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  1. comewithme

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    Hello everyone

    I am new here but I think this story might quite fit in, cause basically, I have no idea how to define it and what to do next.

    I come from an Eastern European country where there are spiritual people but it is a mostly Catholic area and surrounding. I am 28 years old and for now let’s say my name starts with V.

    Also it very important to now hat Her name is the same as mine (just in a female definition)

    First some quick facts:

    1. I come from a family where there were a lot of fights, unknown origins, secrets, lies psychological manipulation from my mother
    2. I was an alcoholic for 8 years (a true alcoholic, couldn't sleep without booze or work)
    3. I was always into mystical and spiritual but never took it seriously cause I taught it is just something irrelevant.
    4. I am an atheist who believes in things he sees and feels

    So let’s move on.

    Everything started with a dream.

    I was drinking at that time and still haven’t met her, so I didn’t even know she existed before. I didn't care a lot about life, and yes I was an ******* to other people. A true *******. Then one night in (I think) June or July of 2015 I had a dream where I went on a beach and there were a lot of people, but by that I mean, a lot. Those were people I met during my lifetime, and some of them were known to me as I used to have contacts with them, whilst somewhere just bystanders I saw during my lifetime. I was walking through the crowd, having fun etc. when suddenly I was walking on a promenade in a nearby town on the coastline. That town is near the place I lived then and live now. That promenade is near the sea and has a lot of trees. While I was walking, a silhouette of a woman was walking towards me. I couldn't tell who she was or where she came from but I saw the red hair and the eyes. As she approached me (remember this is a dream) I recalled how I meet that woman before in many dreams and much much more but never actually talked to her. I never had a chance to say anything. Then at that moment, I asked her:

    “Will I ever actually see you?”

    Then for the first time (I remember the feeling), she replied: “ Maybe..”

    and I woke up.

    A few months later I was going into a bar in that city where this promenade is, and geographically saying, that bar is like a few hundred meters above the promenade I meet her in my dream.

    There was a friend of mine on the bar and at the first moment I saw he was with some girl that caught my eye but I shrugged it off. I went back outside but just couldn’t be still so I went back inside on the bar after a few minutes. They were sitting near the place where the DJ was positioned (ow this DJ had a tattoo on his left arm stretching on his whole inside was an arrow and that was his only visible tattoo).
    So I approached them told my pal some stuff and went to say hi to that girl he was sitting with (I was a bit drunk but I still remember that moment like yesterday)
    We gave each other our hands and said our names in the same moment and I was struck with a lighting bolt when I saw the eyes and heard the name. It was the same name as mine. After that, a few seconds later that Dj came over and (as I have many tattoos by myself came to me) showed his tattoo. That tattoo was and the way he was positioned was facing directly towards her.

    Now fast forward a few months. In the meantime, I and that girl started dating and I was stunned by the number of signs and strange coincidence that occurred (she wasn’t stunned that much but somehow believed). And yes I was a douchebag so she left after a month. Quickly after my life falls apart.

    I started drinking again, and then on the 3 of December after some heavy drinking during the whole day and night, a voice in my head told me to stop. So I did. After 8 years I got sober in one night.

    Now, in the meantime, there were more coincidences but I will stick to the important ones and I will explain the past life partly in a few moments. The whole story is important because of the major signs and major coincidences.

    Before I got sober on the 13 of November 2015 I crashed. I had a breakdown, drunk my *** out and fell apart. If you google it you will see that on that day, that same night were the >terrotis attacks in Paris. (the band Eagles of Death Metal is also important cause in some strange way a unique person came into my life at one moment and told me to listen to that band, I shrugged it off at that time).

    After I got sober I started to clear my mind and having visions.

    There were a lot of them, weird dreams which I will not explain cause they are a long story and would take a long time to translate them.

