My true life experiences..

Discussion in 'Past Life Memories' started by Dipanwita Saha, May 5, 2019.

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Is there any possibilities that whatever I am facing from 18 years that is true and I am reincarnate

  1. Yes, it is a true reincarnation

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  2. No, you are imagine everything

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  3. Yes, I am also facing same kind of mysterious things and problems

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  1. Dipanwita Saha

    Dipanwita Saha Active Member

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    Hi,
    I am Dipanwita,
    I am 18 now... I am experiencing lots of mysterious things from when I was born to till now.... after I was born, I remember some moments of my day one what happened in hospital after my birth.. then when I was 2 or 3 years approx, I felt that I don't know who I am, where I came from and what's my real age... I felt that I am much older I am back again in this earth... this is not my real mom and dad... I don't know anybody here.. I miss my real mom dad and loved one, and I am here because want to take revenge from my past life enemy... I have to full fill my motive and this is my second chance... I was to little when I felt it for the first time.

    Then after I became 12 years old.. I had lots of violent and adult flashes and visions.. I can feel that good and bad spirits are around me always and everywhere. I can feel any others spirits also... From that time I received future visions sometimes till now... and I miss someone badly... I don't want to stay here.. I can't adjust in this environment till now... I attempted to do suicide from that time when I was 5 or 6 years old.... but some good spirit stopped me to do this every times I attempted... I don't know how explain it... and some mysterious things is happening till now... My back skin is paining and burning sometime like anybody hit me with a whip... even I can feel heartbeats also in my stomach from many years... like a pregnant woman feels... I feel that my old spirit is struggling with this body of mine... this is not the spirit of this body.... nobody trust me in my home... my mom thinks that i am mentally unstable and I am imagining everything... but it is not possible that somehow I am imagining everything as I say since the Day 1 after my birth... so what is the truth behind it...? Is it all fake or what?


    There is lots more thing I have facing in a mysterious way... and I don't know if is it a blessing or a curse... I don't know how can I remember each and everything from my past life... I miss my love badly... and I want to go back there from where I come from... I want to go back to my mom and dad... after once I fulfill my motive for what reason I take rebirth... but still I don't know my exact motive... but my intuition says, I shall know my motive quickly....
     
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  2. Speedwell

    Speedwell Moderator Staff Member Super Moderator

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    I don't think you are imagining it. What you experience is something real.

    When I was a small child, I used to think it was strange that I was here, at school I looked around and was among a lot of children, humans, people, but I didn't even consider myself to be a child or human too. I didn't know where I'd come from or what I was, but being here, and being a child too seemed quite strange and surprising. At that time I did feel it was some sort of blessing, I felt kind of privileged to be here.

    But - as you say, having memories and ideas of where you were before coming to this present life can be difficult too. Having longings for things of an old life, well sometimes it can be good, for example there might be places, or even similar types of environment which feel good because we can feel at home there. But mostly we can't re-create the past, we must go forwards, make something of this lifetime.

    You spoke of wanting revenge. Each person is different, I had ideas of conflicts or troubles from a past life, which this time around were disruptive, rather than being at peace with others, I had the fires of old resentments burning within and would harm, not necessarily physically, but emotionally, those people around me. But these things can form a never-ending cycle which simply repeats. For me it has been a great relief to have those fires burn out, the resentments and pain drifted away like smoke in the wind. But this has taken many years.

    I hope you too can find peace - though the path may not be easy, I wish you well on your journey.
     
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  3. fireflydancing

    fireflydancing just a fly in the sky Staff Member Super Moderator

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    Very well written, Speedwell! I wish I could give you double likes, haha.

    I can relate to feeling just a soul in the beginning of my life. I think giving birth to my children and raising them, finally pushed me into the female role.

    Although I was aware of reincarnation my whole life, it has only been recently in the past couple of 5 years that I actually started to consciously examine and evaluate my past lifes on a deeper level. And then the emotions come to surface as well. My most recent example from last week (remembering being a girl who was designated to be a human sacrifice in an indian culture in Mesoamerica) brought a lot of intense sadness, depression and hidden anger with it.
    I even had a hunge about the person who I could find at the end of my walk up to the top of the mountain. One of the reasons I broke off my session of self-hypnosis. I didn’t want to see my fear confirmed. To see the one who actually killed me that time. Someone I know in this life very well.
    Forgiveness is the key to loose negative emotions. I use it over and over again after painfull memories. It makes me feel powerful and in control. It’s me who decides to end awful energy bubbles.
    So what did I do? You can’t aproach someone saying: hey, I suspect you to be my killer in a past life. Actually, I am not sure myself. It’s just that several years ago I had seen this person in a memory flash as some sort of Mayan priest (or another neighbour indian culture) wearing a huge ceremonial mask.
    So I aproached this person and at a certain point I asked whether he felt a connection to those ancient cultures. He did. He told me he had always had a more than strong fascination to the rituals and magic of them. And I detest masks, he added without cause. After some chit-chat about this topic, I felt this depressive and intense sadness inside of me breaking up and leaving my body. Ofcourse I wondered if it was just my vivid imagination but I didn’t care. It felt good.
    It had been the implicit confirmation of my feelings during this talk, the implicit confirmation of ‘guild’ that set free the sadness and hidden anger.
    And forgiveness and love.
    (Needles to say that revenge is not an option towards healing your soul)
     
