Hello everyone I am new here but I think this story might quite fit in, cause basically, I have no idea how to define it and what to do next. I come from an Eastern European country where there are spiritual people but it is a mostly Catholic area and surrounding. I am 28 years old and for now let’s say my name starts with V. Also it very important to now hat Her name is the same as mine (just in a female definition) First some quick facts: 1. I come from a family where there were a lot of fights, unknown origins, secrets, lies psychological manipulation from my mother 2. I was an alcoholic for 8 years (a true alcoholic, couldn't sleep without booze or work) 3. I was always into mystical and spiritual but never took it seriously cause I taught it is just something irrelevant. 4. I am an atheist who believes in things he sees and feels So let’s move on. Everything started with a dream. I was drinking at that time and still haven’t met her, so I didn’t even know she existed before. I didn't care a lot about life, and yes I was an ******* to other people. A true *******. Then one night in (I think) June or July of 2015 I had a dream where I went on a beach and there were a lot of people, but by that I mean, a lot. Those were people I met during my lifetime, and some of them were known to me as I used to have contacts with them, whilst somewhere just bystanders I saw during my lifetime. I was walking through the crowd, having fun etc. when suddenly I was walking on a promenade in a nearby town on the coastline. That town is near the place I lived then and live now. That promenade is near the sea and has a lot of trees. While I was walking, a silhouette of a woman was walking towards me. I couldn't tell who she was or where she came from but I saw the red hair and the eyes. As she approached me (remember this is a dream) I recalled how I meet that woman before in many dreams and much much more but never actually talked to her. I never had a chance to say anything. Then at that moment, I asked her: “Will I ever actually see you?” Then for the first time (I remember the feeling), she replied: “ Maybe..” and I woke up. A few months later I was going into a bar in that city where this promenade is, and geographically saying, that bar is like a few hundred meters above the promenade I meet her in my dream. There was a friend of mine on the bar and at the first moment I saw he was with some girl that caught my eye but I shrugged it off. I went back outside but just couldn’t be still so I went back inside on the bar after a few minutes. They were sitting near the place where the DJ was positioned (ow this DJ had a tattoo on his left arm stretching on his whole inside was an arrow and that was his only visible tattoo). So I approached them told my pal some stuff and went to say hi to that girl he was sitting with (I was a bit drunk but I still remember that moment like yesterday) We gave each other our hands and said our names in the same moment and I was struck with a lighting bolt when I saw the eyes and heard the name. It was the same name as mine. After that, a few seconds later that Dj came over and (as I have many tattoos by myself came to me) showed his tattoo. That tattoo was and the way he was positioned was facing directly towards her. Now fast forward a few months. In the meantime, I and that girl started dating and I was stunned by the number of signs and strange coincidence that occurred (she wasn’t stunned that much but somehow believed). And yes I was a douchebag so she left after a month. Quickly after my life falls apart. I started drinking again, and then on the 3 of December after some heavy drinking during the whole day and night, a voice in my head told me to stop. So I did. After 8 years I got sober in one night. Now, in the meantime, there were more coincidences but I will stick to the important ones and I will explain the past life partly in a few moments. The whole story is important because of the major signs and major coincidences. Before I got sober on the 13 of November 2015 I crashed. I had a breakdown, drunk my *** out and fell apart. If you google it you will see that on that day, that same night were the >terrotis attacks in Paris. (the band Eagles of Death Metal is also important cause in some strange way a unique person came into my life at one moment and told me to listen to that band, I shrugged it off at that time). After I got sober I started to clear my mind and having visions. There were a lot of them, weird dreams which I will not explain cause they are a long story and would take a long time to translate them. During that time I didn’t see her or anything but I felt good and then I started to see Paris everywhere. I mean in the newspaper, ads, internet, people were coming in my life telling me about it (but nothing too much I mean, sometimes it would pass days, but usually when I felt low, suddenly something about Paris appeared in my life) now in my meditation and trips to different cities, I started to have this visions (I didn’t know what regression therapy is at that time) in one of those moments I had a vivid image of an old lounge bar or even maybe a cabaret where I was sitting with this lady in a white and black striped dress with red hair. She had green eyes and was smoking a cigarette. Neither of us talked to each other and there was a lot of smoke. She was sad and so was I, cause I knew I had to leave but I don’t know why. I know she knew. That moment lasted just a few seconds but I felt overwhelmed with it, that memory stung with me until this day. After that, we started slowly dating again, and things were ok, but she couldn't remember or recall that dream of mine. In the meantime, I had a few more visions. 1. I was walking with a lady near a river bank and a bridge was nearby, in the background was (I didn’t see it but felt it) the Eiffel tower 2. I had a vision where I saw the numbers 13579 3. after combing those numbers with some other numbers she had we came to a location in Cameroon where there should be nothing but was some strange structure (I will post the link in a while so everyone can check it, cause I am new here so links are not allowed) after that everything went downward, I had to leave, the signs disappeared, I was a douchebag, she was with me the whole time, but the whole stuff was shrugged off from my side as I got lost and confused, started to use weed too much and 3 weeks ago we broke up. Now during those whole 3 years, I haven’t seen Paris anywhere cause I was an egocentric douchebag after my whole world fell apart and I realized that I lost everything, Paris started to appear again. Quick signs 1. I have a sister with whom I never actually talked before, and in the last three weeks, we had a conversation where I told her everything about me, including Paris. The converstaion lasted 2 hours and she didn’t believe me until a moment where there was something on her TV. She told me to stop talking cause right now (it was a very intense and emotional conversation) at the TV there is some guy talking about food and restaurants in Paris (I work in a restaurant) 2. I live now in a shitty flat that I hate, but at one moment I realize there was a picture on the wall where in small letters was typed Paris 3. newspapers, books, random pages and facing just one word in something was leading me directly to the name Paris. 4. people in my surroundings started wearing clothes or bags etc with the Eiffel Tower and name Paris 5.after typing 13579 in gmaps/Paris map (Streetview) I came straight in front the church of Notre Dame in Paris 6. a day after, I wrote the same numbers and I was before the palace of justice (Streetview/gmaps) in Paris I tried self-hypnosis, youtube videos etc. and still I have no clue what is going on with this whole Paris thing. Now can anybody tell me what to do next? In my area there are no legit therapists, online stuff is simply too expensive and mostly not legit, so anybody any ideas? Is there a possibility I am crazy or a psycho?