Hi tanker, Some people need to travel across the world to visit their pl locations, in my case, it's not that far, but I have still 5 hours of driving before getting there. My mother and I already planned the trip for the next summer. As I already said, it is a big relieve to have my mother knowing about my past life, even if she can't understand everything. I mean, she urges me to let go my former self, as if I could do it in a snap of fingers. It's not that easy. Of course I have to live my actual life, the present is a gift as we say, but at the same time the soldier will always be a part of me, because he's a part of my soul. It's not that I especially want to keep the soldier with me; the thing is that my former self saw things at war that cannot be easily forgotten. I don't think I will ever describe to my mother the gory details of war. Last night again, I made nightmares about it. And the programs that pass on tv due to the Remembrance Day don't help. We talk a lot about ww1 in class. I don't know if you feel that too, but sometimes I'm nearly jealous of other people' carelessness. They don't have any pl memories so they can talk about war and remained unaffected whereas I'm going to be upset by the subject. On the other hand, having those memories help me in some way with the flood. My mother and neighbours are devastated because of this disaster, but on my side, I think that it's really nothing compared to what I lived during the war. As long as you're alive and safe, it's ok.