Discussion in 'Reincarnation Questions' started by ColourODarkness, May 8, 2015.
I am saddened to hear your story. Maybe Past Life Regression Therapy can help you figure it out.
Hi, I'm having a bit of a weird episode myself here lately. I started watching old episodes of a soap opera on YouTube and there was an actor that caught my eye. I immediately noticed his talent and started to look him up on the internet out of curiosity. I figured he'd eventually gone into prime time television or something along the lines but no, it turns out he died years back, while still on the soap. I was upset to learn about this because the guy had promise and could have possibly become a bigger star. He was young when he died. Anyways, it all of a sudden got to where I started thinking about him more and more and it turned into trying to figure out why he took drugs--he died of a drug overdose--and that's when things got weirder. I realized that his name was exactly the name I had picked out years ago to name my child if I ever had one. And I didn't know anything about this guy until recently. Also he was born in the Southeast and I am born and raised in the Southeast myself. As for the soap, I had watched this show years back and he was on there when I first started watching the soaps, but funny how when watching all of these old episodes, I remembered so many of the characters--except for him. You'd think I would but I didn't and I thought it was very strange. Another weird thing is that the same year this guy died, another, more famous actor also died and one who I definitely knew of back then, and it was also a drug overdose. The other weird thing is that both of these actors' ages when they died were exactly 10 years apart. Also another actor on this same soap that played a famous character on that show I got to meet back then around that time I'd started watching soaps. And they definitely were connected because their characters on the show were brothers. Again, I find it all weird.
What was up with all this and why couldn't I get the guy out of my head? Now, I am happily married and this isn't a "crush." I never got those. Whenever I got into an actor/musician it was because of their talent. But this has been something different. There's some weird familiarity going on that I just can't explain. I also want to add that I have been seeing the repeating numbers--all kinds of them--and they have been going on since around 2018. I already looked into that and am understanding some of that. And I've also been reading up on the whole "soulmates", "twin flames" and "soul families". I believe in it all. My husband, if anything is my twin flame or biggest soulmate of all because we both felt we knew each other already when we first met and we're so compatible and our personalities are so complimentary to each other. I also do seem to fit the Indigo child profile and do have a bit of ESP. I got it from my mother; she has a touch of it also. We've had dreams that have come true in the past and I definitely have the whole "intuition" thing. And I also get visits from time to time in my dreams from my relatives who have passed, which is always nice. I don't always get the message in the dream but just seeing them is great for me since I miss them. And that's the other weird thing I want to bring up with regards to the soap actor--for the past week or so now, he has apparently visited me in my dreams. The fourth dream happened just the other night. These dreams, just like practically all of mine, never make any sense but I do get that it seems like we're hanging out in the dreams. I can never remember anything that is said, it's just that he's there. What is weird is that I don't ever have any dreams of "celebrities". I just don't. Actually I usually don't remember the majority of my dreams but these I'm definitely remembering when I wake up. I actually tried something one night. Right as I started to sleep I just prayed to him and told him that I hoped he was doing good and if he wanted to, just pop into my dreams for a visit. And sure enough the third dream happened, which was quite the surprise. Now I'm on to the fourth one and it's all very intriguing to me. The fact that I've had four dreams already within a week or so tells me there's got to be something to all this.
I guess what I want to know, is if this actor is a part of my soul family and he's just keeping an eye out for me and letting me know? Or am I going crazy? I still do not feel that it is some kind of "celebrity crush" because I love my husband very much and these feelings are not about that at all. The dreams also are not sexual or romantic in any way. Every one of them, it's like he's a friend or a part of family and like I said earlier, we're just hanging out. Does anybody know more about this kind of stuff and would care to talk? I'm just trying to figure this all out. Any info would help. Thank you and sorry for the long post.
Hi ANP. Most of what you wrote here is outside my experience, I can't comment on most of it. The one part I understood was this:
That is something I'm familiar with. Relatives and Friends who have passed do sometimes appear in my dreams. Some of those have been just confused and rambling dreams which don't add up to much. But others have been extremely powerful experiences, which I take to be not just a resemblance or similarity, but is an actual appearance by the real person. Like you, they don't usually say anything, it is more the continuing connection which matters.
