I have been with my significant other for 20 years. He and I met in the military on deployment to Saudi Arabia. I was doing laundry at the same time he was and he was trying to talk to me. I was having none of it and was rude but he finally convinced me to talk to him. We found out we were stationed at the same base and lived 2 blocks from one another and knew a lot of the same people and hung out at a lot of the same places. I wasn't really into him because I was seeing a French Air Force guy who I also met in Saudi and we had a very, intense romance. Long story short, the French guy came to see me in the U.S. when I returned. I panicked because it was so intense and things were moving very fast. He was ready to leave everything behind to be with me, to include leaving his wife (who I did not know about in the beginning BTW). He did end up divorcing her but I definitely told him not to and that I did not want to be responsible for that, etc. I ended up ending things with him and a few weeks go by and my now significant other comes back to the U.S. and comes to my office. I was rude to him again, but then a gay male friend called me and asked who the hot guy was who was looking for me. I hadn't thought of him like that until my gay friend said it! After that, we started talking and dating and were exclusive. We dated for 6 mos and got married. We were married for 10 years and started having problems and divorced. But for some reason, every timeI tried to date someone else it would fail. He and I had an on again off again relationship then finally got back together but not married in 2012. sometimes I think this is not the right relationship for me but on the other hand I can't imagine not being with him. I love him but I feel less romantic and more of a friendship. We just aren't "partners" in things. It's crazy. I was married once before and had no problem letting him go, but this one is different. I wonder if we have some major karma to work out.