Bizzare confusion after awaking

Hello everyone.

It has been a very long time since I posted my first post on here. Since then I have been an occasional drifter onto the site. So I may have missed alot but I woke up this morning with a bizarre experience and I wanted to share it but I do not feel comfortable sharing it with anyone I know in real life. Basically, I am afraid they will think I am off my rocker.

anyway, Now that is out of the way here is what I expereinced this morning.

I have 3 children one of which has to be at school by 7:00am. I had my alarm clock set for 5:30 but I woke up about 5 instead. I don't remember my dream from last night at all but when I awoke I had the oddest sensation that I was not who I thought I was. I felt very confused and I couldn't understand why everything was so different. It is so hard to explain it appropriately. It felt like I was sleeping in another persons bed and for an instant the thought ran through my head that I wanted my silk sheets not this cotton crap and that was when I began to panic. I have NEVER slept on silk sheets :butbut: Things were not clear at all and I remember not being able to fully understand my surroundings. It was kind of scary for me. It lasted just a couple of minutes. Just long enough for me to know something was not right. Then it just sort of came to me that I was fine and I was in my own bed and then I was like whoa what happend to me?

But it was like I was seeing myself as I am but my mind was WAIT ONE SECOND!! this is NOT who I am!

I have done this before to a certain extent before but I always chalked it up to dreams but when this happend I had the very reall thoughts of being someone else.

When I woke up I was shakey and very tired like I hadn't even slept at all. I even felt a little nauseaus and I can't shake the feeling that I was totally terrified!

One night I awoke in the middle of the night and I was a little confused about who my son was but that feeling passed as well.

Could this be symptoms of a past life memory? If it is I am not entirely sure I want them because I was terrified during those confusing bizarre moments. It was like I didn't know what to do or where to go and things were just so frightening!

Any insight anyone might have about this would be helpful as I am totally new to this whole idea. I have actually been a little doubtful about the whole thing but for some reason I felt compelled to tell someone about this because it just really scared me.

Thanks,
LadyLania

Hi Ladylania,
Sure, this could be a past life recall experience where the other life intrudes so completely on your awareness while you are asleep that the lines between that life and your present life become blurred. If this is the case then you might be able to tune into that life by vividly recalling the way you felt and the sort of things that you were thinking when you were confused.

It could also be that you are one of those sleepers or dreamers who goes astral when you go to sleep and you go so deeply into the dreaming that it takes a bit of time to pull all you back into your waking self. It's sort of like a hang over where you're just not all there yet. So you have to shower and eat and move around and it might even take a day or two to get yourself all the way back into your body. In indigenous cultures this is a form of soul loss and the way it's handled is simply grounding yourself back into your body more solidly by calling yourself back through meditation, exercise, eating and drinking, and other mundane activities.

Wulfie

Thanks so much for the reply.

It probably wouldn't have bothered me so much if it hadn't scared the wits out of me.

The astral thing you mentioned is new. I have to admit I am very much a newcomer to this way of thinking but sometimes I just wonder about it all and for the past couple of years I have felt drawn to it. My brain tells me it is impossible but then I have doubts that what I have been taught and what I thought I knew are all wrong.

I feel very frightened about the whole thing so maybe I am not quite ready to make that journey yet but I can't help the feeling that something is pushing me to it you know? LOL I sound crazy.

Anyway, Is it common for people to "go astral" as they sleep? and what happens when they do? Is it possible to lose myself and die? Sorry but I have anxiety about dieing sometimes. Maybe that is why it frightens me.

Hi LadyLania,

My apologies, I gave too much information in an effort to cover the possible bases.

LadyLania said:

It probably wouldn't have bothered me so much if it hadn't scared the wits out of me.

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I know exactly what you mean. Sometimes we have these strange and confusing experiences that don't fit into our perception of normalcy but it's alright. It's just the newness that is frightening. Try to think of this strange experience as just that, something new, rather than something frightening. That takes the edge off because new things are things we can explore and think about.