I know from talking to other people that not everyone has these types of 'dreams', it may need some sort of psychic ability or something to establish such a contact. Perhaps you have some special ability to act as a communicator between worlds. It may be that you're acting as a kind of medium for this soap actor. But so far you've said there isn't anything in particular, no message, not any obvious meaning. Perhaps there isn't any deeper significance.
It was good to hear that you have a solid connection with your family in this life, having some sort of anchor and stability is important in order to keep things in balance, no matter what else is happening. Keeping a sense of perspective, keeping things in proportion, that matters I think.
Thanks for replying Speedwell. It's nice to have found this forum and to be able to talk about this stuff without someone thinking you're crazy and being judgmental. I just take it all in stride and just feel blessed. I have talked to my mother and my husband about it and they are both perplexed as well. They think there's something there but again, they're more just surprised and perplexed. The thing that bugs me the most is that there isn't any info hardly about him on the internet, not any kind of interviews or anything like that. And what I'm wanting to know is who this guy was--not the actor but the man that he was. What was he like, his personality, that sort of thing. I guess I'll know in the future when it's my time to go. I also forgot to mention in the first post that there's something else we share in common, and that is that he was married and had a son when he died and from what I can gather is his son was pretty much still a baby at the time, which is sad. I can only hope his son has grown up in good surroundings and with family and knows his dad, regardless of what happened. That's the thing we have in common because my grandfather died young also and when my dad was a baby, so my dad didn't get to know him and he didn't have that good of a life growing up, having an abusive stepfather and you can tell it's always affected him. So that's another thing that's very strange about all of this. All I can say is that I feel we're connected somehow, like we knew each other in past lives and he's reaching out someway. I really want to talk to a real psychic and see if they can figure anything out. But that's all that I have for now. As I said earlier I just feel fortunate to be able to have had this experience so far and hopefully we'll get to see each other again on the other side when it's time. Thanks for replying to me.
Hi and welcome!
I was visited in my dreams a few times by people close to me in a past life. Sometimes we talked, sometimes it was just a happy reunion without much talking. I always had the impression that we also communicated on a deeper level without words, like I could sense the feelings of the other person and like I understood much more of the message than what they actually said. But sometimes I also forgot parts of what we talked about as soon as I woke up. The most important things, however, I could remember, and very much so the emotions we shared.
These dreams always happened when I thought a lot about the person in question and really desired to meet them again. I was also able to ask a specific question which was on my mind for a long time and get an answer from the visitor.
Maybe these were all just dreams, but then they were very detailed and they felt real and overwhelming. I really like to believe that our soul can meet with other souls during sleep, with those of incarnated and not incarnated people. Based on what I have experienced I also think it is possible to invite the souls we wish to see into our dreams. There are many more people I’d love to meet again, but it didn’t work with everyone so far. Maybe not all of them want to come or maybe the time is yet not right for me to meet them.
I think it’s possible you knew the actor from a past life or you are from the same soul group. I’m not sure about consulting a psychic, however. Just if you know one you can really trust and who proved to be trustworthy and got things right in the past. Otherwise I think it’s better to rely on yourself and your own connection to this actor’s soul. It seems to be a good and strong one. Try to invite him again and focus on the questions you'd like to ask him, maybe one at a time. This might take more time and patience, and I understand you’d like to have quick answers. But I think answers that come from within ourselves are more likely to be true than from someone else telling us.
Hi, Ocean, thank you for responding. Yes, you're probably right about the psychic. There are a few I saw on TV or YouTube over the years that seem to be real but I just don't know how to get in contact with them and it probably is best to not bother, since we really don't know if they are legit or not. However I will try what you suggested about trying to invite him again into my dreams and seeing if I can ask questions or have a conversation. It does seem like a fifth dream may have happened last night but the problem is that I don't remember a single thing. Just images and that feeling when you wake up that there was something that happened. And that's always been a problem for me. They say we dream multiple times every night and yet I hardly remember any of them. There's usually something that stands out for me to have remembered something the next day when I wake up. And I keep seeing the repeating numbers ad nauseum almost everyday and wonder what that's about. I got some understanding of it but I just send prayers when I see them now, just to pay it forward.
