Hello again aqualeo,
I'm responding to your initial post. I think if you allow yourself to surrender and experience, that relevant information might be revealed to you.
It's easier said than done. I used to experience sleep paralysis, frequently, not knowing what it was.
It is an in-between state in which your body begins to enter something like a "standby" or "rest" mode while your mind is more alert and active. I have faced many fears and anger in this state, almost all of which were of my own creation.
I have been terrified by this state too. It's such a vulnerable sensation, and the body- with its years of evolutionary data, is immediately placed in fight or flight. I can't tell you how many times I have tried slamming my head forward, screaming internally, praying to Christ to be saved from the experience.
One day, in my early 20's, I decided I would face it. I wasn't alone though, I had learned a trick that would allow me to break free from the experience if I became too scared. I would like to share this tip with you with the hopes it provides some use.
I would also like to tell you that sleep paralysis was later my entry into an OBE... out of body experience. If you believe in past lives it might also be worth considering that we are more than the bodies we identify with. So when I say out of body, it only means that your awareness is not immediately identified with the senses and viewing through the physical eyes. We can always dive into that later...
But I started to see the sleep paralysis as an opportunity.
First, I might suggest that you pray for protection before willingly entering any endeavor where you are exploring uncharted territory. To remember that you are always protected, and that you are loved. And maybe consider a reason why you slip so easily into this state is because there is a very strong message that is trying to get across to you.
It's just a thought. And in the end, it's all data.
The trick is very simple, and has worked for me with a 100% success rate. I have shared this with others who are scared about sleep paralysis. I discovered this method online, after trying to understand with desperation just what the heck was happening to me. I am happy to say the people I've shared it with have reported back that this has really helped them.
So, again, remember that the sensations you are experiencing is the body going to rest- and your mind is still awake/alert.
I have learned that you can't slam your head forward, and fighting hard doesn't help at all.
Instead, when the fear starts to kick in- you must remind yourself what is happening and then tell your self, "I am going to wiggle my big toe." I always choose my right toe. You must pick just the one.
Send your awareness to that toe. You can tell yourself, "I am wiggling my toe." And begin to do so.
Immediately your body begins to wake up and you are released from sleep paralysis.
I pray for your protection and further understanding with this regard.
I sincerely hope this helps and encourages you to explore what is really an amazing experience, I crave OBE's- and have come to enjoy the dissociative process that happens in between. It is a magical experience. And yes, there are a lot of ways it is scary- but I would not give up or shut down the experience for anything.
My best wishes to you...