Questions about past lives and "ghosts" (Spirits, earthbound)

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  1. Li-la

    Li-la Senior Member

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    Hi, I would really appreciate some help here...

    Maybe I should start my story from the beginning: In my history I had a ghost that I think was my WW1-husband and later our son, but I thought for sure they had left my house, me and found peace.

    Now my young daughter (who I think has psychic abilities, born this way, it seems) has been away for a few days. Recently she said she missed the "first ghost" which was the WW1-husband because even though he frighten her with his serious looks she thought he kept "the other ghosts" away from her.Always when we went to sleep after I thought the WW1-husband and child had gone away in peace on the other side - there would be heavy male marching steps starting at the same place in the house, then getting up the stairs and stopping somewhere around her door. Then a while back these "soldier-steps" stopped. She had not mentioned ghosts since.

    I have stayed away from meditating and have not had any flashbacks. Until recently.

    Now since my daughter has stayed away I have gotten the same "movie", the same scenes from my life (as Laura) with the WW1-husband back again, but it has a twist to it. I have ignored this. It is not something I deliberately think about.

    The scenes are these :

    1) We had an ugly fight. One that led me to run away in the night and leave him

    2) He visits my relatives where I am at, dressed nicely, and try to convince me to return home to him. He has plans to stop drinking (he was an alcoholic, injured his upper thigh during war, and I think he even killed my boyfriend during war, another story) I refuse. My daughter in this life is my older sister or aunt, related to my mother, and she took me in. (in that life my sister/aunt had psycic abilities and so did her husband who was a priest. She looked at me as if I was good. My mother, however, gave me away to the church and them to raise when I had predicted as a child that there would be a fire in a building and that we should warn the people working there. My mother saw fire as a product from the devil. She feared I had with my mind only set it on fire. She looked upon me as if I was some sort of witch, but I was only a child. As a child growing up I was afraid to be rejected like that again. I lived with this fear so much that I was a hopeless people-pleaser. I would be the same with my WW1-husband.

    3) As I and a male friend go with me to our home where I intended to pick up some of my stuff I see my husband hanging in a three outside our home. It was a shock. Even what had been going on between us, I was devastated

    4) I am as Laura in my new home that I share with my new husband, but he was not home. It is in the late afternoon. I am in the living room. I hear the front door open and shut. I feel it. It is the WW1-husband, but as a ghost. It is not my second husband, that is. I freeze. It is almost as if I can see through the wall that separate the living room from the hallway. I hear the steps. Then I see him - the WW1-husband almost as if he is real. He has the same clothes on that he had years back when he tried to reunite with me. I can't even describe his serious expression. As I stand there I think I am about to faint. It is like he is half ghost and half man. He is too real. He start to walk towards me. He even leaves footprint of dark mud and blood behind him.

    5 ) I am in a future life, as "Anna", an Italian girl in America in the 1950's. I see my husband Vito standing up by our kitchen table. I sit down. As I look up to him I see the WW1-husband but as a ghost behind him. I think it is the pills that I am taking that make me hallucinate so I don't tell my husband anything. I see him several times. He has a bad energy that somehow makes my husband agitated (he does not see him).

    Alright, those are the scenes that seem to replay themselves in my head now and then. Why I don't know.

    Then I had the new strange experience that is this: I am in my own bed, at night, my husband (in this life, I think he was the boyfriend my WW1-husband killed once) is asleep beside me. Someone is lifting me out of bed, but as I am abruptly awaken I see that my body is still in bed and it looks as if I am sleeping. It is the WW1-husband-ghost that is holding me, pretty much like a bride to carry over the threshold. Then I see some white, light yellow fabric falling down, that is attached to me. I realize I have a bride's dress on me that is from the old days. He then communicates to me without using words that they have finished building our new home now. I feel another presence and see that our bedroom door is half open. Out there in the hallway stands the pl-son-ghost. He died when he was very young. He has the clothes on him that he died in, night-wear. Then it was as if the pl-husband ghost got me half across our bed, on our way to the ghost-child but his body, legs went through our bed as if it was air. I said in panic No! several times. Then I woke up. I don't know if this was just a nightmare or if it was a visit from the spirit world.

    My guestions are these:

    1 ) Can a spirit cast scenes/flashbacks in one's head and have them replayed? Or does it has to be me doing this?

    2) Can a spirit force out my soul, spirit out of my own body without my approval? Or can it only be me doing it?

    A thing that frighten me is also this: It happened today at work. Suddenly my handwriting changed. I later "woke up" and saw that I had written things in very old style. I quickly threw it all away before anyone saw it.