One thing I noticed is that the last two dreams were comical. It was that kind of dream where everything that could go wrong, went wrong. Almost like we were in the middle of the action and there was some kind of mental block that was trying to keep us apart. The dreams are similar to other dreams I've had in recent years where I'm trying to get somewhere and everything is preventing me from achieving it in the dream. However I took it upon myself to try to find some kind of info about him and I happened upon an older podcast on YouTube where someone interviewed two actors from the soap he was on and they actually brought him up and talked about him because some people listening to the interview wanted to know about him and they said he was a sweet and funny person but there was some kind of inner turmoil going on with him and even though they didn't bring up the drugs, it's obvious that's what they were implying and it was all very fascinating. At least I thought to myself, hey, I'm getting some idea of the kind of person he was because as I said in one of the earlier posts I'm wanting to know what he was like, not the character he played or any of the actor lifestyle and all that mess. Lord knows these people in the entertainment business have seem some "stuff" if you know what I mean and I can't help but think that it might be what led to his downfall. Either that or he had some bad family life or something. I don't know. It might not be my place to know or find out. But I am going to try to see if I can get some kind of clarity out of the dreams I had. The only thing I can take away from it all is that I am grateful for this experience so far and the good thing is that he's on the other side and in a good place and not hurting anymore. And that hopefully we'll get to see each other in the future, when it's my time. I definitely get that vibe that he's either a family member or friend from past lives. Part of a soul group/family. Or also "Speedwell" suggested I may be becoming a medium for him. But this is all very weird but a good weird, you know. I guess I have to practice patience. But thanks for responding. I am loving the fact that I can talk about this stuff on here and not feel judged.
Hello, just wanted to update. So there's been more interesting things happening recently. As of my last post, when I said there might have been a fifth dream, that was one of those where I'm not sure but you wake up thinking that there might have been something. And that had already begun happening a few times but I did in fact have an official fifth dream not long after that post, that I remembered the next day very well, and then a week or two passed and then I had another dream that was vivid. So six dreams in all that I could definitely remember and a bunch of "did I have a dream or not" type of experiences have also happened since all this started up. And there have been other coincidences and such that happened around all this time, so my husband and I both think that there could be something there. As I said earlier, I feel blessed and just thank him for the experiences and hope to be able to see him in the future.
However, there is another "person" that is now also popping up and this started around the same time as the other but is only now starting to grow. This person is another famous celebrity who passed away years ago. He was a singer of a famous group back in the day and again, I knew that the person had died but when they passed, somehow (just like with the actor's death) it bypassed me because I didn't find out he had died till sometime in the 00's, and he passed when I was in high school in the 90's and even then I still wonder how it bypassed me back then, when usually I'd hear about things like that then. Anyways, so all of a sudden I'm drawn this man while I'm having the experiences with the soap actor and I'm trying to figure it all out. There are some coincidences with both men--both share the same first name, even though I will admit it is a pretty common male name, but still, they both were born in the same year, and both were born in the same month. The only difference is when they passed, one passed in 1993 and the other in 1997. And just like the actor, the singer left behind a young child and it was under bad circumstances--drug overdose or suicide or who knows? So I'm trying to figure him out too and what is this all about and again, I brought it up to my hubby and get this? He says that he has been having songs of the group playing in his head at various times, could be at work or wherever--and he was creeped out (in a good way) when I brought all this up. I'd had a song or two playing in my head as well. Now we always knew about this group and they do have classics of a particular era, but there wasn't anything in particular at the time to suggest to me or to hubby that we were just somehow all of a sudden interested in listening to this group. So that's why when these songs popped up in our heads, it's just weird is all I can say. And just like with our actor, when I was trying to find things out about our singer, I don't care about the celebrity, I want to know who this singer was as a man, as a person, that kind of thing. The real person and not the celebrity that is shown to the public. Luckily there are some good documentaries and some books I can find that might help me out but it's the same with the actor--a very talented person who apparently had some issues and I feel for the person and hate the way life treated them in the end, and obviously I hope their child is okay today and was raised right and such, and do you see the picture now? It's all very strange because I feel the weird familiarity as usual and at the same time I care in a way that I feel I shouldn't or maybe I should but I just don't know. And I have had at least one dream involving him a few nights back and it would be the first that I know of but the bad thing is is that as usual, it's mainly images and feelings--I can't remember anything specific or important. The main thing is that I hope that he is okay on the other side and that's he around the right people to make him feel secure but one documentary I've already seen, it appears he didn't have the people around him looking out for him as they probably should have, otherwise he might be alive today--and they said he had issues with feeling very lonely and it is sad. So all I can say is that again I hope he's got all the soul family and friends up in heaven and when it's my time, hopefully I'll get to see him and we can talk, talk talk, because the people that knew him said he loved having conversation and could talk your ears off if you let him.