    During that time I didn’t see her or anything but I felt good and then I started to see Paris everywhere. I mean in the newspaper, ads, internet, people were coming in my life telling me about it (but nothing too much I mean, sometimes it would pass days, but usually when I felt low, suddenly something about Paris appeared in my life)

    now in my meditation and trips to different cities, I started to have this visions (I didn’t know what regression therapy is at that time)

    in one of those moments I had a vivid image of an old lounge bar or even maybe a cabaret where I was sitting with this lady in a white and black striped dress with red hair. She had green eyes and was smoking a cigarette. Neither of us talked to each other and there was a lot of smoke. She was sad and so was I, cause I knew I had to leave but I don’t know why. I know she knew.

    That moment lasted just a few seconds but I felt overwhelmed with it, that memory stung with me until this day.

    After that, we started slowly dating again, and things were ok, but she couldn't remember or recall that dream of mine.

    In the meantime, I had a few more visions.

    1. I was walking with a lady near a river bank and a bridge was nearby, in the background was (I didn’t see it but felt it) the Eiffel tower
    2. I had a vision where I saw the numbers 13579
    3. after combing those numbers with some other numbers she had we came to a location in Cameroon where there should be nothing but was some strange structure (I will post the link in a while so everyone can check it, cause I am new here so links are not allowed)
    after that everything went downward, I had to leave, the signs disappeared, I was a douchebag, she was with me the whole time, but the whole stuff was shrugged off from my side as I got lost and confused, started to use weed too much and 3 weeks ago we broke up.

    Now during those whole 3 years, I haven’t seen Paris anywhere cause I was an egocentric douchebag

    after my whole world fell apart and I realized that I lost everything, Paris started to appear again.

    Quick signs

    1. I have a sister with whom I never actually talked before, and in the last three weeks, we had a conversation where I told her everything about me, including Paris. The converstaion lasted 2 hours and she didn’t believe me until a moment where there was something on her TV. She told me to stop talking cause right now (it was a very intense and emotional conversation) at the TV there is some guy talking about food and restaurants in Paris (I work in a restaurant)
    2. I live now in a shitty flat that I hate, but at one moment I realize there was a picture on the wall where in small letters was typed Paris
    3. newspapers, books, random pages and facing just one word in something was leading me directly to the name Paris.
    4. people in my surroundings started wearing clothes or bags etc with the Eiffel Tower and name Paris
    5.after typing 13579 in gmaps/Paris map (Streetview) I came straight in front the church of Notre Dame in Paris
    6. a day after, I wrote the same numbers and I was before the palace of justice (Streetview/gmaps) in Paris

    I tried self-hypnosis, youtube videos etc. and still I have no clue what is going on with this whole Paris thing.

    Now can anybody tell me what to do next?

    In my area there are no legit therapists, online stuff is simply too expensive and mostly not legit, so anybody any ideas?

    Is there a possibility I am crazy or a psycho?
     
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    You're not crazy. It sounds like your "higher self" (the part of you that brings out the best in you and helps you grow even when life is hard) is trying to get your attention.

    This woman you dreamed of and then met makes you aware of your weaknesses and strengths, if you pay attention. She seems to have helped wake you up on a more intuitive level, which may be the only role she will play in your life. Now is an excellent chance for you to explore the possibilities for good in your life if you're willing to face your dark side honestly and really look at the gifts and skills you may have been ignoring or misusing so far. I'm not talking about psychic gifts (though they may be included) but everyday traits like emotional awareness, social attitudes, and intelligence.

    Often the worst choices we make are misplaced strengths, which can function as the equivalent of using a hammer to polish china. A hammer may be very useful for building a cabinet to protect the china, but it's not useful for the purpose of polishing. For example: The ability to notice small details can come out as a super critical attitude toward other people or it can be used to help prevent accidents by checking machinery before use. The ability to notice other's emotions can be used to manipulate them, inform you to avoid harming them, or even help them notice their feelings so they can make better choices if they'd like.

    When you truly know yourself, you will have a grasp of where a skill is most useful and wanted, and where it tends to cause more problems than they solve. This takes time and life experience, along with the ability to ask questions without expecting to know all the answers. Sometimes your answer will be different than someone else's, just like a mathematician and a poet have completely different answers when you ask them to describe a building.

