To use an old-fashioned phrase, I think you are "in travail" like one in childbirth, only you're struggling and suffering through giving birth to yourself, your true self. New birth and rebirth almost always seems to involve a lot of suffering, but I'm hoping the best for you, especially that you can keep your eyes on the prize and not give up.
Hey i just read a few of your posts.. I'm a female.. Did plr and found myself transgender.. But after i did 5 sessions.. I understood why i was and beleive my.. My problems though not ended.. But still in happy.. Found happiness in many other things.. But not what i really wanted
I even saw i had committed suicide in one life and yes my problems have grown only.. And i think i have taken over from that life
Nothing in science that I know of, though it is a much used sci fi trope. There are also hints of this in the world of magic. But, it could all be nothing but blather and nonsense. My recall was that this kind of thing was a bit like a switch-off during astral travel, but its been a while. Perhaps it could be consensual and not evil (i.e., an exchange rather than an eviction). FTM switch with MTF?