Also I happen to come across some other odd coincidences between me and the actor. His first and middle name--the initials are the same initials that make out my hubby's first and middle names. Only the last name is different. And then also the actor was married and his wife's name? Well his first and her first name--same initials as hubby and my first names. I think it's strange but cool. But I'd thought that y'all might want to know about this and feel free to talk to me about it. I don't know what is going on but I feel like I've got some kind of connection to these people now, and all I can say is that I hate that I didn't get to meet them in this life but maybe it will happen in the future. The one thing for sure is that my husband is seeing it now and is convinced something is going on. And we both still see the repeating numbers. That started happening slowly for me in 2018 and then it grew in 2019 to 2020 and now--it pretty much happens almost on a daily basis. And they will be all kinds. The first was 11:11 and then it started more of 12:12, 12:22, and 10:10. But I also see the 111, 222, 333, 444, 555 as well. Usually it happens to me on a clock. But the 1111, 1212 and 1222 are the most common out of all of them. So somebody's talking to me. I just say prayers because I can't really figure out what's going on there. I read some things about it and maybe y'all can help. But I thought you'd like to know what's going on recently.
Hello, I hope this forum is still alive. I'm currently experiencing the similar thing as most of you here and I'm glad that I'm not alone.These feelings creeps me out and I feel like a weirdo for this. I don't want to talk about this to the ppl I know because I'm scared they'd think I'm crazy. So a year ago I was in a fandom twitter and this girl and I followed each other. We've interacted several times but never messaged each other, only replied each other's tweets sometimes. During that time, I didn't feel anything towards her, but I thought of her as an online friend.
Long short story I went inactive and eventually didn't use that account anymore so I lost contact with her. But one day–I don't really remember how it started–I began searching for her again. She's a writer so I read her works (and she was a very talented one), I scrolled through her curiouscat to get to know her better and well, from that I found out that we have so many similarities (we're the same age, both southeast asian, majoring in the same study, similar music taste and interests, same favorite films etc) and yeah, my infatuation grew stronger. Call me crazy but I tried to find her other social media and did find them–I even found out her full name and where she studies. The thing is, she lives in the pacific northwest while I'm in southeast asia. I don't know if this is an obsession or a crush or what, but the feeling is intense and it's kind of disturbing me. I have been in love, have had many crushes, but I have never felt like this in my entire life. Mind you, we've never talked again ever since I left my twitter, but I still get the random urge to visit her page. I found her personal twitter too and looked through her photos and the more bizzare thing is, I think somehow we kind of look alike. Sadly she probably deactivated her personal so I never get to see her photos again.