    I'm not sure what Paris is to you. It might be that there's something you need to do there, and your subconscious is waking you up so you notice the opportunity when it comes. Or, it's possible that your ex girlfriend and you met there in a past life ... or maybe you spent a significant past life there and it has nothing to do with her. Whatever it is, you'll probably eventually come across new insight as long as you allow your intuition, emotion, and logic centers to act as a team. Listen to your intuition (dreams, signs, new information, gut feelings) the watch for evidence (like recognizing someone you've only seen in a dream) and finally consider what you need to learn from all this.

    What you learn may startle you, devastate you, or leave you transformed by the new perspective and insight you've found. Most often it's all three in a rising cycle of growth. The process rarely will look anything like what you expect. Be prepared to discover a future path you didn't even dream was possible.

    Good luck.
     
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    Thank You for your reply, it means a lot to me.

    I have also started to practice daily meditations recently so my view is much clearer now.
    I am thinking (or better said, I have that feeling in my guts) that there is much more with her than I realise (I am not saying this cause of my feelings, I am saying this cause I consider myself a very logical person and need proofs for something to be real and legit, one of these proofs is that we get along only when we are talking about deep stuff, not everyday issues and everyday life, so yes I consider our relationship much much deeper)

    Also, there were more illogical signs recently I can't explain.

    To be honest, I still don't know where I am standing at the moment and what is going in my life. In a week I have a meeting with a legit Tarot Master, so I hope to find out more about everything. Also recently I am seeing or initials and numbers everywhere, which was not the case before.

    (I know I am talking a lot about her, but like I said, I consider myself logical and need proofs, so I turned the emotions off for now)

    But, still, at this moment I can state, it is not the right time for us to do anything on our relationship as I can feel that things are changing.

    ( I forgot to mention that she did a theta healing session where she cut off all relations with me, and I felt it really deep and it really was not a pleasant feeling)

    (and regarding the logical side. When I try to be really really logical everything is falling apart. When I follow the signs she comes back every time (I am talking about Paris), when I nudge them off, she runs away from me and closes her feelings. Recently as I followed those signs she talks to me and everything seems fine. I am a bit confused about that to be honest)
     
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    It's probably best not to pursue a romance if your current relationship only functions when you interact more like mutual seekers of truth. It may be that you are meant to challenge each other in growth. Nobody can speak for the future, but grasping for what is not available will only destabilize you. Can you let go of pursuing romantic love in order to discover a deeper and stronger treasure based on respect, acceptance, and spiritual growth?
     
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    Well that is actually the point I am trying to tell behind the curtain. Romance was never the main thing, it came with spiritual growth as we talked. I was never attracted actually to her (phisically spekaing). the whole relationship thing came after coversations and spiritual growth and deep talks. It came as a plus and worked actually excellent, until I went blank and after I came back to myself, she was already behind her own shadows and curtains and burried to deep. The thing is whatever she has done (and she has done a lot of "bad things" to hereself and me, I always pushed my limits to the maximum, even I was amazed how far I would go just to talk gain to her.

    So I would say, No our relationship was never based on romance, it came after talks, acceptance and spiritual growth and getting to know our inner selfs more better. I even told her, on the physical level we would never make it, but on the spiritual side, it is something much more different.

    It sounds complicated I know...

    And, also I must say this, I am not some guy who would cry out for her if she went with another guy or something like that. I do think it is much deeper.
     
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    i know the whole thing sounds like I am a psychopat or something, and pursuing something that can not lat, but still... on the byside, those coversations were wow...
     
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    That explanation actually helps me understand you better, because I also have had relationships that are entirely based on "enlightenment" without much of the social or more superficial aspects of modern relationships.

    The thing is ... it's always a process, like growing a seed. And there are aspects of your life in which you may be advanced while at the same time having an "unplanted seed" still held in reserve for whatever reason.

    What I mean is ... don't be too hard on yourself if you're in the stage where you're underground and haven't quite pushed up enough growth to find the light in a specific area. You'll naturally reach that stage of growth in time. Or maybe you've already seen some fruit and you're wondering why there isn't anymore right now ... but that, too is a seasonal thing. An apple tree takes a whole year to reach harvest, then falls dormant for the winter. There's nothing wrong with the tree when this happens, and there's nothing wrong with you if you encounter this pattern as well.

