Life of a ww1 soldier, need help

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  1. Jim78

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    Hi CanSol.

    I've been to a few of my past life locations. I wish you luck.

    My question is what do you do when you can't be a Warrior Soul anymore? I don't fancy taking up knitting.
     
  2. BenjaminFR

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    Hello!

    Ha, the thing with gear. Somehow it always popped into my life. And most of them before I was acutely aware of when and were my memories were from.

    A friend of my dad is a collector of german weaponry (ww2 era), and many times in my youth I went to visit his museum or personal collection. I mean I was touching and operating mg34s, and many other collector weapons, weeell before I turned 14.

    Crazy story: I remember once this collector took us to see a madman in his workshop: the guy was the world-class specialist on the Messerschmitt 109 (an iconic german fighter plane), and was rebuilding one from one retrieved in Lybia. The madman played a trick on me (being like 11 at the time) by opening "by accident" a box containing the skull and officer cap of a Waffen-SS tank commander who died in Normandy in 1944, killed by a Typhoon strafing his tank. The locals buried the remains and, generations after, some poor dude found it while gardening. And I had nightmares about it for weeks.

    Same kind of officer cap that I found one day in a market in China in 2015: imagine, you're walking around shops and suddenly you see a Waffen-SS officer cap in the middle of bootleg dvds and fake Gucci sweaters. It litterally shook me when I saw it. It was so random.

    Last anecdote before I leave Jupiter11's thread alone: the day I told my dad about me finding my past life's identity, he was coming back from a trip and, before I said anything, he gave me the most random gift: a spark plug from an old Junker 52, the most famous transport plane of the German army of WW2. Before I told him anything about my past life experience. I was so surprised by the coincidence.
     
  3. Jim78

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    Hi. I just thought I would mention Peter Jackson's new World War 1 documentary 'They shall not grow old'. I believe it is been shown on BBC 1 on November 11th.

    I didn't fight in the Great War but watching small portions of the footage in a way reminds me of the visual aspect of my own pl memories, a magic window into the past. It felt even eerier at times than my memories though ( probably because of the digital tweaking and I wasnt there ) because it felt a little unnatural but its a very impressive feat all the same.

    I just thought I'd mention it for anyone interested. I haven't posted a trailer link because I'm aware how freaky it can be to be abruptly reminded of ones memories.
     
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  4. Jupiter 11

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    Hi !

    Yes, you're totally right Yannovitch. I used to be this soldier and he will always be a part of me.

    Sometimes, like CanSol and others on the forum did, I'm tempted to collect things that belong to the ww1 area. But I resist. I'm afraid that if I start this collection, I will never be able to stop. However, I don't feel the need to visit battlefield locations, just the village I used to live in.

    That being said, I still bought 2 soldiers figurines, a model of plane I saw at that time, and ordered a dog tag. :)

    Benjamin, at first I thought that my memories will slowly fade away, as I saw it happened in many reincarnation cases that Jim Tucker and Carol Bowman studied. But finally I don't think that it will happen to me, as I am an adult, and keep writing everything in a notebook.

    Jim78, I discovered this documentary too. I very much appreciate Peter Jackson's work, but I will not watch it. Maybe someday, but not now, it's too soon.

    I wish you all a nice day !
     
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  5. Whippoorwill

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    I also try to collect objects from my lives. Unfortunately the life I feel closest to was in the 16th Century. I have a tiny coin that I like to hold and carry with me but it's been hard to find much else. I did find a wooden carving from a church a few weeks ago that I hope is from the period and the right country, so that made me happy. I always find great comfort in seeing buildings that are still standing that would have been around at the time, even if they're in a completely different part of the world. Something tangible that makes those lives seem not so distant.

    In terms of visiting past life locations, I'm unable to pinpoint most of mine, despite research. I did visit the Thiepval Memorial in France a few weeks ago, to pay my respects. I'm looking at this from a different perspective to most of the other people on this thread, as I was a civilian during that time, a young girl at home in England and my soldier was lost at the Somme and never came home to me. It was such an odd experience to be over there in France, surrounded by other English people but to feel so completely alone. As I walked around the huge memorial everything felt so recent and so raw to me and I cried, tears rolling down my cheeks. Other people there were paying their respects to lost family members (a couple of generations removed) but, and I'm always quite perceptive of atmospheres and emotions and I don't mean to presume or be disrespectful of the other people who were there, from their conversations and manner the Great War seemed so distant, a wound that had healed, there was sadness (how can there not be!) and respect and regret but not the crippling sorrow I was feeling. I actually realise that I have more to say about this so will probably make my own thread rather than hijack this one!
     
