Tanguerra We Miss You!

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  1. SeaAndSky

    SeaAndSky Senior Registered

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    Well, I don't know any other way to say it than to just to say it. Tanguerra has been a very active force on this board for as long as I have been here, and for a good deal longer than that. I don't know why she has stopped posting, but I want her to know that her presence and wisdom are definitely missed!

    If you're missing Tanguerra, please post something to let her know. I've got no way of knowing whether she is still checking in, but I think she should know if she is.

    S&S
     
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  2. fireflydancing

    fireflydancing just a fly in the sky Staff Member Super Moderator

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    Me too. She was the one to welcome me on the board and gave me the confidence. Like many, I was afraid to sound too crazy.

    Miss you too Tanguerra!
     
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  3. Tinkerman

    Tinkerman Administrator Staff Member Super Moderator

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    She was a beautiful presence here on the forum. And yes we miss her endlessly. I will pass your wishes on to her privately. ~T
     
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  4. Angie Brown

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    I am still a quite recent member so hadn't read so much of what she wrote as those of you who have been here yonks, but from what I have read I liked her and do hope she is well and is only 'taking a rest from the web'.
     
  5. SeaAndSky

    SeaAndSky Senior Registered

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    Hi Angie,

    Tang was/is notable not just for a certain wry humor and well balanced wisdom, but for some very notable threads. Your best introduction would probably be her thread about her multi-life relationship with her friend "X":

    http://reincarnationforum.com/threads/my-friend-x.1438/

    She often linked to videos, summing up both feelings, recollections and philosophies. This was always one of my favorites, as I think it sums up Tang:



    Once again, a presence I miss,

    S&S
     
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  6. Angie Brown

    Angie Brown Senior Registered

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    Thank you, S&S. I shall have a looksee after supper :)
     
  7. tanguerra

    tanguerra Senior Registered

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    Thanks guys. (Hi!)

    The Tman let me know you guys were thinking of me and I am very touched (yes really). I'm fine! I'm still alive (yay). I am in a pretty good space at this time actually.

    Things have been interesting the last year or two. I am still getting over the passing of X (and D of course). It's still all very raw and I am still in repair mode and don't have a lot left over just at the moment. Wont be forever. But I'm good right now. I really am. But there are massive scars and they are still needing a bit more time.

    I retired from work (lucky me) and moved to a house in the countryside with an old friend (my future twin - whole other story... the mysterious 'Wilhelm' (W)... not as easy or fun as it might sound... ) Apart from that I have been focusing my energies forward lately on saving the world (as one does - climate emergency - VERY IMPORTANT ) so I am sorry I have been away.

    I have also (as if that were not enough) 'kind of adopted' the 'son of D' in the last year or so. He has moved to the country with us too and is studying. 'Son of D' was more lost than me over what happened the past few years and was too young to lose his father. I have generally taken him under my wing and been his 'pretend aunty' the past year or so. (He is upstairs pretending to write an essay as we speak. :)) So, that's a good thing and I am keeping two oaths: one to his dad and another to X - if 'anything should happen' - to 'keep an eye on him'. That has been taking up most of my time, along with saving the world....

    I am sorry I have not been around so much lately, but as I explained to the T-Maister. after all the terrible things that happened after D and X died in fairly quick succession someone needed to look after the 'young prince' who could so easily have become a homeless orphan... I am 'Uncle Argyle' in this scenario ... Again, not easy or fun all the time, but that in itself has been something well worth doing.



    The journey continues. I hope to look in more often. Weather permitting.

    Love to you all

    xx

    T
     
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  8. Deborah

    Deborah Executive Director Staff Member

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    So good to hear from you. "D" is blessed to have you and yes...please! Save the world! ;)

    Many Hugs
     
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  9. tanguerra

    tanguerra Senior Registered

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    4am crying my eyes out on a Tuesday!! with the memories!!. But young prince safely snoring away upstairs makes it all worthwhile. Wounds heal. Love is forever.
     
  10. tanguerra

    tanguerra Senior Registered

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    Back from when I could still smell him, even a bit. Lots of healing is still needed. Sorry everyone but this stuff is like emotional kryptonite to me still at the moment when I am trying to have a 'grip' if only for the sake of 'Son of D' and be all grown up and sensible. I am quietly sneeking tonight being a bit emotional behind everyone's back .... Don't worry about me. I will get over it. I always do but anniversaries are hard. Sorry in advance to be so self-indulgent. Three years is not very long (in the scheme of things).

     
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    Son of D./
     
  12. tanguerra

    tanguerra Senior Registered

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    Still enormously upset. Don't worry. When it's all feeling better I will be back again. I always am. It's just that time of the year. Thank you for your indulgence.

    I had this song in my head as I was weeding the garden today, as one does. It doesn't ever go away at least I for one, hope it never does.

    "La Fleur Que Tu M’avais Jetée" French Text
    La fleur que tu m'avais jetée,
    Dans ma prison m'était restée.
    Flétrie et séche, cette fleur
    Gardait toujours sa douce odeur;

    Et pendant des heures entiéres,
    Sur mes yeux, fermant mes paupières,
    De cette odeur je m'enivrais
    Et dans la nuit je te voyais!

    Je me prenais à te maudire,
    À te détester, à me dire :
    Pourquoi faut-il que le destin
    L'ait mise là sur mon chemin?

    Puis je m'accusais de blasphème,
    Et je ne sentais en moi-même,
    Je ne sentais qu'un seul déisr,
    Un seul désir, un seul espoir:
    Te revoir, ô Carmen, ou,
    te revoir!

    Car tu n'avais eu qu'à paraître,
    Qu'a jeter un regard sur moin
    Pour t'emperer de tout mon être,
    Ô ma Carmen!
    Et j'étais une chose à toi
    Carmen, je t'aime!


    "The Flower Song" English Translation
    As with most translations, this is just one of many interpretations of "The Flower Song" in English. If you read more, you will notice subtle differences, though the meaning remains the same.

    The flower that you had thrown me,
    I kept with me in prison.
    Withered and dry, the flower
    Still kept its sweet smell;

    And for hours,
    On my eyes, my eyelids closed,
    I became intoxicated by its fragrance
    And in the night I saw you!

    I began to curse you,
    and hating you, I began to tell myself:
    Why should fate
    put you on my path?

    Then I accused myself of blasphemy,
    And I felt within myself,
    I only felt but one desire,
    One desire, one hope:
    To see you again, Carmen, oh,
    you again!

    For all you needed was to be there,
    to share one glance with you
    To long for you with all my being,
    O my Carmen
    And I was yours
    Carmen, I love you!



     
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  13. tanguerra

    tanguerra Senior Registered

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    I'm still a wreck emotionally and may be another year or so.

    People might think I'm 'kidding' about all this, but I aint.

    Good job at being consoling S&S. It still helps.
    blessings

     
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