    It is like the Laura in me is attached to the WW1-ghost-husband, but I am not. Like I am afraid that she will take over and the current me will forget who I really am now. I am afraid that if I forget he will be able to take me to his world, to his new built home. I think also because Laura's love and my love for the child-ghost is the same. I am a mother in this life too. I know it has no logical reason, but it has a grab on my heart. When ever I have seen this ghost-child is like I will do anything for him. I feel such quilt and love for him.
    I feel quilt and fear towards the WW1-husband but it is Laura's feelings, not mine.

    Anyway, do I have to repeat everything I did last time when they went away? Or could I have just imagined this again? Could this be caused by the "soldier" not watching over us, my daughter in particular, anymore, that we thought it was "safe". Now my daughter has stayed away, and this all has began.

    Should I suppress the Laura in me, somehow, could it be that she is me but is like a ghost in me (not that she is another spirit)? I am afraid that if I let myself become Laura - I will go with him and the child and I might die in the real world or I might not know who I really am now. I know Laura, but Laura does not know of me - her future self.

    Please, give advice on what to do? Please share any of your own stories that could help?

    I am sorry I sound like a crazy person.



    / Li-La
     
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  2. soulfreindly

    soulfreindly Senior Registered

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    I am not discounting your experience as I myself have had my ghostly experiences ..

    With not having a clear sense of your safety I think you have to consider a couple of things >



    DO you share any of this with your husband.. ? That would be very stressful feeling a lone in your experiences.>

    I had several ghostly experiences which spooked me out ... and got help with someone well versed in ghosts... I got help with homeopathic treatment for my health problems and that is settling my PTSD built up from ill health and several experiences I had .. It sounds like the ghosts are not going to do any damage . The story woven has some basis I believe more in the present than in the past .. ie you have and are picking up some secretiveness or such from your husband perhaps . You need to get to developing your core identity so you can tell where things are coming from . This will help you to let the past go and feel secure in your now ..

    You said you are on pills .. What physical problems are they prescribed for ? I know myself I was triggering badly and a lot was due to my poor health .. Something that started as a child with vaccine damage . I did not have enough awareness of it and this weakness set my mind in motion of feeling I was someone vulnerable and weak . Really my body and brain were struggling but I didd not fully recognize it .> I have suffered from so many things the list goes on and on . But suffice to say I have learned that our minds can get stuck in patterns due to not taking time to take care of ourselves properly, by being out of touch with what our bodies are telling us..

    Try and find time to stop and relax and have enough energy left over for ourselves to take care of things. I don't mean meditation but being relaxed so stress does not affect us.. Yoga is a good way . I also highly recommend homeopathic treatment > That is what has saved me ...
     
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  3. Li-la

    Li-la Senior Member

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    Hi & thank you for responding! I thought by now I was just dismissed as crazy, ha ha...About the pills: That was a past life when I was addicted to them. I am sorry I sometimes write in a confusing way. I don't take any pills today. My current husband in my current life does not believe in the after life. He does not believe in the spirit world. When he believes, it is only temporarily as he reacts to the sound of the soldier for instance. Then he dismisses it. So I can't really talk to him about it. I have tried to make him do a You Tube regression meditation, but he just laughed it off. It is only me who has the theory that he could very well have been my past life boyfriend, the one that the WW1-husband-ghost considered that I was having an "affair" with (when it was after the WW1-husband left me, I thought he would divorce me but we were later reconciled).

    I think I have calmed down after starting this thread.

    I think I know what the "nightmare" meant. As Laura the WW1-husband took me as his bride, carried me over the threshold to his home, built on the land he had first intended to share with his first wife (who had died while traveling to this land). Except for the existence of our son I was having bad memories from that place, that house, that land. It felt as it was still his first wife's land, and his. Her shadow was everywhere.

    So maybe the "nightmare" was not about him taking me away forever to his new built home, but a way for him to "clean" the past with best intention.

    Much thanks for all your good advice : )

    /Li-La
     
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  4. Eva1942

    Eva1942 A Walking Enigma..

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    My current husband once said to me one day: “ I’m Spiritual too. Just differently to you”. One of his major lessons in this lifetime is to try to get back into the church’s ‘good books’ after desecrating and burning down a church (Lidice) in his WWII lifetime.