LadyLania said:

The astral thing you mentioned is new. I have to admit I am very much a newcomer to this way of thinking but sometimes I just wonder about it all and for the past couple of years I have felt drawn to it. My brain tells me it is impossible but then I have doubts that what I have been taught and what I thought I knew are all wrong.

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I think most people here would suggest that it's best to listen to your heart on these matters and let that be your guide.

LadyLania said:

I feel very frightened about the whole thing so maybe I am not quite ready to make that journey yet but I can't help the feeling that something is pushing me to it you know? LOL I sound crazy.

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Again trust yourself. No, you're not crazy. Or, if you are, there's a whole forum of us right here!

LadyLania said:

Anyway, Is it common for people to "go astral" as they sleep? and what happens when they do? Is it possible to lose myself and die? Sorry but I have anxiety about dieing sometimes. Maybe that is why it frightens me.

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No, hahaha, you're not going to die. And yes, it's quite common and something that happens to just about everyone at least once, from what I've read about sleep and dream studies. Think of it less as an astral thing and try this instead. There are several stages of sleep and we generally work our way to the deeper stages and then dream from there. Then we cycle backwards out of those stages back toward wakefulness. So there's this nice smooth transition from full on sleep to full wakefulness. But sometimes, when we're tired, stressed, or whatever, we fall right into the deeper stages of sleep and dreaming and then are awakened suddenly and it takes a minute or ten to get your bearings again. You just skipped a few of the backwards working stages as you woke up and were still mostly asleep. Hence the confusion about who you were and where. That's all.

So when this sort of thing happens just take things a little slower than normal as you wake up. Wiggle around in bed, wiggle your toes, roll over. Whatever. And give yourself more time to wake up fully. Then you'll be fine.

These deep stages of sleep and dreaming are where some of the intense unconscious and subconscious work goes on so that's why people report having past life memories during these dream states. The same stages are gone through in meditation and hypnosis. Some people just go deeper for whatever reason.

Relax, you're fine. Really.

Wulfie

I wanted to chime in here also and tell you that you are not alone. I like what Wulfie had to say also.

I do think that if this happens again that as you get used to it, it is less frightening. If, in your conscious/awake mind, you can come to terms with this kind of experience, then when it happens when you are asleep or not quite awake, you might be less scared.

That is what happened for me. Once I came on this forum and got comfortable with some of the explanations for what was happening, I wasn't scared anymore.

Vicky

I just wanted to jump in here again and ask another question. In your opinion (from anyone who wants to answer) If I was to search deeper with this do you think it could help me or hinder me? What would I stand to gain if I was to do a past life regression? Because I think that is my main fear at the moment at pursuing this. Perhaps these memories aren't meant to resurface? My husband believes that if reincarnations do happen that we are not meant to know about them in this life. Basically he is not concerned with past lives because he doesn't see how it can benefit our current life.

LOL I am reminded of that movie with Robert Downy Jr. who is reincarnated and remembers his past life because he didn't get the "shot" he needed to allow him to live his current life without memory of his past life. LOL

I have so many dreams where I feel I am someone else in the dream and I am watching it like a movie or something.

Could that be a past life as well?

I also lived in Germany for awhile (my hubby is in the US Army) so of course we took a vacation to Paris where I felt like I was home. I adored the streets and when we took a river cruise on the seine I felt like I had did it so many times before. Versailles was lovely as well and I enjoyed it immensely. But Paris was by far the place that had the deepest emotional feeling for me. I didn't want to leave and I commented alot that I could live there and be happy. I have known plenty people who visited Paris and they were all impressed with its beauty but for me I felt like it was so much more because I wanted to not only see the touristy parts but all of France as well. I was particularly affected by the countryside outside of Paris, and as we drove along the country roads outside of Paris I was so touched I cried. I really had the feeling that I did not want to leave. It was wonderful. That is all I can say really. I still dream about it sometimes and I yearn to go back there.

