I have a strong connection to weapons. I want to hold a M16. I also want to hold a M1 Garand. I feel so at home when I think about it. When I excercise I think of training at boot camp. I have always loved the US Marines and military as a whole, I look up to them in a weird way. I connect with them, I feel so close to them. Now I’m trying to adjust myself to civilian life and it hasn’t worked very well. My life went downhill when I was sent to my father who reminded me of a drill instructor (not at the time). I think my earlier Veteran me he slowly taken over. I feel more confident and hotheaded. I also want to go to war, I don’t Know why.