Alex, I wish you all the best in your tough journey, pls remember not to put yourself in the wrong side, it's not a matter of winning physically, but what matters is, think how your soul must escape from such dreadful karma ( again, karma doesnt mean punishment, but a consequence that lead u to dreadful repetitive lessons). Anything that relates to harm, or anything that leads us to feel satisfied if we see others feel suffer like us, or anything that are in such direction, is actually the direction to the darkness, so dont pull yourself down. Hugs for you & be a savior to yourself. Note: U said u dont believe in karma, i think u confuse karma as punishment, karma actually means action & reaction to your consequences. Means if u keep doing & thinking of aggresive attack & do crime in your mind, you will unconsciously repeating such behavior in your mind, the more often u repeat, the more it will become a habit, if such scary mind becomes your habit, you will be eventually manifest it into a real action. The more u feed anger/aggressive, the angrier/ more aggresive u are. So this is the real meaning of karma. As about your aunt, often when we are close to someone, we just believe to each other & even feel that we are in same boat, all of these are part of reaction of our conscious mind. The best thing leave your aunt out, stop talking such things to each other, better talk about good things, be the hero that save relationship between your aunt & your mom. When we are blessed with seeing gift, we should not use it to attack anyone, eventho others might do so, because this way we might lining ourselves to the wrong path & I believe the goal of your life is not to make u into a person who has so much hatred, aggresive even criminal mind. No, no, no, when u feel bad inside u, mean u have picked the wrong path, when u picked the right one, you should feel peaceful & blissful. Maybe u feel good for short time by paying her back, but u will have the need to repeat your harming attitude, pls think carefully, is it your life goal to hurt others back? Is it true that u have to learn to have grudge in others? If u answer with no, pls choose carefully the path u take. May i know, where's daddy?