I have been reading Dr. Michael Newton's books and a few other books (mostly Japanese authors) on reincarnation. I also took my first PL regression session the other day. I am wondering if any of you have an idea of what it would be like to be "merged" with the Creator (or the Source, or Divinity) as our final goal when we finish incarnating on the Earth, take many more lessons as souls and are finally enlightened enough. Dr. Newton's books and many others refer to this concept, but does this mean that the identity of every one of us gets melded into something bigger and we will lose our self-consciousness? If so, why do we ever want to be merged with the Creator, losing all the identity and our own experiences? Or if we are enlightened enough, will we be willing to give up all those individual part of ourselves for a higher cause? And after we get "merged", what would we do - do we just act passively as part of the Creator like a reactive cell in a body, or are we given our own "jobs" to contribute to the cosmos, just like the time when we are not merged yet? Does anyone has an idea? Any books or references on this issue? I may sound strange, but as an ordinary human being (and a young soul I believe), I would not want to take fast steps in learning if our ultimate goal involved losing unique identity in each of us; in that case I would prefer keeping reincarnated as lives similar to the current one (not the easiest but not super hard either) I heard somewhere of the idea of becoming one with the Creator while keeping one's identity like leaves on a big tree, but I didn't quite get it... Thank you for taking time reading this and your idea will be much appreciated!