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    Speedwell Moderator Staff Member Super Moderator

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    Thanks. It was written not long after waking, sometimes at that part of the day I'm still in a kind of dreamy state where I can't help but use poetic language. Later in the day I would write differently.
     
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  5. Dipanwita Saha

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    Thank u so much for replying me and wishing me well... I really don't know what to do and can't find my right path till now... but I'm trying hard... again thanks for sharing your experience and fellings...
     
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    Yess... I know that revenge is not an only option... but what I do... sometimes I can't control my sadness, emotions, missing them... that pain of cruel tortures... how can I even forget it... even I can't explain u in words... even I don't know how to do self hypnosis.... this is the only way to know the truth.... and nobody believed me even when I told my mom... she thinks, I'm mentally imbalanced somehow... and psychiatrists gave me medicines of hallucinations and delusions and schizophrenia... which is not right... and there is no parapsychologist in our city.... I don't know how to control anger... I got abused and tortured and molested with cruelty in my past life... and I feel that pain all the time..

    now how can I calm down myself... don't know....
     
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    hi, try white light meditation? (are on you tube), it won't take it away but it will heal you a bit or distract you from it, at least it has worked for me when I was all lost in a past life's emotions and situation. I'm sorry you have had such a difficult time in your past life.
     
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    thank you so much @Li-la... obviously I will try it... and I will inform you how it works for me...
     
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    Hi Dipanwita,

    I wish I could help you but I am far from a trained therapist. Besides, I think in your case it is obligatory to see a trained and qualified reincarnation-therapist in person. Your emotions and pain are still too raw and real. So, please, don't do a self-hypnosis!! You really need personal guidance from a professional.
    I think LiLa gave you the best advice for this moment. Do some healing meditations. I wonder what your religion is because your nickname sounds like coming from India. Maybe you are from a Muslim or a Hindu family. I know in every faith there are possibilities that can help you overcome the spiritual crisis. Perhaps you can find help and peace when you turn to some wise people from your faith or community?

    I saw you read some of my stories but I was luckier than you because my traumatic experiences are mostly blanks in my memory. Grey areas, grey surroundings or, funny enough, sometimes traumatic moments appear as drawings or cartoons.
    I really feel for you that you are stuck with traumatic memories at this young age with no help around. I'll pray for you that this help will come soon to you.
     
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    Yaap... I know but there is no professional reincarnation therapist in our city.... and I belong to a Hindu family.... but here is full of superstitions only... if I will try to tell anybody about it, either they will think I am mentally unstable (like my mom thinks when I told her 2 years back) or they will think there is some problems in my horoscope or it's a ghost problem.... there is full of lower thinking and narrow minded peoples in our community... most of them don't believe in science factor also... That's the fancy of my fate... I tried a lot of meditations from youtube and google in last 4 years and tried very hard to distract myself from this kind of things... these all fails for me everytime... but I will definitely try to do this healing white light meditation as Li-la said.
     
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    I suppose the positive side here is that regardless of the lack of understanding from others, at least you yourself have an idea of what is happening to you, what is behind your situation. That doesn't solve anything of course, but it is, in my opinion, better than being without any explanation.

    Myself, I had difficulties which I could not explain to my family, I didn't know the cause, yet it still caused a rift, a breakdown in relationship with family. My personality and behaviour had changed, as well as feeling distress, and had no way to account for it. (My understanding of the past-life connection came a few years later).

    But still, I would agree that meditation is a useful and beneficial approach. Here the aim isn't particularly to uncover more detail, but instead to calm and heal the situation. It may be something which is helpful over the longer term too, the more meditation is practised, the more easy it becomes to find the best state of mind. But that doesn't necessarily mean it will be the complete answer. It will take time.
     