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  5. glia21

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    Li-la, like your husband mine doesn't believe in any of this. I'm not trying to lecture anyone but it's tough to be all alone with such experiences. And it's tough to listen to people casually saying "you only live once... you have only got this one life .. " when you know it's not true. Or hear them laugh at my youngest kid when she tells them she used to be big and used to look after her now older sister . .. :rolleyes:

    Li-la I'm very much interested in your memories/visions - the intensity is amazing. I don't have any good advice except for trying to keep grounded in this current life time and to remember that it is impossible for so called ghosts to hurt you. No need to he afraid.
    :)
     
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    KenJ Assistant Archivist and Moderator Staff Member Super Moderator

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    Like my grandson saying "I agree that YOU believe that" and me then asking that he try to open his mind a bit before moving on to another topic.
     
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  7. Li-la

    Li-la Senior Member

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    Hi! Thank you all!

    I have not had any new "visit" from the pl husband and child...I always feel quilt afterwards. First fear. Then guilt. I don't think I have ever been so afraid of someone that I can tell that my soul (The Laura in me) still has feelings for, all kinds of feelings, it is a weird connection, and I am still as Laura confused if he really shot to death her boyfriend at the time, or not, during war. Then I feel quilt about that too, both to the boyfriend and to the husband.

    I totally get it if it is all the strong emotions that has made the past life husbands spirit or left-over-spirit to linger on after, not knowing how to surface and travel beyond. I think it is definitely one of my strongest fears - to be locked away somewhere, live in isolation out in the country, because that was what we did after the loss of our son, and what my husband view was the loss of my mental stability, which he already was skeptic about before considering me seeing his former wife's spirit on the land, communicating to me.

    I remember that he did crazy things that he must have thought had a good reason (or not...). One time forcing me to a bucket of cold water and grabbing the end of my neck, head, forcing me down, and up and down again. I couldn't breath and each time I got up I gasped for air and tried with my arms, hands to lift myself up from the bucket but he was too strong. I think he thought this was how you "awoken" someone from a state of mind. I don't know if they did it on mental patients then or if this was something he had learned during war to do.

    He did not wish for me to go in town and he cut off people from visiting us after the death of our son. "Funny" thing is, we never ran out of his beloved booze.

    I suppose it is the strong feeling of being trapped in his home with everything that happened and memories everywhere that put me in despair.

    I really should work on how to have more guts when ever he shows up in one form or another, but even if he is only a mind ghost I still have no bravery.

    Maybe he does not wish for me to be frighten of him, if he had he would have projected himself differently I bet. He just have that instant persona about him, only as himself, I am startled and I could experience in life that people, even dogs, were too. You did not mess with him. You just did not mess with him.

    i remember one time when I first sat down in our living room sofa and everything around me looked nice, in order. Cleaned up. I sat there and crocheting. I suppose that this is something that relax a lot of people. I think I thought about that I had no one to do these clothes to anymore. No child. I remember looking up and seeing everything in such order. I had had energy before to have it nice because of our child. I got up. I went over to a dresser of some kind with plates on the wall or what have you. All I really remember is starting to throw things around, rip things, destroy things, focusing on that area, part of the room. Then my husband walked in. I was enraged and sad but the worse of the engagement had passed, but it looked really messy. He at once took off his belt, seeing what I had done. I stopped, stepped backwards from him, sat myself down to the other wall and stared in the nothingness in front of me. I remember that he sat himself down too, opposite me, but only half, ready to get up if needed, still holding the belt, looking at me. I can't remember what he was saying of if he said nothing and was just watching me. He did not hit me with the belt.


    I have to work on this, I just don't know how. It takes surprisingly little time for his feelings or our sons feelings, in that state, to dominate me - I only feel them. I don't feel myself. Me feeling other people's feelings and perspective of things and not having any or think walls myself was a reason why I was such a wanna-be-pleaser, the first was my mother's treatment and demands on me, her rejection that put me beneath everyone else for the rest of my life. I tried to shake it of as an adult but I think I only came half way.

    Sorry for babbling on like this...

    Anyhow, now my daughter is back home and nothing else has happened :)

    Thanks so much for bothering to read all this

    Best Wishes
    Li La
     
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  8. Eva1942

    Eva1942 A Walking Enigma..

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    I hear people say to me: “ I was doing this (whatever the activity was at the time) before you were born”. Sometimes I want to say “Yeah and I was alive during WWII before you were born too” but I bite my tongue. It makes me laugh when people they you only live once and I think.. “if only you knew that this isn’t your first lifetime”..

    I have a friend who is trying to find answers himself after a NDE and he comes to me with soooo many questions. We sat in a coffee shop recently which was in the middle of a small shopping centre. Straight out, I looked around at everyone at said to him: “I guarantee you that 75-80% of people currently walking around have chosen not to be aware of having lived before” he looked at me like :eek: o_O

    Eva x
     

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