Misty8723
Senior Registered
My question isn't about suicide itself. I was just over reading that fascinating thread about suicide in the Religion forum and thought I'd put this out there to see what you all think.
My grandmother committed suicide when I was 4 years old. I don't remember her, but I know I was there when she was found. She had some sort of medical problems - unknown diagnosis - but apparently it was keeping her up at night and I think possibly lack of sleep and being in pain and not knowing what was wrong may have clouded her judgment.
Four years later my sister was born. She had medical issues from the day she was born, which continue in one form or another to this day. My mother, sister, and I were all close, but my mother and sister formed a closer bond with each other. My mother always felt that if she left my sister alone, or wasn't with her, something would happen to her. Now that could just be because of all the medical issues and the fact that she left her mother alone and came home to find her dead, but somewhere along the line the thought come to me that my sister was my grandmother reincarnated, and that she was going through so much medical trouble because she had checked out of her last life and not learned how to deal with it. If that's true, then she has learned to deal with it pretty well in this life. She pretty much has a "whatever" attitude about whatever comes along.
Not too long ago we were talking about something and I mentioned that I thought maybe she was our grandmother and she said that she had always thought that too.
Now that other side of the suicide thing, she always said that if anything happened to mom she would kill herself. When mom was ill and dying, I made her promise that she wouldn't kill herself and she promised. Afterward she said she wanted to, but because she had promised, she didn't.
I guess these are just random thoughts from a very tired brain, but I'd love to hear any opinions on whether we might be right thinking that my sister was our grandmother in her prvious life.
My grandmother committed suicide when I was 4 years old. I don't remember her, but I know I was there when she was found. She had some sort of medical problems - unknown diagnosis - but apparently it was keeping her up at night and I think possibly lack of sleep and being in pain and not knowing what was wrong may have clouded her judgment.
Four years later my sister was born. She had medical issues from the day she was born, which continue in one form or another to this day. My mother, sister, and I were all close, but my mother and sister formed a closer bond with each other. My mother always felt that if she left my sister alone, or wasn't with her, something would happen to her. Now that could just be because of all the medical issues and the fact that she left her mother alone and came home to find her dead, but somewhere along the line the thought come to me that my sister was my grandmother reincarnated, and that she was going through so much medical trouble because she had checked out of her last life and not learned how to deal with it. If that's true, then she has learned to deal with it pretty well in this life. She pretty much has a "whatever" attitude about whatever comes along.
Not too long ago we were talking about something and I mentioned that I thought maybe she was our grandmother and she said that she had always thought that too.
Now that other side of the suicide thing, she always said that if anything happened to mom she would kill herself. When mom was ill and dying, I made her promise that she wouldn't kill herself and she promised. Afterward she said she wanted to, but because she had promised, she didn't.
I guess these are just random thoughts from a very tired brain, but I'd love to hear any opinions on whether we might be right thinking that my sister was our grandmother in her prvious life.