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    thank u so much @Speedwell... from last 18 years I had no idea what is happening to me... after that I searched in Google and read about Dr. Ian Stevenson's research, blog and symptoms and signs... after I read it, it became more sure to me what is it... but as I said my psychiatrists told me "there is nothing about Reincarnation... we have only one life to live... Reincarnation is all rubbish, there is no meaning of past life and it's sounds too funny..." and he gave me medicine of hallucinations and delusions and schizophrenia which symptoms are too different from my symptoms... after that I also thought that maybe reincarnation is nothing and I am imagining everything... then I started reading again about Reincarnation and research and people's real life reincarnation stories... then I sure myself that it is what I think.. I am right... it is all about my past life...
     
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    fireflydancing just a fly in the sky Staff Member Super Moderator

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    Hi Dipanwita,

    The way you talk, I don't consider you crazy. Is it an option to take some time to find a really good psychologist or psychiatrist? Maybe it takes some more time to find a good one. Perhaps you should carefully ask around and only take a decision if it feels safe and secure and of course with the knowledge that this person considers reincarnation regression as a therapeutic tool. Maybe this person doesn't advertise publicly and it takes more time to find her/him. It also depends on your financial resources of course.

    I am absolutely sure there are people around you that can help, especially if you live in a big city. It will be the art of finding the one you need.

    You already did your first steps in healing by finding the books and information about reincarnation. My intuition tells me that this means you'll be able to walk your path in these matters. You'll find out that you'll be strong enough to handle your problems. Strong doesn't mean that you'll never be swept away from your feet, but it means you'll always be able to get up and become stronger every single time again. Maybe you'll become a reincarnation therapist yourself one day, you never know. It's the path of the Wounded Healer. But that's far away for the moment.

    In your own time and only if you feel comfortable about it, you could consider to write down some of your memories on this forum. That can be therapeutic as well, just a way to get it out of your chest. Do you recognize people from your past lives in your current life? Do you see repeating patterns? Don't answer if it's too hurtful. It's just that these kinds of questions can help you to create some distance and insights by forcing you to look from outside of a situation.

    Btw, I already did my prayer/meditation for you, so I hope it helped you to be found by someone in your surroundings that can actually be of service to you.

    Wishing you the best,

    firefly
     
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    It is difficult to find a mainstream doctor or psychiatrist who will really understand these things - they are educated to believe that everything is made of electrons and protons, atoms, molecules. But how can an electron feel pain, or a proton feel joy? There is so much missing in ordinary science that unless you are lucky, chances are the psychiatrist tries to fit everything into the world of atoms and molecules, and consequently hands out chemical pills as an answer. Not only that, but they are unable to really listen and pay attention to the patient, as you said, they are just thinking "rubbish" when they should be listening and learning.

    Well, that was the reason why I never discussed these things with a professional. But still, there will probably be someone who can help, it is a matter of finding them.
     
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    Thank u so much @fireflydancing for actually you are listening and trying to understand my problems and giving me solutions.... actually it is a big city where I live... and there is many more psychiatrist or psychologist... but one of those psychiatrist who practice about reincarnation regression therapy, called Parapsychologist... and there is no Parapsychologist. In our city there is a big list of psychiatrists with limited education and science... they never ever think that Reincarnation also can happen.... this is the big problem...

    And I don't recognize anybody but I suspect my best friend from my past life... she told me some of her dreams can relate to my past life.... I always see these visions and new other visions in repeating patterns till now and my headache goes to the worst level then.... I also received Future Visions sometimes... and that's come true always.... I don't know how it is possible... don't know any explanation behind it... like which day my uncle died.... before that day, previous night I had seen that picture in my Future Vision how he sat on a chair and he is gonna die.... and next day before I went out for school, I saw my uncle sat on that chair in the same position as I saw in my vision last night... and then when I came home from school... I saw my uncle is Died.
    It can happen any times and it comes true always.
     
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    Exactly @Speedwell there is much more than ordinary science... but professionals are limited in ordinary science... they just know how to give medicines in which particular disease... but reincarnation is not a disease... there is no explanations in lot of theory in our science... and there is no evidence... but still Dr. Ian Stevenson's research proved Reincarnation... but ordinary science don't want to trust his evidence... like my psychiatrist doctor said.
     
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    @Dipanwita I also have some premonitions, not always clear what they mean, sometimes kind of symbolic. Not long ago I had a dream, when I woke up I thought I had less than one year to live. It sounded crazy, I'm not ill or anything. Then soon after I heard from my sister that her husband is diagnosed with some illness and is expected not to survive longer than a year. It seemed I picked up the information but wasn't sure who it was about.

    Other times I have visits from the deceased, such as older relatives and also close friends who have passed on, they come to me in dreams. Sometimes they don't bring any message, but those are very different to ordinary dreams, very real. Some people appear just once, it seems to confirm that they are ok, others at significant times, one occasion my uncle died, but it was my father who came in the dream. He did not speak but reached out and we shook hands, very firmly, very real.

