AssassinAnime
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Grand rising, I'm new to the forum.
I feel a bit unsatisfied with the family that I choosed and wish to be with one of my past life families. I grew up being with a Christian Southern Baptist family. In 2017, I decided Christianity wasn't for me so I became an atheist. Then last year, I had a spiritual awakening and on a spiritual journey now.
So on this year Mother's Day, I had expressed to my family that I was an old soul and they automatically told me that "You aren't an old soul, you shouldn't believe everything that I hear, and etc." Each time I express myself with my family, they dismissed anything that I say. For a couple of days, I have been mourning for the lost of the family I wish understand and accepted me. My biological current mom is emotional unavailable, my father is absent, and three younger brothers. My family has a generation curse of emotional and mental abuse and unhealthy eating habits. I feel so isolated in my biological family and I don't feel any joy being around them during holidays. I thought at one point that my grandma was my mom in my past life but it was just a memory of me calling her mom because she had to take care of me while my mom was in the army. I tried to explain to others how it's impossible for me and my mom to have a loving relationship.
I have a unbiology twin who is my best buddy. He seems like an older brother that I never had. I want to find my soul family now but I don't know where to look or someone in my past life.
Should I just cut myself off from this family or continue to suffer in their presences? I hope that I get an accepting family in my next life.
(Note: I was a preemie baby.)
I feel a bit unsatisfied with the family that I choosed and wish to be with one of my past life families. I grew up being with a Christian Southern Baptist family. In 2017, I decided Christianity wasn't for me so I became an atheist. Then last year, I had a spiritual awakening and on a spiritual journey now.
So on this year Mother's Day, I had expressed to my family that I was an old soul and they automatically told me that "You aren't an old soul, you shouldn't believe everything that I hear, and etc." Each time I express myself with my family, they dismissed anything that I say. For a couple of days, I have been mourning for the lost of the family I wish understand and accepted me. My biological current mom is emotional unavailable, my father is absent, and three younger brothers. My family has a generation curse of emotional and mental abuse and unhealthy eating habits. I feel so isolated in my biological family and I don't feel any joy being around them during holidays. I thought at one point that my grandma was my mom in my past life but it was just a memory of me calling her mom because she had to take care of me while my mom was in the army. I tried to explain to others how it's impossible for me and my mom to have a loving relationship.
I have a unbiology twin who is my best buddy. He seems like an older brother that I never had. I want to find my soul family now but I don't know where to look or someone in my past life.
Should I just cut myself off from this family or continue to suffer in their presences? I hope that I get an accepting family in my next life.
(Note: I was a preemie baby.)
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