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  6. helz_belz

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    I used to collect WW1 things obsessively when this all started, mostly cap badges and sweetheart brooches, but also postcards and photographs. That feeling had subsided a lot recently, but I still have those mementoes. They won't take me back to the war, but they bring it a little closer.

    I was going to go see that Peter Jackson film at the premier showing the other night, but it was a bit too expensive unfortunately. Glad to hear it's going to be shown on the TV. I've seen the trailer, and it's very triggering, it brings it back to the surface do much. Not sure how I'm going to be able to watch the whole thing, it might be too much all at once. I don't know if anyone saw the BBC docu-drama 'Our World War', but the first episode triggered me so much it took a good while for me to calm down afterwards

    (And welcome back @Whippoorwill ;):D!)
     
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    Ahh, thank you, @helz_belz! The time seemed right for me to return and I've been thinking of you often of late. You actually inspired a little of what I wanted to say about my feelings at the memorial! I'll make that post shortly.
     
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    Ahh thanks :) I've been feeling it again lately myself too. Looking forward to reading your post!
     
  9. Jim78

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    Hi helz_belz.

    Was that the premiere showing with a Peter Jackson Q&A?

    I understand its triggering. A couple of years ago I watched Revolution In Colour. Its was about the Irish revolution. I had to work myself up to watch it and it left me very melancholy but at the same time it reminded me of why I fought. I need reminding of that sometimes. I need to look beyond the brutality of my memories and see the bigger picture. I need to be reminded that they were group efforts, that I'm not solely responsible. My memories are very personal but documentaries give another perspective from a distance. Maybe thats because I haven't been lucky enough to find other reincarnationists who fought the battles I fought. I'm alone in that sense.

    Still though, the footage from the Jackson documentary is a quantum leap ahead of the Irish documentary.
     
  10. Jupiter 11

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    Hello Whippoorwill,

    Please, feel free to create a post and share your memories.

    Also, I wanted to underline the connection between PL memories/reincarnation and synchronicities.
    For instance, Benjamin, I think it's not by random if you were given the gift the day you wanted to reveal you PL identity to your father.

    I was born on May 8th. That day ( but also on November 11th) , in France, there's a special ceremony in front of l'Arc de Triomphe in Paris, during which the flame of the Unknown Soldier's tomb is rekindled. The date also marks the end of ww2.

    I strongly believed that my soul chose to reborn a day of peace.
     
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  11. BenjaminFR

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    Hey Jupiter11!

    That's super interesting, what you said about synchronicities. I've had so many in my process! Especially with dates:
    -my birthday is the 6th of June, D-Day !
    -Eugen Kunstmann was born 9th of November. Since I found his name on his birthday, I find it very interesting because that date is very important in Germany, it's the day the Berlin wall fell, and in 1918 at that date, the empire collapsed.
     
  12. helz_belz

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    Yep, that's the one. The discussion was broadcast live to a lot of cinemas across the country.
     
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  13. tanker

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    Whippoorwill, thank you for that post, and hope you'll make that thread you're talking about. I like the way you differentiate between sadness and regret, and crippling sorrow. That was nicely put into words which I hadn't yet found to describe my own feeling. That, and constant longing, is potentially an interesting subject for many of us, it seems.

    I too would love to have some tangible memento from the war, but I'm suspicious of so many fakes that I wouldn't buy anything unless I knew for sure it was genuine.
    Hi Jupiter, I've only just come across your post, but it gave me reassurance that I'm not alone when I walk alongside my past identity so closely. I too call him 'I' because that's how it feels. I do talk about 'him' in the third person at times, but only for clarity. I certainly can't detach myself, and nor would I want to. Although I struggle with the constant images and reminders of what I've done, I'd rather that than try to put it so much in the past. I knew my past identity decades ago, and he's with me more closely than ever, so it doesn't have to be a matter of time. I think it's personal choice. I loved the life of a soldier - it was my chosen career and not conscription - and I don't want to lose it, nor let it fade. It wasn't the fighting I loved, it was the brotherhood. That was intense.