    I think there are some people who are much more open and receptive to these experiences, I don't know why, it isn't simply a matter of belief, some people are made differently, the same as the fact that they can recall past life when many people do not.

    I'm sorry, this isn't really helping with your situation, but I just wanted to say, you sound rational and clear-headed, not deluded or crazy. You do need to keep a trust in yourself. Of course we all make mistakes from time to time, but sometimes all we can do is trust our instincts.
     
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    yes, thanks for motivating me @Speedwell
    I am one of those who always try to keep head clear with no grudges and think logically everytime... but in this situation my logic is not working anymore... cause I believe in science but science has no clear or valid definition or explaination about Reincarnation and some special abilities...

    I want to trust myself... but I can't... and I was curious and frustrated to get my all answers... I want somebody who assured my symptoms and give my all answers what is actual happening to me... when I see this forum... I can't hold myself... and I post my all experiences in this thread... I want to talk with somebody who is like me... who is facing these kind of problems and can also give me my clear answer what is it...
     
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    Hi, I've heard that if you have this problem or gift or both, however one should now look at it, that it is more difficult during childhood but especially teenage years when you are more open and all the changes is going on in the body and mind as well so maybe it will be better in time ? Isn't there anyone around you, relatives (who are dead even) that have been more open and had more psychic abilities ? Maybe you have inherit it or at least part of it ? I've heard there are those who do treatments, meditations via Skype and what have you, using the computer so you don't actually have to be in the office. Maybe you could look for that instead if there is no one in your city ? I think even if your family does not understand what is going on here that they love you and wants the best for you so if therapy focusing on reincarnation will work for you I don't see why anyone would be opposed to it; as long as you get to a better place within. You sound very vulnerable at this stage, maybe praying will help, to protect you more ? I hope you will feel better soon.
     
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    Hey @Jaimie
    It is true... there is no one in my family who is interested in my problems... they even doesn't want to listen me... in my family there is no one single person who have or had this kind of abilities in past or present... they all lead their life very simply... and they are all superstitious and believe in all kind of superstitions... I am the one who think rationally and talk logically.. in my whole family and relatives too there is not an one single person who have faith in it and me as well... so it is very very difficult situation for me to handle everything alone...
    I don't want to tell my city name here... if I said and you searched on Google, you could see that there is no Parapsychologist in my city... seriously I am not lying...

    Sorry, if I said anything wrong with no grudges
     
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    yes @KenJ I know what is Schizophrenia... but Schizophrenia is also relate to present life stress in most of the cases... and hallucination and delusion also can cause of stress, anxiety, acute depression, that's why here any psychiatrist doctor don't believe in past life cases... and they also told my mom that it is all because of my stress and imagination... there is no truth... and they said reincarnation is not science..
     
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    it is true that most psychologists and psychiatrists do not acknowledge reincarnation as their certification can be revoked. The links I provided were to explain that schizophrenia has been linked to shamanism.
     
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    Ok... thanks for sharing this link... I have no idea about shamanism... but now I want to know what is it.... I will surely read it... thanks @KenJ
     
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    It shouldn't matter. A good therapist doesn't use his or her own convictions in the treatment. Well, at least that's the rule where I come from. There are also reincarnation therapists who will not deny or validate past lives but they only use regression therapy as a tool. Their goal is to heal you (r soul) and they don't care whether reincarnation is science-based or general accepted believe. Sometimes they are skeptical themselves, but really good reincarnation therapists.
     
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    yaap... you are luckier than me as well... you got your good therapist.... but now I am gonna trying hard to find a good therapist.... I hope I'll get my luck soon...
     
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    fireflydancing just a fly in the sky Staff Member Super Moderator

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    Yes, I am lucky. Funny thing is that at least four of my friends are/were reincarnation therapists. Pure coincidence. The same way I run into shamans all the time in my free time. Pure coincidence. ;)

    I think I live in a good place in time for weary souls to live a quiet life and do their soul retrievals before they move on to next level (whatever that may be). I live in The Netherlands and in my experience, there is an awful lot of conscious souls taking advantage of this opportunity in space-time.
     
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    @fireflydancing you are truly lucky... you got all the opportunities u need to calm down your soul... you are in peace that is mostly important thing you have... old souls need peace in time... but anyway I don't know how I get peace to calm down my old soul... don't have any idea about it but I think my soul is too old like more than hundreds of years... is it possible if a soul can reincarnate after more than hundreds of years like after 300-400 years??????
    it's also a big question mark for me...
     
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