My family thinks I am crazy but I really would love to go back and spend a month or two. Someday I will but at the moment I am stuck. That is how I feel here. Stuck. Don't get me wrong I love my life and my family and I had a wonderful childhood really with nothing out of the ordinary (I grew up in a small country hometown) but isn't it odd to feel that sort of connection to a place that you only visited once?

Am I making more out of a fantastic vacation? Or is there something to this?

I also wanted to mention that I have some strange odd behaviors that my husband find funny and he laughs at me. I can't figure out why I do them but I have to do them lol. For instance sometimes out of the blue for no reason at all that I can fathom I feel a almost panicky need to SHUT THE DOOR LOCK IT!! LOCK IT!! QUICK!! That is how I feel and I will break my neck trying to get to the door locks before "they" come in. That is my thoughts and I have no idea who "they" are but that is what I think. LOL

Of course I haven't always had this "door" thing just in the past 10 years or so.

Anyway, I just wanted to get this off my chest. Thankyou for listening and contributing your thoughts to my random crazyiness

Don't be afraid

Hi there LadyLania,

If you have been scooting around reading the posts of other people here you will have realised you are not alone and not crazy, as Moondansyr and Wulfie have assured you. Be gentle with yourself. The human mind/soul/consciousness is a strange and wonderful place. It is capable of so much more than we usually ask of it in our daily lives.

The best reason for doing past life regressions is to heal various aspects of your current life and relationships. If you are experiencing fear and upset, this would be a good indicator that something is amiss. If you are having troubling dreams, ditto.

You cannot be harmed. Memories can be upsetting at times, but there is very little danger to your sanity or physical health from exploring them. Always remember, what occurred in the past is in the past. Your primary focus should always be in the 'now' in this life and being the best and most wonderful person you can be. If doing some work with your memories assists with this, great.

By all means seek out a competent therapist to assist you with your explorations. Alternatively, simply going to a quiet space and thinking deeply about the emotions and snippets you have so far seen can be a way 'in'. Trust whatever comes bubbling up. At the end of the day it does not matter what is 'really' going on, whether it is fantasy, wishing, dreams or imagination, symbolism, longing for a certain place, or a past life memory. These are all ways that the spirit finds expression when it has an important message for us. The important thing is the meaning it has for you and what helps you make sense of your current dilemmas.

Thanks so much for you input. I think I would like to dig a little deeper but how can I find a reputable person to help me do a past life regression? What are some things I need to look for? and more importantly what is the average cost for doing so? LOL I am not a rich person and I doubt anyone would do it for free.

Thankyou all

LadyLania, the cost is often a factor. You might want to consider self-regression. You can find out more infromation from reading both Regression and William Buhlman's OM CD .

John

Hi LadyLania,

I get that disorientation when waking up sometimes. When I was pregnant it happened just about every morning. At first I would look at the room and won’t know where/who I am. Than when I would remember who I am I won’t know how old I am, where did I land (what time in my life)?- I can be 60 years old or 16 years old… till everything would finally come back to me.

One time I traveled with my astral body somewhere else (wasn‘t my control), another house/place… when I came back I was so disoriented, I couldn’t believe who/how I was.. I finally figured who I am and where I was, but I was completely disconnected. I went to the mirror and looked at myself forever, I was in shock touching my skin, my hair.. It was hard to digest, like it was the first time I saw myself. I just couldn’t believe that was my current reality. Took me days to get over that feeling..

I understand how you feel and don’t think you should be afraid as other members already assured you here.

About the way you felt in Paris, I felt the same way when I came to the US and I am glad I got to stay because of the connection I felt. I actually think there are other more fascinating places in the world.. But for some reason it feels familiar here, it’s home, I never wanted to leave. I think we sometimes feel this way with certain places because we feel unfinished with that place for some reason, maybe also because we possibly died too soon and unexpectedly, who knows.

When I read about your locking the door behavior.. I remembered how I used to do that same exact thing when I was young. It’s like all of the sudden you get that feeling someone is coming after you and you try closing and locking the door as fast as you can having cold sweat all over feeling real terror…

It will be nice though finding validations to the unexplained emotions we feel sometimes.

