Well, I'm not really able to comment on current painful events. My perspective there is that there are always good and bad things happening, daily, weekly, year by year. I suppose it is only in the present that we are in a position to change things - for the better one would hope. Other than that, I take a very long-term perspective.
Though that wasn't really what I wanted to talk about. What does strike me about your way of describing things
@spacely , is a kind of disconnected or fragmented view of what it means to be human. When I say fragmented, let me put it like this - just as a kind of illustration. When I think of myself, I just think of me, who I am, at every level from the superficial surface appearance to what I feel and know deep inside. I take all of that and consider it as a whole, that is how I think of 'me'. All of myself, together, whole.
But when I hear you talk of the soul, it is more like this: imagine standing in front of a mirror. Looking into the glass there is a reflection, it looks like a person, looks just as real as anyone else. But there is a strange thing. When I move my hand or raise my arm, the person behind the glass moves in exactly the same way. My every movement and gesture is copied. So which one is in control? Does the person behind the glass decide to raise his arm and I am forced to move my arm in an identical fashion? Which of the two is in charge of this situation?
Sometimes when I read of how you view the soul it seems from my point of view that you seem to have decided that you are the person behind the mirror. That is, you have no control, you are obliged to move like a puppet in response to the antics of the peculiar being on this side of the glass. Because of that, you feel you have no control, but are being manipulated by this mysterious 'soul'. My suggestion is that you have misunderstood the relationship. In fact you are the one on this side of the glass, you make the decisions, you are in charge.
Well, I've no idea whether that is helpful or just nonsense, but I'm trying to find a way to express how I understand things.