This is a pretty broad question.. Long story short, I met a woman recently that has re-awakened or reintroduced me to a lot of dormant "abilities" I've had since I was a child. I had a psychic do a reading for me (yes I know.. however, she told me and validated details I already knew about myself / past lives that she wasn't aware of) about this woman and she said that there was so much intense fire and darkness around me, it was hard to see through.
Sometime after the reading I became interested in this aurora of fire and darkness. All of my past (and suspected past) lives have tarot birth cards of death and the emperor. I did some tarot readings about what kind of being or soul energy I am and I got a single card of death. My birthday is the 13th (through multiple lives), death is #13 in the tarot. I asked what my purpose was on the Earth and I got the horned one (using llewellyn's deck from their website), the world and the wheel of fortune, which I interpreted to mean I'm a devil / deamon, who came to Earth to create change. However I don't think that I'm a "devil" in that sense; I think that card was the only person "not of the Earth" card in the deck. You could argue the priestess is, maybe, but I don't think the meaning would have been as obvious.
I decided to switch decks to something that didn't used such obvious Judeo / Christian symbolism and I used the fairy ring deck instead. I asked the same question and I got Samhain (death), the grim reaper (death) and Beltane (festival of fire).
All (or most) of my lives, I've either been a solider or a spiritual leader, a combination warrior priest if you will. Being told I'm death / darkness and fire by a psychic and a two tarot readings I did myself, is really perplexing. I don't really hold to established traditions in terms of good and evil and that sort of thing and obviously, I present a contradiction here.
Is anyone aware of anything in any tradition, idea or way of thinking that fits the description of someone, some being, entity (or plural), energy, soul type representing a warrior, death, fire and good works on earth? So to speak?
The reader said at one point during the reading that in one of my lives I was a foundling and I told her that in all of my lives I've felt like a foundling from the universe. Maybe there is truth in that.
This is line of thinking is new to me and totally different from anything I've experienced so far in my life. I did discover what I had suspected about my life now though.. it's a time out to realign myself with myself and to pretty much enjoy myself, as I've spent so many lives in the service of others, I've forgotten my own true nature.
Shooting in the dark here, but any help would be greatly appreciated.
Sometime after the reading I became interested in this aurora of fire and darkness. All of my past (and suspected past) lives have tarot birth cards of death and the emperor. I did some tarot readings about what kind of being or soul energy I am and I got a single card of death. My birthday is the 13th (through multiple lives), death is #13 in the tarot. I asked what my purpose was on the Earth and I got the horned one (using llewellyn's deck from their website), the world and the wheel of fortune, which I interpreted to mean I'm a devil / deamon, who came to Earth to create change. However I don't think that I'm a "devil" in that sense; I think that card was the only person "not of the Earth" card in the deck. You could argue the priestess is, maybe, but I don't think the meaning would have been as obvious.
I decided to switch decks to something that didn't used such obvious Judeo / Christian symbolism and I used the fairy ring deck instead. I asked the same question and I got Samhain (death), the grim reaper (death) and Beltane (festival of fire).
All (or most) of my lives, I've either been a solider or a spiritual leader, a combination warrior priest if you will. Being told I'm death / darkness and fire by a psychic and a two tarot readings I did myself, is really perplexing. I don't really hold to established traditions in terms of good and evil and that sort of thing and obviously, I present a contradiction here.
Is anyone aware of anything in any tradition, idea or way of thinking that fits the description of someone, some being, entity (or plural), energy, soul type representing a warrior, death, fire and good works on earth? So to speak?
The reader said at one point during the reading that in one of my lives I was a foundling and I told her that in all of my lives I've felt like a foundling from the universe. Maybe there is truth in that.
This is line of thinking is new to me and totally different from anything I've experienced so far in my life. I did discover what I had suspected about my life now though.. it's a time out to realign myself with myself and to pretty much enjoy myself, as I've spent so many lives in the service of others, I've forgotten my own true nature.
Shooting in the dark here, but any help would be greatly appreciated.
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