Wow thankyou all for your kind words and wonderful insights. I did a little searching around to see who was out there in my area who can do regressions and I came across a woman who claims to be some sort of Priestess

and she says she has these qualifications:

Doctor of Women's Spirituality

Reiki Master/ Teacher/ Healer

Hypnotherapist/ Trainer

Spiritual Counselor

She does what she calls Past life Explorations and Life between lives regressions (among other things). She was trained by a Michael Newton,PhD. and author of Journey of Souls, and Destiny of Souls.

Her fees are something I could probably do with a little planning but I am unsure. I feel caught between actual belief and doubt. I want to believe but I am fearful that what I find will test my very deep roots in christianity. I do believe in Jesus with all of my heart and I guess I am afraid of taking that next step.

Is it possible to believe in reincarnation and still retain a christian faith?

I'm sorry for all of this. I have read alot of the posts here and I find them fascinating. You all are very brave in my opinion.

Thankyou once again.

Hi Ladylania,

Try reading some of the threads on Christianity and reincarnation. There is a verse in Matthew (I believe) that talks about John the Baptist actually being Elijah. There are several verses in the bible that as I look at them now, very clearly discuss reincarnation. You can do a search on this forum and come up with several.

Its a tough step. I also have deep roots in Christianity but I have come to see that Christianity and reincarnation do not mutally exclude each other.

Vicky

Hi LadyLania,

You may want to check out this thread How to find a reputable Hypnotherapist?

There are some things you need to look for when looking for the right person to do a regression. I would definitely recommend, as outlined in the thread, looking into the International Association for Regression Research & Therapies.

It is definitely possible to be a Christian and still believe in reincarnation. You may enjoy reading these threads:

Reincarnation and Christianity

Dogma Bites Man

The Gnostic Texts and Reincarnation

Best of luck,
Ailish

LadyLania, as you read more posts, you'll see that we all have our own personal beliefs. Look on your Christianity as a foundation, to which you can add other beliefs that you feel are valid. Try to keep a sincere open mind and heart, and I don't think you will be lead astray. A belief in reincarnation is probably the one common bond most of us have, although you aren't alone with your doubts.

John

Ladylania...John is so right!

I am a Christian. I find reincarnation as a perfect fit to our beliefs. Unfortunately it has been compromised over the centuries. Read the history sections and those links posted by Ailish, you'll see what I mean. In my opinion God gave us the power to discern His world. Keep your mind open and your heart strong. The journey is powerful and very fulfilling!

The Tinkerman

Wow that's alot. LOL Well, I'm kind of new, but I'd love to try to answer some of your questions.

LadyLania said:

If I was to search deeper with this do you think it could help me or hinder me? What would I stand to gain if I was to do a past life regression?

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I personally think that if you're having these memories, then you're meant to have them, and that they could help you. Just from other people's experience I wouldn't reccomend a regression, unless your memories are interfering with your life. But I'm not an expert and it's your choice.

LadyLania said:

I have so many dreams where I feel I am someone else in the dream and I am watching it like a movie or something.Could that be a past life as well?

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That sounds like a past life memory. From what I've heard some people do see a "movie" when they view their past lives, usually if the life might be a little much to experience first hand. Could you maybe share what happened in those dreams??

LadyLania said:

I also lived in Germany for awhile (my hubby is in the US Army) so of course we took a vacation to Paris where I felt like I was home. I adored the streets and when we took a river cruise on the seine I felt like I had did it so many times before. Versailles was lovely as well and I enjoyed it immensely. But Paris was by far the place that had the deepest emotional feeling for me. I didn't want to leave and I commented alot that I could live there and be happy. I have known plenty people who visited Paris and they were all impressed with its beauty but for me I felt like it was so much more because I wanted to not only see the touristy parts but all of France as well. I was particularly affected by the countryside outside of Paris, and as we drove along the country roads outside of Paris I was so touched I cried. I really had the feeling that I did not want to leave. It was wonderful. That is all I can say really. I still dream about it sometimes and I yearn to go back there.