    Some of the results you encounter amid those cycles will be based on what you feed your mind, your attitudes and such. If you're in a place of fear you'll actually filter out a lot of useful material that can help you grow. If you over-identify with people, experiences, etc. that aren't actually yours then you end up creating an emotional state the affects you in the same way a season that is too dry or flooded would affect a garden. Or if you expect yourself to be, say, a maple tree when you're actually a willow you'll think you've failed because your branches droop and the leaves are brushing the ground or the wrong shape, etc., when those are actually your strengths and something to encourage.

    So Paris is a seed for you. It's okay to plant it and just wait to see what it becomes. Keep your eyes open for experiences that develop that seed into a whole. It matures with time, and you're not always going to know what the end result will look like from where you are now. Some growth experiences are supposed to be a mystery all the way to the end of the process. If you knew the end from the beginning you'd lose most of the benefits. It's not fun in the middle at times, but it's worth it.

    Basically, please stop calling yourself negative names. Seeing the value in something you've experienced and wanting more of that kind of experience isn't a bad thing. Of course, you may not share it with the specific person you're thinking of in the moment, but that doesn't mean it isn't available somewhere. Thinking the worst of yourself sabotages you, just like calling a child names sabotages them. It's devastating, and it makes it hard to move forward.

    You're not trapped by your current self or your past because you're always growing. If you know you've behaved badly, then figure out why and try to dig down to the roots and replace those beliefs with new patterns of thought and perspectives. That's the whole point of noticing when you've made a mistake, is to learn from it. You don't need to suddenly change, you just need a new habit or two that will allow significant changes over time.

    Someone who wants muscles can't walk into a gym and go lift 500 pounds right away. If they try and injure themselves and then give up, they won't get stronger. But if they learn how to safely lift small things as a routine and eat the right nutrients so their muscles can grow, then they will eventually lift heavier weights with ease. Don't focus on how much you can "lift" now.

    Focus on the habits, attitudes, and social skills that will allow you to increase your capacity for healthy, respectful, insightful, and mature relationships. Meditation is most helpful when you consistently take yourself into tangible life to test the theories and perspectives that come up. While remembering that people will also react very differently to the same things, allow yourself to experiment with a variety of people (from a variety of lifestyles, groups, and perspectives) until you figure out what brings out the best in you and who sees your worth. This really is the most simple path to progress, though it also feels risky because you're not waiting for things to change before you change how you approach life.

    I once told someone that it's useful even if you try standing your bed up against the wall to see if you can sleep vertically, as long as you're experimenting. It's breaking out of your rut and allowing yourself to notice possibilities you normally wouldn't see that gradually opens the way to completely new opportunities and experiences.
     
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    If your crazy then we all are :)
    Have you heard of twin flames? Maybe look that up in regards to the lady you have so much history with. Although as far as I know you don't do particularly bad things to each other. I have a twin flame who lives in my town but we're not together. You have to do a whole heap of healing and love yourself first, I think we will get back together in our next lives. Ive had pretty powerful connections just to soulmates though so she may be a soulmate. Also I have found a past life hypnotist where I live, free consultation and £60 for the session. There will prob be one near you somewhere
     
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    Hi thank you for your reply.

    yeah I have heard about twin flames and that is the thing I am exploring, most of these signs appered when I was unprepared and I do believe in them. Even recently I did a small test, which proved to be true. (More on that in a few days)

    The thing is, she sometimes lives in her own thoughts and doen't see the obvious signs but tries to convince herself in other ones. When she is really really here and sees things, then she notices everything.
    I do believe in twin flames, but I alos believe that twin flames work on a much much deeper level than soulmates. That means much more to me. For me, you can have many soulmates in your life, but just one true twin flame. And the thing is, in my area there are many people who are hoaxso it is difficult to find a real one.

