Hi everyone This is my first post. I am hoping I have chosen the right forum. First some quick background. I am Australian, living in Turkey. From the very first minute I set foot out of the airport in Istanbul 16 years ago I felt like I had come back to the home of my soul. When I left Turkey on that first trip, I cried uncontrollably for 4 hours on the flight home - I felt like I was being forcibly removed from a loved one... So I have always guessed I have some past life connection to Turkey. Around 6 months ago I started to see a man around the town I live in - I would see him everywhere I went - in restaurants, cafes, bars, and on the street... It got to the point that whenever we saw each other we would both start laughing so much because I think neither of us ran into anyone else as much as we ran into each other. From the first time I met him I felt like I had known him before, yet I only learned his name a few days before we went into our COVID-19 lockdown.. Just over a week ago we became friends online and spent 4 days of last weekend's curfew here in Turkey messaging back and forth all day each day. On Monday, we had a socially distanced meeting and talked non-stop for 10 hours. One of the first things he said to me is that he is certain we were married in a past life... I am inclined to agree. Anyway, the most incredible ten hours passed - it felt like just 1 or 2 hours, and we discussed everything under the sun... He is one of the nicest, kindest people I have ever met in my life. Fast forward to the next day, when suddenly his messages turned quite cool and lacked the warmth and connection of our previous messages, and he has essentially ghosted me without actually ghosting me... Of course I know we can't keep up the frequency of messaging as when we first started to chat - nothing would ever get done It doesn't make sense given we spent 10 hours together - why would he stay so long if he was not enjoying our connection? Since that happened I have been incredibly teary and I feel such a huge sense of loss which intellectually I know is ridiculous - how could I feel so distraught about someone I have only known for a week to talk to? I haven't felt as distraught as this after breaking up with people I have actually dated for an extended period of time... Again, I wonder if it could be connected to the past life thing? And I am struggling to understand from a past life perspective why the universe would bring this person into my life and then let us meet for 10 hours and get on famously, only for that to be ripped away from me without explanation... If anyone has any insight or ideas for me, I would be incredibly grateful. I need to soothe my soul. Thank you in advance.