Hello everyone, I would really appreciate some advice on this one. What should one do if one has gaps from one's pl-death scene? I've tried hard to remember and I've tried regression on my own, but failed at each. Each time I get too emotional, too frighten. Should I just let it rest? The thing is I really want to know what happened. I think it is the only way I can move on. The background is that for most part of my life I have had - in a waked state - flashbacks of being another female from when she was at all kind of ages til her untimely death in the 1970's when she was still quite young. They come in no order and I have no control of it. I found her identity, but I've never dared to contact anyone she knew. I was also raised by atheists and I think people would just think I was crazy and take distance from me. A lot of times I've been cut in two about this myself. Because the flashbacks come in no order it has not been easy to put them in any chronicle order until I finally had so many of them that I could balance it better and see red threads. One scene that I've placed some time before her death is a conversation when her ex husband wanted them to try again. That they were wiser now. That the kids would love it. That he had always loved her. Also that his work did not mean him taking so much time away from the family anymore; which had been one of the main concerns when they had been young and married. I could feel her fear and vulnerability. She said something in the line with "I can't. Not now.". Fear just owned her at the time and he could not reason with her. He was talking about taking "baby steps", which meant taking it carefully forward. Not that he would push her in any way. Then I have a flashback of the ex husband just stopping by to give her a gift, kiss her quickly on the cheek on his way out as a way to say goodbye. When I later looked it up - her last birthday was during the weekend so that could explain why no one was working and why he gave her a gift. So this should have happened quite close in time of her death. Then very close in time she was arguing with her boyfriend, it was in the evening over at her place. From there on there are gaps. Just when I don't want them. The next thing I remember is that I'm outside the body - hoovering about up in the ceiling and on the side. I can't help but wonder if she was killed due to jealousy and/or for wanting out of their relationship. There was never any mention of this throughout the investigation. It was claimed that she and her boyfriend had been happy and in love. I can't get pass a lot of things that surfaced during the investigation. One of the things was that a friend who had seen her earlier claimed she was so nervous before seeing her boyfriend. And the witness to them arguing and several other things. I would really appreciate your help on this one. Thanks in advance.