Good morning!
I don't feel like people have changed for the worse. I am experiencing incredible realities in my groups, and I am seeing honest changes in people for the better.
That being said, last week I felt something rather ominous as a general sensation. The last time I felt something like that was the morning Charlie Kirk was assassinated which was/is a national tragedy. It was surreal timing. I remember telling my friend, "something feels off today" and when came back hours after running deliveries for my work he asked me, "did you see the news?" I had no clue who Charlie Kirk was until after his public assassination.
The US has witnessed increased violence in the political sphere. It really is heart wrenchingly disgusting.
Back to your present observation-
I don't know why I recently felt this ominous discomfort, I thought that something terrible was going to happen this week. Or that something bigger than covid is on the horizon. But I don't have time to worry about it. And, I'd rather be wrong.
Whatever happens, I really really admire baro-sans reply to you. I haven't been active here, but am really happy to have tuned in today. His post reminds me of a story I've read years ago of a woman who was arrested for practicing Falun-Gong. In her confinement she found liberation. That's a curious reality.
If I wish to utilize my free will, a sovereignty bestowed by God- then I see these sensations as an opportunity to practice the things I believe in. Smiling at strangers, kindness for others, feeling love- practicing love.
And I'm no where near good at it. But I know it's a way for me to move out of general dread and towards a happy and peaceful reality- no matter what is going on in the world around me.
I live in the city, and its population has increased over the years I grew up here. The zoning and wealth distribution is awful. One block is full of mansions and a private gym with 7 different styled tennis courts, their own zoo(giraffes don't belong in this city), a lazy river, and all kinds of crazy modern amenities... And right across the street from this gym are ghetto-run downed apartments where I've seen a man crazily wield a machete- I've seen teenagers hustle the streets for money because some older adults in gang related activities are pushing them to do so and I've witnessed swat shut down the street and put a sniper on an unstable individual bunkering down in those apartments- all walking distance from the mansions with peacocks roaming around the streets.
F'in A. It was really easy for me to be discouraged, and to see all the crazy sh*t happening around me. A man stripping down naked and yelling at people on the streets. Young men coming up to me and threatening my life on multiple occasions. A murder at the gas station next to me. Someone breaking into my Dads car multiple times. It easy to become overwhelmed and not feel safe anymore. Just writing it now and I can feel so easily pulled back into that reality.
So how is it at the same time I am feeling so much peace and love? Precisely practicing the things I believe in, I am looking for it in the world around me. I have the most kind neighbors ever. We are surrounded by Love. I get to feel the smile from strangers, who have looked at me and thanked me for simple gestures and expressions. Who have shared their hearts with me, because the invitation for kindness was present. Despite being over-run by disparity, there is an even greater majority who desire Love and Goodness. And that needs to be the driving force, for all of us who wish for Peace on Earth.
My last story. Because your post is a time stamp that speaks to a deeper part of my spiritual journey. And I feel I can honor this spiritual experience by sharing with you, and perhaps bring myself closer towards this greater resonance of Love that we all very deeply deserve.
Not only is your time stamp an indication to me of something greater, there is a symbol in my personal discovery that speaks to me too. It's the Peacock. And just yesterday I was listening to an independent news show where they take callers from all over the world. I tuned in late, and only enough to tune in for this one caller. And in all my years of listening, I rarely hear callers go off topic and go into spiritual realities. But that's exactly what happened. She mentioned that the peacock is her familiar(this was my clue to pay attention). She has a pet peacock. Ok, I'm listening. And she was desperately imploring to the listening audience that, "Death is a lie. Christ overcame death. Fear is how they control us. They fear us when we stop fearing death."
Her words may seem very harsh, or poignant. Maybe that's the point. But the greater message being imparted to me this year has been-
"Fear not"
and, "Life after Life"
That there is something greater, communicating with us... And what is this forum all about?
I know you didn't ask for all of this. But I hope it is well received, for all who are tuning in.
And I hope you feel safe again. Remember how much Love you deserve, remember how much Joy there is in the little things. Remember to take a break from the overwhelming amount of information that pulls us away from ourselves. Remember to find the Love in the world around you....
And fear not.
Love.... Love to you.
Love to All.
Gentle regards....
~CP