Hi Folks, I 've not been writing a lot these days, partly due to my super-slow computer (that I've replaced in the meantime) and partly due to work & family. Anyway, I've been reading some threads now and then and since I'm at home today with some spare time and a broken toe I want to ask if any of you has a situation like mine; We´ve discussed it before, but nevertheless, it is bothering me quite a bit right now. I have three Kids, one son and two daughters. Ever since my older daughter was Born I've had a Deep Feeling of familiarity, but with different roles. I remember her being my girlfriend in a not so distant past. I remember I was her boyfriend. To me it is clear as day. She doesn´t believe in reincarnation a bit and of Course I never told her and never will. I`m Aware of this Memory flashes since she was a year old. It is the way she moves, the Expression in her eyes, the behavior (also how much she resists cleaning up her room and such). It is a tender Feeling. After she was Born I was truely happy (and still am) and so very irrationally proud and honored to "have her back" and to be able to spend time with her. But now I´m her mom. Some of you might remember being female is a challenge to me by itself. I´ve decided to try to fit in but still act naturally and I sometimes Forget I´m female at all. It´s still difficult and I´m better of not thinking to deeply About it. The Thing is, I feel like 'm not a mother to her. And I sometimes struggle to act like one and then it feels artificial and not natural. We do get along fine, we do hug each other frquently, but there is Always a bit of mystery between us, this Little something I don´t wish to talk About and that she might sense but ignores. I´m happy About any comment because I feel a Little uneasy About all this.