Equestrienne7
Occasional visitor
hi all - I am very fortunate to live about an hour away from where Carol lives and practices, and last Thursday had a regression session with her. It was an amazing experience and Carol was wonderful to work with.
Though my strongest feelings are to what I believe is my last incarnation prior to the current one, the regression led me to an earlier life. I believe this is because I feel the previous life may have been a happy one, and in working with Carol, I was drawn to a life which was stressful to me and created emotions that I brought with me into the current life - feelings of shame and not belonging that I had from very early childhood.
The life I was brought back to was that of a man in 17th century Netherlands; I recalled my village and how pleasant it was there. However I felt anxiety which was due to the village's trade dying out due to competition from another village not far away who were taking our business away.
Eventually, the craftspeople (I never knew what it was we made) were driven out of business, I lost my home and my workshop and the money I'd saved and my wife and children and I left our village with our clothes and a few bundles and walked to a much larger town. I remembered feeling the sense of failure, as a father and husband I'd let my wife and children down, and fear that we would not be able to keep the children but that they'd have to go to work as menial farm laborers and my wife and I might have to as well. When we settled in the new town I found work and we had a home again, however we no longer owned our own home, I no longer had my own business, I had to work for someone else, and my wife had to take in laundry to make ends meet. I felt shame from this, and sadness, and for the remainder of my life I missed the old village, and our life there. I never really accepted or adjusted to the new town and it's ways. What was interesting was that several times I mentioned the church - and in this life I am very much NOT a churchy person and have avoided it whenever possible since I was a very young child.
Though I remember feeling shame and a sense of not belonging, I also remembered being happy that in this larger town my children were able to attend school which they had not in our village.
With Carol's guidance I followed the life through to it's end, and in our post-regression analysis of that life, I realized that the man I was then really did not need to feel shame as the loss of the business was "beyond my control" (to quote Valmont...) and that I did manage to keep the family intact, we did not lose the children to indentured servitude as farm laborers, we had a home, the children attended school, and it wasn't as bad an outcome is it might have been.
During the regression, at one point I actually began crying (not common for me) due to the strength of the emotions about my perceived failure, and the loss of our life in the village we loved, and I remember a feeling of lightness and release when I passed out of that life.
Though I hope to work with Carol again, and maybe get to the bottom of some of my other "issues", I really would like to explore that last lifetime, which I feel was English, even if it was a happy life and didn't leave any residual negativity to bring into this life!
Next time I think I'd like to work on my fear of basements, which would seem to indicate a dungeon death.
Though my strongest feelings are to what I believe is my last incarnation prior to the current one, the regression led me to an earlier life. I believe this is because I feel the previous life may have been a happy one, and in working with Carol, I was drawn to a life which was stressful to me and created emotions that I brought with me into the current life - feelings of shame and not belonging that I had from very early childhood.
The life I was brought back to was that of a man in 17th century Netherlands; I recalled my village and how pleasant it was there. However I felt anxiety which was due to the village's trade dying out due to competition from another village not far away who were taking our business away.
Eventually, the craftspeople (I never knew what it was we made) were driven out of business, I lost my home and my workshop and the money I'd saved and my wife and children and I left our village with our clothes and a few bundles and walked to a much larger town. I remembered feeling the sense of failure, as a father and husband I'd let my wife and children down, and fear that we would not be able to keep the children but that they'd have to go to work as menial farm laborers and my wife and I might have to as well. When we settled in the new town I found work and we had a home again, however we no longer owned our own home, I no longer had my own business, I had to work for someone else, and my wife had to take in laundry to make ends meet. I felt shame from this, and sadness, and for the remainder of my life I missed the old village, and our life there. I never really accepted or adjusted to the new town and it's ways. What was interesting was that several times I mentioned the church - and in this life I am very much NOT a churchy person and have avoided it whenever possible since I was a very young child.
Though I remember feeling shame and a sense of not belonging, I also remembered being happy that in this larger town my children were able to attend school which they had not in our village.
With Carol's guidance I followed the life through to it's end, and in our post-regression analysis of that life, I realized that the man I was then really did not need to feel shame as the loss of the business was "beyond my control" (to quote Valmont...) and that I did manage to keep the family intact, we did not lose the children to indentured servitude as farm laborers, we had a home, the children attended school, and it wasn't as bad an outcome is it might have been.
During the regression, at one point I actually began crying (not common for me) due to the strength of the emotions about my perceived failure, and the loss of our life in the village we loved, and I remember a feeling of lightness and release when I passed out of that life.
Though I hope to work with Carol again, and maybe get to the bottom of some of my other "issues", I really would like to explore that last lifetime, which I feel was English, even if it was a happy life and didn't leave any residual negativity to bring into this life!
Next time I think I'd like to work on my fear of basements, which would seem to indicate a dungeon death.
