teacup
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I have not posted of any pl dreams in awhile on here. Life got busy But actually, this one odd dream I had after I did a regression probably a year ago, and I never took the time to share.
I fell asleep sitting upright in my bed in my work clothes, I just dozed off for a cat nap I guess, and I was sitting at nighttime in the rain, completely drunk, disgustingly dirty, with a long beard, and old ratty dirty clothes in a beautiful garden entrance to a home. I was that man, I was between 50-60 and I remember feeling overwhelmed with bitterness and cynicism. I was angry, highly resentful, and just negative as anything! (in this life I suffer from anger and frustration issues and also can be a little witty sarcastic and cynical,). This old man was a much worse version of the anger I feel today, but I was able to directly connect and identify with that feeling as one that was MY OWN but heightened, which was how I know it was me. I had nothing to lose, and was standing staring at this beautiful large brick estate and well kept hedge and thinking, "F*** these people. So these are the people who did this to me, I might as well go in there and kill them." But I was not even close to capable of that. However, I looked in my left hand and I had a gun with a very distinctive barrel. Also I knew* it was 1888. Although I felt so bitter, I knew I wasn't going to kill them and I had brought the gun just to mope and feel sorry for myself.
I would like to know if anyone knows of this place or where these type of buildings are from b/c I believe this IS a past-life memory for 2 reasons. The anger thing was so specifically what I have struggled with now but magnified, also (I hate to seem this ignorant) but I wasn't really aware of when guns were made and upon waking up I thought, what a weird dream they didn't even have guns in 1888! lol. However, when I googled gun 1888 I saw the same style gun in my dream. So perhaps this was a pl memory. At the age of 3, my parents took me to a children's psychologist because they noticed I had an unusual amount of anger and frustration with everything around me, life in general and they didn't know how to handle me.
Now for some help if you guys can : the garden was more of a very well kept hedge entrance, circular hedge very very high and regal, with a fountain in the middle and some cement benches lining the inside. It had an entrance and an exit that cut the circle in half, and standing in the circle peering up towards the back exit part, you see the large brick mansion .It had pointy ceilings, and what seemed like many panes in the windows, some built like the kinds in the churches, but not with different colors. I knew it to be a family that lived there?? and they just did something that realllly made me hate them. (sorry if this description sucks and this message is long, i would just like to know if there was anything specific this house reminds anyone of? I haven't seen anything close to it, just a painting in museum d'orsay in paris france that had a house kind of like it in the background, stopped me dead in my tracks.I took a photo, I am going to try to post it now)
Oh noo! I can't find it. ugh, well any suggestions would be much appreciated!
I fell asleep sitting upright in my bed in my work clothes, I just dozed off for a cat nap I guess, and I was sitting at nighttime in the rain, completely drunk, disgustingly dirty, with a long beard, and old ratty dirty clothes in a beautiful garden entrance to a home. I was that man, I was between 50-60 and I remember feeling overwhelmed with bitterness and cynicism. I was angry, highly resentful, and just negative as anything! (in this life I suffer from anger and frustration issues and also can be a little witty sarcastic and cynical,). This old man was a much worse version of the anger I feel today, but I was able to directly connect and identify with that feeling as one that was MY OWN but heightened, which was how I know it was me. I had nothing to lose, and was standing staring at this beautiful large brick estate and well kept hedge and thinking, "F*** these people. So these are the people who did this to me, I might as well go in there and kill them." But I was not even close to capable of that. However, I looked in my left hand and I had a gun with a very distinctive barrel. Also I knew* it was 1888. Although I felt so bitter, I knew I wasn't going to kill them and I had brought the gun just to mope and feel sorry for myself.
I would like to know if anyone knows of this place or where these type of buildings are from b/c I believe this IS a past-life memory for 2 reasons. The anger thing was so specifically what I have struggled with now but magnified, also (I hate to seem this ignorant) but I wasn't really aware of when guns were made and upon waking up I thought, what a weird dream they didn't even have guns in 1888! lol. However, when I googled gun 1888 I saw the same style gun in my dream. So perhaps this was a pl memory. At the age of 3, my parents took me to a children's psychologist because they noticed I had an unusual amount of anger and frustration with everything around me, life in general and they didn't know how to handle me.
Now for some help if you guys can : the garden was more of a very well kept hedge entrance, circular hedge very very high and regal, with a fountain in the middle and some cement benches lining the inside. It had an entrance and an exit that cut the circle in half, and standing in the circle peering up towards the back exit part, you see the large brick mansion .It had pointy ceilings, and what seemed like many panes in the windows, some built like the kinds in the churches, but not with different colors. I knew it to be a family that lived there?? and they just did something that realllly made me hate them. (sorry if this description sucks and this message is long, i would just like to know if there was anything specific this house reminds anyone of? I haven't seen anything close to it, just a painting in museum d'orsay in paris france that had a house kind of like it in the background, stopped me dead in my tracks.I took a photo, I am going to try to post it now)
Oh noo! I can't find it. ugh, well any suggestions would be much appreciated!