I am not just obsessed with her. I also want to be like her. I want to look like her, to have her personality, her talent, everything. There's also a desire to be romantically involved with her. I do think she's really beautiful and admirable, and that if we ever met we could connect with each other. She's weirdly familiar to me despite us being far away and never really talked let alone met. We're both girls, and when I found out she also likes girls I was so happy as if I had a chance to be with her. I also had dreams about her several times and it was vivid–the last dream I had was I googled her full name but I couldn't remember the rest (or the dream ended when I pressed the search button idk lol) and when I woke up I felt so lost. I want to do the same in reality but somehow something is holding me back, telling me not to do it.
This feeling faded some time ago when I was busy with my stuff but lately it got intense again after I visited her page again and saw that she published a new writing (which I haven't read yet). Now she occupies my mind and it's suffocating me, it's overwhelming. Who is she, actually? A lover or best friend in my past life? Considering that we are from the same ethnicity, is it possible that we had a connection/lived nearby in our previous life? Or is she somehow linked to my fate/destiny in this life? Do we have a chance to meet in this life? I often have this thought about going abroad to the city where she lives, even though it's impossible with my current financial condition. Even if I could, the city is so big that the chance for us to accidentally meet is very small. And I also thought about attending graduate school in her university, who knows if we'd meet in the same department? Then again, this is impossible.
What do you think? I wish it could be possible for us to meet in the future. What is this feeling and who is she? I would call her my other half but it didn't sound right because I think that she is a better, leveled up version of me. She is who I am supposed to be and wish to be with. Now that I've made a new twitter, should I follow her again and try to interact with her like we used to? Maybe I could befriend her and get closer to her that way. I remember she called me pretty once and said that she missed me after I went inactive. Even though I knew it was just a small talk, it really made me happy to think about it. It's been nearly a year and I am still so drawn to her and really want to know her...
Zar, as someone who has had interactions with fangirls and for a time even some were my friends, I do have a few questions.
Is there about her life that makes you want to replicate her? Is it something she does that you wish you could do? How does she make you feel?
If it were a dude, some girls obsess and fangirl over them because they did or do something incredibly bad in their lives that gives them the ‘bad boy appearance’, (teenage girls love bad boys...) but seeing this is a woman, I unfortunately have not have much experience.
What made you seek out her personal profiles? Often this can be interpreted as stalking, and therefore you must be careful. Have you had memories with her or a woman similar to her appearance? Do you remember anything significant about her that possibly she may not be aware of?
Hi Eva, thank you for the response.
Since I don't really know her personal life, I guess it's something she does that makes me want to "replicate" her. Like I said, she's like the better version of me, a persona that I want myself to have/be–appearance, talent, and energy and personality wise. But she also makes me feel so drawn and infatuated. Whenever I see her I get these unexplainable feelings, but it's mostly positive. Though if I think about her too much it'll get weirdly painful.
Fortunately I have got over my phase of liking bad boys now that I'm an adult, and I think I'm currently in the phase of liking cool girls lol. I mean I've liked some cool girls before, but this one just hits different. And she's a fellow fangirl, but i really love and envy the way she befriends and interact with people. Everyone likes her and I'm just one of many. But yeah, I also do have some kind of romantic feeling towards her.
And yes, I am painfully aware of my stalker-ish tendency and I also feel kind of guilty of knowing more than I should, so I try to do less of it now. I'm just overly curious about her. I don't think I have any significant memory with her other than what I mentioned above (her complimenting me etc) or a woman who looks like her. Though it would be wonderful if I could meet someone similar to her and lives nearby so that I could stop obsessing over her haha.
I read about twin flame theory, and I thought it's the closest thing to describe what I feel for her and this whole experience involving her. But since we live in different continents and most likely will never meet in this life, I lose my belief a little.
aha... So what is it that she does that you want to “replicate”? Does she do anything outstanding that you want to do too?
I’m gonna kick myself in the a.... for asking this question, but what do you both fangirl over?
Twin flames/souls is a very sticky subject on this forum, therefore it’s the reason why I don’t post as much as I used to, and this piece may even get moderated by the mods. But twin flames go deeper than the physical body, and instead of the other wanting to “replicate” the twin, they are in fact very different. I don’t think that what you have is like that, though every one is different and I could be wrong because only you know what is right.
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