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Past life dream - WW2 resistance, female writer, meeting Hitler

floatdownstream

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About 7 years ago, I think I was 21 years old at the time, I had a really vivid dream that I believe was showing me a past life. From time to time I get kind of obsessed over it, and I feel I've got a lot of unanswered questions. Who was I? Why was I shown this previous life in this life? etc. I've undergone past life regression two times with different therapists, none of them really worked... I've meditated for about 7 years, it might have been right after I started I had the dream, but I've never experienced anything specifically related to this dream through that.

I've wanted to be a writer my whole life, but I have a lot of fear about it, for no apparent reason. Maybe it has something to do with what I experienced in this life. I think I maybe contributed to illegal papers, or was a resistance writer of some sort, but I can't tell for sure.

If you have any thoughts or ideas about this, I'll be really grateful.

So let me tell you about it:
The dream was unlike any other I've ever had, not just in terms of "content" but also in that it felt just as real as my daily life. There were tons of details which I remembered clearly, things like furniture and clothing, but can't remember specifically now. Thankfully I think I've got a diary somewhere - I believe I wrote it all down. Anyways, here is what I remember:

First flash:
I was a young woman, inside a house I clearly knew (I can remember how most of it was set up with regards to space and placement of rooms etc.) - maybe it was where I lived - walking back and forth inside, while hastily, almost in a desperate way, writing on paper I held in my hands. I have a feeling someone who "belonged there" was not there when he should have been, but not really sure. Just got a strong feeling there is a he involved in some way.

Second flash:
I'm standing outside what looks like a university building, I think I'm with two other young women, possibly my friends, and other people are around too. It feels like it's been decorated around us for some kind of event. Black cars, the kinds from that era, roll in in front of us, and I remember feeling forced to walk up to one of them. The window rolls down, and there's Hitler literally breathing onto my face. I feel a tremendous anger and nausea inside, I'm disgusted to face him, but I give him the best smile I possibly can. I think I had tremendous doubts about who I could trust, and I remember getting the feeling that the other women I was with were genuinely happy to be there.

Third flash:
Again at the same house as previously. I'm not sure if I'm with somebody or if I'm alone, but I feel there's someone there with me, though I never actually saw this in the dream. We hear a sound we instinctively know to be marching soldiers outside. We peak through the curtains and can see the legs of a big group of them. We're down on the floor, as close to the walls as possible, crawling upwards towards the other end of the house. I remember running outside, through the yard with a cherry or apple tree, there are a lot of other similar houses and yards all around, looks like some kind of suburban, cozy neighborhood. I'm just running and there are other people also running. We get to a dead end with a tree, and I remember pushing someone up in the tree, before I look down on the ground and see it's covered in huge dams of blood.

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Oh, I have no idea if this has any relevance, but just felt like mentioning I have a huge white birth-mark-ish thing shaped in a sort of half-arrow/half-triangle starting just below my breast going down with the narrowest point above my belly button. I'm not positive it is a birthmark, because it first started appearing after I was a certain age (maybe around 11-12, not sure). It's a lot less pigmented than the rest of my skin, so when I get a tan it's much more visible.
 
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Welcome floatdownstream,

Thank you for sharing your experience. I like the way you broke down the experiences into little sections - and described the memories. I am also taken by your emotional response to seeing Hitler face to face. I can see where that kind of life experience would stick with you - maybe for life times. You should write - maybe that is why you are remembering now. You didn't get to do it last life time but your soul needs to this time. The fact that you see the same house in each experience is an indicator of a PL. Have you always had memories or is this something new for you?

Have you tried meditation for PL recall? I like to listen to Tibetan Bells (bowls) with no voices and no instructions. Letting my soul go to where it needs to.
 
Hi Float,

Welcome aboard.