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Maybe you had a past life in Paris or maybe you just really, really enjoyed it. You're the only person who would really, truly know if you were remembering a past life or not. Did you have any deja vu feeling when you were there? Did you remember anything in particular about a life that could've been there?

LadyLania said:

My family thinks I am crazy but I really would love to go back and spend a month or two. Someday I will but at the moment I am stuck. That is how I feel here. Stuck. Don't get me wrong I love my life and my family and I had a wonderful childhood really with nothing out of the ordinary (I grew up in a small country hometown) but isn't it odd to feel that sort of connection to a place that you only visited once?

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I understand so well! I've never been outside of the U.S. but I've always felt like I wasn't supposed to be here. I remember when I was really, really little I always thought Why am I here? I'm not supposed to be here. It was like torture! But don't worry, you're not crazy.

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For instance sometimes out of the blue for no reason at all that I can fathom I feel a almost panicky need to SHUT THE DOOR LOCK IT!! LOCK IT!! QUICK!! That is how I feel and I will break my neck trying to get to the door locks before "they" come in. That is my thoughts and I have no idea who "they" are but that is what I think. LOL

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Do you have any present life explanations for the OCD? (Do you mind if I call it that? ) I mean, you could have had a past life where something bad happened when the door was unlocked...or where you had OCD about it but it could also be linked to something in this life.

Good luck! I hope I helped.

Oops I was late posting. Sorry.

LOL thats okay! I enjoyed your response very much. I have decided against going to a regressionist. I've prayed about it and I am going to start meditating on my own. So if God decides that I shall remember something it will be completely his will and meant to be remembered. If nothing does then it won't and I won't pursue it. Perhaps past lives are meant to be teachers to us on our journey. I'm not sure how it all works in but I believe that if we are meant to know then we will know and if not then maybe we should not chase it you know?

I guess what I am trying to say is that I'll accept whatever visions or "memories" God sends my way.


The dreams I have are odd in that I sometimes flip back and forth from first person to someone viewing it happen like a movie.

In one dream I had I dreamed I was a young girl with coal black hair very long. I think I must have been in my teenage years. Anyway, in my dream I knew it was someone else while I was watching but when I would flip I would be that person. I don't have a name for though.

so anyway, in my dream I am looking at myself in the mirror and I am brushing my hair with a silver hair brush very ornate even though my surroundings were modest but not poor. I don't have a door for my room but there is a curtain hanging over the doorway. I hear a car horn and I run over to the window and I am smiling. My dad has just bought our first car. It is blue and looks kind of like a station wagon only the older kind and it has these wings on the back of it. I am really excited and I start to brush the door cutain aside and someone I know who is my step mother is there frowning at me. Then my point of view switches to viewer mode and I see the girl hold her head down. The stepmother instructs me that I am grounded for that stunt. (I have no idea what the stunt is) Then the girl steps back and flips the curtain back into place over her doorway. Then I move back over to my mirror and start brushing my hair again. I am smiling though because I know that daddy's excitement over the new car will cause him to lift my punishment just once and allow me to go look at the car. Then I wake up. It never goes beyond this part even though I have dreamed this dream many times.

Oh yes just a note. I have brown hair so I know that girl in the mirror was definately not me lol She also had beautiful large eyes and they were very dark.

This seems pretty ordinary so no hidden traumas with this girl. The stepmother wasn't evil or anything lol As a matter of fact I get the feeling that I was the one in the wrong.

As far as Paris is concerned, I felt Deja vu during our river cruise which was at night so it was truly lovely. The country side was incredible and I was brought to tears from how it made me feel. I felt sort of complete or something. LIke I had always been meant to do this. LOL I feel insane telling you this :laugh:


lol I am not offended by the OCD comment at all :laugh: It made me laugh acutally.

I don't know what would cause me to do that in this life. I mean I have had a pretty tame life. No evil people out to get me. No one breaking in my house, no one trying to get in to do me harm. (well there was this once when my neighbor broke into my bedroom once to steal our check book but I had been doing this "locking door" thing long before that happend.

