was me. They had made peace with it long time ago. I hope it helped them understanding more about him but overall they were already living happy lives, they had carried on. And those who passed, from his family, I am sure they forgave him for not being with with them when they grew old.

    So all I'm saying is: meditate on this. Those unkept promises are a heavy burden to you, but try to ask those people if they've forgiven you. I am sure they already have and are just waiting for you to ackownledge it in your heart and mind. It's called forgiveness and that's what all our journeys in past lives are all about.

    As for contacting his family, well, at first I didn't want to do it. I didn't want to sound like a lunatic and frankly I was just at the beginning of my'historical research.

    But one evening, as I was searching for the structure of the Totenkopf Division during March 1943, I stumbled upon a forum post from his grandson, I think he was asking, on a forum in a super old post (like 8 years old), about details of his relative's death, and gave his email adress.

    And so without thinking I sent him a long email, describing in details what I remembered, how I got to make the connection, among other things. And you know the feeling of doing something at the exact right moment? He responded in 5 minutes. And when he did read it, he was actually with his father, the first son of the identity I remember. It was such an eerie feeling.

    Anyway it seems that the message was well received because they were kind enough to supply me with pictures, and personal memories, and it remains one of the best memories of my life.

    So yeah... I didn't mean to do it but it happened I'm glad it did
     
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  15. Jupiter 11

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    Salut Benjamin !

    Thank you again for your advise. I already knew INREES and indeed, they seem rather serious in their way of approaching those kind of experiences. I'll check if I can find a good therapist.

    You're right, letting go and forgive is very difficult. It's going to be very intense to go to that village, but I need it. To see that no one is waiting for me anymore will help me to move on.
    Yesterday has been a great day because I finally managed to find and download the Military ID card of my best fighting companion. I cried and now I feel so much lightened.

    I still have doubts about contacting the brother's descendant. Anyway, I have all the time to think about it and decide. At least I'm glad it happened well between you and the family.


    Also, it has nothing to do with what I've written above, but even if I know my PL I can't help but being surprised to discover that I have military knowledge, which is ironical since I've criticized everything related to the military my entire life. So, discovering that I've been a soldier was like karma backfired at my face :). At first, I was very embarrased but fortunately it gets better by day.
    I guess it's the old trope "you hate what you are"...
     
  16. CanSol

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    In my case I know that atleast 3 of my PL families hadn't/hasn't fully let go after getting killed in WWI, II and Nam
    I'm related by marriage somewhere to my WWI self and have a relative of my WWII self in a military related FB group and my parents and siblings still have a hard time with me being killed in the Jungle, I discovered that when I was working on IDing my PL and read the messages on a Nam KIA tribute site

    Many families never got over losing someone during WWI, atleast not in Canada
    They moved on but many wrote about how there was a void or something and that the loss is always there, having lost family in Afghanistan it's not much different, some familymembers are still trying to cope with the loss of their son while the other's accepted that their son's gone and move on the best they can

    I was there when one of my cousins was killed and brought him home, for me it's hard but I and they knew that the chance was always there that one or all 3 of us might not come home alive

    In short, some families find ways to deal with it and others can't get passed it, it even differs person to person within a family

    And there's a whole nother matter where we lost a firefighter and none of us really moved on, not even over a decade later, losing him was just to hard for us to handle
     
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    Hello Jupiter 11 ,I am in France at the moment ,and yes it does sound interesting the facts of your story .In many ways good astrology ,
    Vedic ,can get an impression of past lives from the 12th house .I Believe that we are only one sex truly and if we are reborn in another sex it is to
    learn a Lesson which we needed to in the last lives .In other word it is temporary . You say you are 22 yrs .It would be interesting to see if there is anything clear in your chart .
     

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