Memories are tricky things, and can come from a variety of sources as well as your own extended memory. However, the scar you have may make it more likely that these are “personal” memories rather than someone else’s “first person” memories. Overall, though, it is very hard to pin something like this down. The source of these memories would have obviously been someone Hitler would have seen up close—I doubt this would have included anyone who was not fairly close in and trusted or associated with a trusted circle of upper-level folks. My best guess would be that you were somehow associated with the plot to assassinate Hitler or were associated with someone involved with that plot. On this, you should check out Wikipedia as a starting point: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/20_July_plot From there you can do further searches and may come up with names/faces that ring a bell.

Bonhoeffer is the person usually associated with this plot; however, it actually involved a lot of very high level Germans. In the aftermath, close to 5000 people were executed. I suspect you were somehow associated with this and were killed while trying to flee. From my initial research, it appears that an exit wound can be triangular, and from what you are describing, I would suspect a pistol round that entered the body from behind and ricocheted upward from an initial impact lower down, skimmed upward underneath the skin and exited finally under the breast. Internal ricochets from bones (pubis? hip girdle?) are not uncommon, but I’m just going by a quick scan of information related to such wounds on the net—I’m definitely not an anatomist, CSI or a forensic specialist. Anyhow, I suspect this would have left the person shot stunned and bleeding very profusely, with unconsciousness possibly following almost immediately after.

In any case, these ideas may provide fodder for further research or allow you to recall other memories. Apparently, around 70,000 German resistance members died during Hitler’s reign. (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/German_resistance_to_Nazism). However, what you are remembering indicates people that are well connected and fairly high up—that should limit the field quite a bit. Even if you find you can discount the possibility mentioned, this should help in limiting the field by eliminating one possibility. Good luck!

Cordially,
S&S
 
Thanks to you both for insightful answers, I really appreciate it.

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Deborah: Thank you! I really hope I "should" write, it's been my dream since I was little, but I'm facing some huge blocks, which I sense may have something to do with this past life.

As for your question if I've always had memories: Do you mean of this life or in general with regards to seemingly PL? I've never had a more vivid and realistic dream since that dream about 7 years ago, nor before or after. I have had two other dreams that I believe had something to do with past life experience, but they were not related to the life I describe here. I haven't had any specific memories, but I've always had a weird pull towards the german language. I haven't studied it or anything, I just kind of have a love/hate relationship with the way it sounds. That's all I can think of.

I've tried past life meditations without success. Thank you for your tip on Tibetan Bells. I tried it as soon as I read what you said, and while it didn't provide me with further answers into it, I realllly, really enjoyed it, and will continue to try it out.

I'm not a very visual person. My intuition generally more based on feelings and energy. I very rarely actually SEE anything when I meditate etc. This is also why this dream was so profound. It was very clear visually. (Well, in dreams I guess I'm much more visual).

Have you had experience with former lives through the meditation forms you recommend?

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SeaAndSky: Thank you so much for your interpretation! Your scar theory is really interesting. - "I would suspect a pistol round that entered the body from behind and ricocheted upward from an initial impact lower down, skimmed upward underneath the skin and exited finally under the breast" This sounds very likely to me and responds to my gut feeling.

And yes, I too feel that most likely it would have to concern a life in resistance at a higher level. Thank you for your suggestions to further research all of this. I've gone through the member lists of the 20 July Plot, White Rose, etc, and looked up all the female names. Haven't yet found anything that matches... Most have died in concentration camps or in prisons, or have lived on further than what seems like a possibilty. Maybe most examples of fleeiing and getting killed aren't that well documented. Or maybe I have to learn german to get further, haha.
 
Hi Floats,

To me it sounds like you were not a direct participant, but were connected to a participant and were shot trying to help someone else escape. As such, you may not come up as a conspirator who was executed, though you may turn up in a record somewhere. Overall, it seems like you were a woman who was worried about a man, and were possibly helping him to hide when they caught up with you. I think you may want to skim the names and/or pictures of males involved and see if anything rings a bell. Based on your account above, maybe it would be best to start with folks having a connection to some type of academic institution.

Cordially,
S&S
 
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