Anyway, just wanted to address the things you asked about Thankyou all for replying. It really helps me to get more perspective on things.

Oh to add to this that made my jaw drop this morning. My 4 year old told me that when I was a little girl I fell on a big rock and he said "there was alot of blood mommy and you were so small! I almost stopped breathing right then and there because when I was about 6 or so I was climbing on this giant flower in this park where me and my family was camping. Anyway, I took a nasty fall and my head was split open by a large rock on the ground. My parents had to rush me to the hospital ER and they had to put stiches and everything in my head. I just thought it was an odd comment when I haven't told any of my children about that. I'm not saying it couldn't have found out from another member of my family but it seem odd for him to say that out of the blue when it has been nearly a year since I was home visiting family.

Anyway, I am done for now LOL again thanks for all of your replies. I realy appreciate it.

The dream... Wow. How did you feel when you woke up from it? I love having past life dreams, but it doesn't happen very often. I like what you said about accepting whatever visions God sends you.

Most people have pretty ordinary past lives, just because there's more "ordinary" lives than "non-ordinary" people. You know? LOL

So maybe you have some unfinished business in Paris? Do you live in America, and is it possible that you can visit Paris again?

I'm glad that you weren't offended by the OCD thing.

About your 4 year old... Wow, so was he/she remembering a past life with you? Sorry, this is a really personal question, but have any family members died that would have known that? Some people do tend to reincarnate into the same families. (By the way, what's your son/daughter's name? This isn't related, just wondering. )

Well with my son, yes, my father and grandfather have both passed long before my son was born and both were there when the accident happend. It was like a huge family camping trip. My aunts and uncles and my father and papaw were all there. (I have a very large family)

And I would probably be willing to accept that a family member told him about the incident but it seems so out of place to out of the blue say that. Not to mention that he hasn't had any kind of contact with any of my family for about a year or so. He was just sitting on my lap playing with his woody and buzz dolls when out it popped. I was actually typing your response when it happend so it gave me the creeps lol. Especially when he said I was so very little. I was an extremely small child for my age anyway.

OH well perhaps I will never know lol

I live in America and there doesn't seem to be much of a chance at the moment to go to Paris again. But if I ever get the opportunity to go again I certainly will not hesitate :tongue: . Just thinking of going back there makes my heart race. LOL it has been about 3 years since we went and I still feel that way. OH well maybe someday right?

Another Dream


Hello again,


I didn't want to start a new thread about this so I used this old one of mine instead.


I had another dream about this girl with black hair and I can only say that I believe she is the same girl who kept sneaking off with her boyfriend to make love in her apartment building. I really think they are the same girl after the dream I had last night.


It has been awhile since I dreamed of her but anyway, Here is my dream from last night. My dreams have been very odd lately.


Okay here it is.


I was the black haired girl again only this time I am 12 or 13 years old. I am playing with a group of children some of which are my siblings but I'm not really paying attention to them much. Most of my attention is for the same boy that was in my other dream who is actually my husband in this life. We are standing by a door outside in some sort of courtyard but it is very small and it is like the apartment building surrounds this little yard where the kids from the apartment play. He is telling me something that makes me blush and he is grinning from ear to ear and I can feel my stomach turning flip flops. Every now and then I look up to check on my younger siblings but I always turn back to him. I'm playing and twirling my long hair. I get the feeling that I am very proud of my hair. suddenly he reaches out to hold my hand and then we just stand there holding hands. I felt very pleased and happy.


then my dream switched and I was dreaming of my kids and we were in some kind of parade LOL and then it just got silly the way dreams sometimes do and somehow I was trying to cut my dog's hair (he needs a hair cut badly LOL) But I won't bore you all with my sillyness :tongue:


anyway, I loved that dream. My husband now was the boy causing my hormones to skyrocket in that young girl. : angel


I don't know if it is just my imagination working overtime or I really am dreaming of past lives but wow they are good LOL