    The downside is, as you say, that ever-present guilt of having killed so many. In this life I'm a gentle soul and it's my intention never to kill a living creature of any sort. I shall not willingly take a life again. Having said that, the soldier I was, to my recollection, was also a gentle soul by nature, and killed solely because that was the only way to save our country and our brothers. I had no hate for my enemies. They were just doing the same as I was. I felt no satisfaction after killing.

    I hope your own answer becomes clear as time goes on. I believe we have a choice.
    Good for you! Wear your uniform with pride. You earned it.
     
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  14. BenjaminFR

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    Jupiter11, I was thinking about you this morning, and I hope that you are doing well!

    I remember that you were going through a lot of tough emotions last time we exchanged. I pray regularly that you, and others, will be supported and cared for in this hard journey to the past.

    How is everything? I wish you lots of success in your studies :)
     
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    Hi Benjamin,

    Thank you very much for your message, I hope you're doing great. A lot of things happened since the last time we talked.

    A major flood stoke the South of France, and many houses of my village, including mine, have been touched. My mother and I lost everything in the first floor and in the garage. No more home appliance, the piano I cared so much about is dead. For several days, we had to eat to the town hall of the village, and received friend's help for food and water. Fortunately, we managed to save the computer.

    We're cuttenrly waiting for the experts to come and note the damage. There's a lot of help in the neighborhood because we all have been struck by the same disaster.
    One extraordinary thing happened...people I had never seen in my life came into my house to help me and my mother cleaning and throwing away everything that couldn't been saved. That was surreal ! It really gave me hope and showed me that despite everything we can see on tv, there's still good and humanity in this world. :)

    Concerning the PL memories...I'm still in the process of accepting what happened. I decided to reveal to my mother my PL identity this week. I have to admit, I fear the moment. She's already disturbed because of what happened with the flood, I don't like the idea of adding an emotional charge. But I have to do it. Wish me luck.;)


    Hello tanker, nice to meet you.

    Glad to see that my messages brought you some relief. It's always important to know that we are not alone in those kind of experiences. I really wondered what I would have become if I hadn't discovered this forum. I think we can all be grateful for Mrs carol Bowman and her work.

    And I agree with what you said at the end of your message. I too, think we have a choice on the path of our lives.
     
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    Jupiter11, thank you for your reply. I also see what a bad time you've been having with the flood. I'm so sorry you and your family have lost so much, and I hope you'll soon get some sort of order back into your life. It's very sad about your piano. Sentimental things are the most precious, as they can't be replaced. But I hope you get a new piano that you will care about when it's become a part of your life. It's always noticeable that people seem to pull together after disasters like this, and you now have many new friends to care about you. As you say, there really is a lot of good in the world, even if we're not seeing it always.

    I do wish you luck when you tell your mother about your past. I hope she will accept it and that it will bring you more peace. I was never able to tell my parents, as I knew they would never accept it, so I was silent for many years and told no-one during that time.

    Please let us know how you get on, and all the best with getting your house back again.
     
  17. Jupiter 11

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    Hi tanker, thanks for your support.

    I told my mother about my past life today, and it happened incredibly well. She listened to me from the beginning to the end. She believed me and was very supportive. We watched together the file i've created and I showed her pictures and photos related to my memories.

    She promised me that we will visit the village of my past life, next year. I feel incredibly relieved now. I'm happy I finally found the courage to reveal to my mother this part of my past. :)

    I wish you all to find such person in your lives.
     
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    Jupiter, that's wonderful news. Thanks for sharing it, and I'm so glad you had a happy outcome. I wish I'd had a mother like yours, and I wish I'd had the courage to tell her my story. I've wasted so many years in silence. I think you did the right thing.

    That will be an incredible experience, visiting your past life village. Will there be people you can talk to there? I hope you'll tell us about it when you do that.
    Meanwhile, I wish you well with sorting out your house. I hope you'll get another piano. A new start, in many ways. All the best.
     
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    Hi tanker,

    Thank you for this nice message.

    I made some research on the village and it seemed it hasn't changed that much since all that time. I hope I will be able to spot my old house.
    It is even possible that some of the descendants of the people I knew are still there. Going to the archives of the town hall would be interesting too. I'll see, but I think it's going to be a very intense journey.
     
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    Well done, Jupiter. That's great to think you'll recognise things when you get there. I hope you find your old house! Even better if there are living relatives. You'll have a lot to take in when you go. Is it far away, your village? Can you go a few times? I hope that all this excitement has given you and your mother something good to think of after your difficult time with the flood.
     

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