Hello, I recently found this forum and decided to share my own experience since I have nowhere else to talk about this. I am from Finland so English isn't my native language, I'm sorry if I made some typos or grammatical errors. I have had past life memories for a long time. In my past life I was a male living in England in the early 1800s and I was from the upper middle class. The thing is, I don't have crystal clear memories; I have some hazy ones and some more clear memories, but I feel the emotions from them deeply. One memory that is more clear is this: I was going to a meeting where I would talk about business on behalf of my father. I met a man at a crowded pub and we sat down after short introductions. The man with who I was having the discussion was young, around my age (~20 yrs) and very charismatic. We talked for a good while, and after we got things clear we started to talk about more personal stuff. We became great friends soon and I remember him to be a good emotional support. Our talk shifted from business to our fathers and I confessed to him that my father was quite abusive and would always hit me if I talked too much or was a disappointment or a burden. He nods empathically and opens his mouth to speak and that's where that memory cuts at every time. I still have the happy memories with my new friend back then though, so it's not all horrible. I have always had a problem with understanding father's love, which is odd since my father in my present life is an amazing parent. I'm also extremely responsible and belong to the youth government and I'm also in the student council. I'm very afraid of not meeting expectations and I become very scared of my parents reaction if I don't succeed as I planned, even though they have made clear that I shouldn't put too high standards and it's perfectly fine if something goes wrong. I obey easily and I have a tendency of being too kind and generous so people often take advantage of me. I have a "friend" who manipulates me constantly yet I find myself unable to do anything but feel empathy and let myself be fooled. It sucks and I'm trying to learn how to stand up for myself more. I'd like to know more about my past life so I could understand everything better but I'm not sure how I can do that. Does anybody know a way?