I think at the time, I was probably looking for comfort in some of the other threads and I never really found it. I think that for people that were driven to obtain their own wealth and influence, they feel quite differently from people that are born into it. I guess that's not true 100% of the time either, I think I was reacting to the fantasy element that so many people have about being rich and famous. My past life is and was the subject of a never ending stream of inaccurate drama filled movies, tv shows and what ever else. I think I felt like I never had any privacy or a good word said about me and people turn up here and all kinds of placed wishing they were princes and didn't have to work and stuff. I think it was hard for me for a long time to separate myself from it. The feeling was honestly like being at your own funeral and seeing all of these negative works and then people thinking they were amazing. I don't know if I'm describing the feeling the right way. But still, I think I find feeling average preferable to being famous. lol.