    Thank you all for your support :)
     
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    I must confess that i tried something similliar. Like I said I am very stuborn and always try to look behind the curtain, sometimes my thoughts keep me away from that, but mostly when I am completely focused I can see behind the fog of thoughts. I do believe (altought not proven by now) that this might be my last reincarnation.

    The thing about self-hypnosis showed me the past, and it stunned me, it hit me really hard, and now when I go through all those letters we exchanged and most of the pictures and etc... There were subliminal, unoncious signs everywhere. The things we wrote before (when we were talking on a deeper level, and those conversation are the ones I can not completely remember, just the feeling remains and notes/letters) are all coming together, and making a clear picture. Even the songs, tattoos, many many things come together in one whole story.

    But to come back to reality, I must state once more that I am not some guy who is looking for signs 24/7 cause I am desperate to get her back.

    That is not the case. I have let her go. I am living my life. I am working on myself and getting my life on track back again. I am not pursuing her. Just to make that clear.

    And because of that, those signs, letters, tattoos, notes... make even more sense when I look at them.

    For example, I was going throught notes where there were the coordinates I talked about in the post above, and found things/notes/drawings that then didn't fit in, or didn't made sense. And then it just hit me, how they match perfectly in the present moment.

    Also, I am not pursuing things to get myself crazy, I am living an ordinary life without any expectaions (no thoughts, whenever hope or something arise, I think logical and push it away, but deeply inside me, I do hope she will realise herself and find herself inside those barriers she has build around her, sounds complicated I know, but somehow in a completely illogical sense, it is perfectly logical given the cirumstances and reality)

    I believe in magic and sense and a higher purpose but also think that we have to live an ordinary life to make it in the 3D world.

    (sorry for the bad spelling, and I hope I didn't complicate it too much)

    Reagrding the things you said about trying something out of the ordinary, I do completely agree, and yes I am living my life like that. I go with the flow, and when I do that, realistic realisations come into my mind (Eureka moments), signs can be seen wherever I look and a deep felling of satisfaction arises.

    I hope you understand what I am saying, and again sorry for the bad spelling, if you like I can explain it more in detail.

    P.S. thank You so much for those kind words, I am not thinking I am crazy anymore :)
     
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    I'm glad. You'll figure things out as you go, just like we all do. Good luck!
     
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    a small update and a small question...

    is it possible that Paris signs are a wake up call for spiritual people? cause, recently i discovered more of us..
     
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    Personally, I think a lot of people had past lives in Paris. It's been a cultural symbol for multiple generations at this point, so it's not surprising that it has taken on a mythical quality. And the thing about myths is that they're part of the "greater consciousness" in a way that lesser known symbols are not. There's a reason so many objects are decorated with Paris themes after all. "Paris" sells to people who resonate with the idea of it. So, it's to be expected that there will be plenty of people to whom Paris is the best "key" for their higher selves (subconscious/guides) to use when they want them to pay closer attention.

    There may also be a gathering or some kind of team effort. It can happen. But if that's the case, it's probably something you'd know for yourself without someone telling you about it. Some people may be interested in Paris because their team agreed on it, while others resonate with it for their own reasons.

    Which fits your experience?
     
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    The thing I am trying to point to is this..

    I was talking to a Tarot reader, and I came to her from a guy who practices TM for many years and he was suspecting that I may have something attached on myself. He stated that he believes in her judgement cause he is working with her for many years. Now, she is a very gentle and specific lady and during our conversations I did get a pleasant felling. Now everything happened unexpected and I must state that this woman doesn't know me. Afetr telling her about those signs I have seen, and how Paris comes to me every time I am not expecting it, and ho Ihad those visions etc.. She stated that she also had a similliar dream/ vision a few years back where she experienced a similliar thing ragrding her being in a cafe/lounge in old fashioned Paris.

    Concidence,might be.. but still. two people who doesn'tknow each other are sharing a similiiar dream/vision.

    She stated hoe she feels, Paris might be an awakening call, and that coincidences can occur, but the felling behind them helps us to distingish truth from pure misunderstanding.

    Now the funny fact is, how recently more people who are exploring them selves in my surrondings, have similliar Paris "Wow" occurances and visions.
     

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