First of all, let me tell you that this forum has stupified me completely. And I mean that in the most positive way possible. I've read countless threads already, and I just want to keep reading. Finally I found a place with people who are on the same wavelength as I am, it really strikes me as a miracle. I am by no means stating that I am as far as some of the members here, or even close to their (spiritual) intelligence (I still have an awful lot to learn!), but just the fact that everyone here is so open to spirituality like I am is a truly wondrous. Now, as I mentioned in my introduction, I have a lot of trouble getting access to my past life memories. I would like to start a thread soon about the things I do (or think?) I remember, but for now I would like to focus on the "practical" side of things. You see, I have tried quite a few regression videos on YouTube, but I get absolutely nothing. I just see the back of my eyelids, to put it bluntly. I've read about something called "aphantasia", but I don't think it's that; I have absolutely no trouble envisioning things, it just doesn't work with my eyes closed. However, having to close your eyes obviously plays a big part in these videos. If you ask me to close my eyes and picture a strawberry, I just can't. But with my eyes open, it's right there. Just deeper in my brain, if that makes sense at all. I can see the strawberry floating in the "middle of my head". So I was thinking, if I can't even picture a boat on a beach when the video asks me to, it's not so strange that I can't look down at my feet to see what kind of shoes I'm wearing, or see where I am at all. At one point I thought the sun was shining down on me, but maybe that was just my mind playing tricks on me because I was forcing myself to concentrate. Another time I had a brief vision of big, empty station, much like Amsterdam Central Station, it was deserted and it was definitely not modern. However, I had so much trouble envisioning the things the lady in the video wanted me to picture, that I feel I made it up. So basically my question is, can you go through such a video with your eyes open, and still get a result? Is that possible at all? Thank you so much in advance for any help.